"Knock knock, can I come in?" Lori asked as she poked her head into my room. She stepped in and before I could say anything, she asked "So I heard what happened with Lisa." She gave me a disapproving look. I sighed. I already knew where this was going.
"Look I know I'm a jerk but she had it coming." I said as I crossed my arms. Lori sighed as she sat down beside me on the beanbag chair. "Can I tell you a story?" she asked. "Um, sure?" I replied, not knowing where this was going.
"Do you remember when Lincoln was born?" she asked, smiling a little. "Sure," I laughed, "we were home alone because Dad forgot to call Pop-Pop over to watch us. Best day ever!" Lori laughed, and said "Well there was one thing that happened, and because of that I wouldn't call it the best day ever." She looked down sadly.
"What happened?" I asked, my mind blank. "You don't remember?" she asked. I shook my head. "Well you were 4 years old, but I thought you would at least remember this. Anyways, after mom and dad left, and we were just all alone, Lynn started to cry BAD." She said.
"Oh yeah! I think I remember that! She wasn't hungry and didn't need a diaper change, she just wouldn't shut up." I smile, trying to remember that day.
"Yeah but that literally wasn't the worst part" Lori shuddered.
*Flashback*
"Lynn, please stop crying" a four-year old Luna says as she rocks a screaming two-year old Lynn in her arms. Meanwhile, Leni was playing hide and seek with Luan, and Lori was making peanut butter sandwiches for lunch.
"Get Lynn to be quiet! I'm trying to make lunch here!" Lori screamed from the kitchen. "I'm trying!" Luna screamed back. "Hey Lynn, why don't we go play outside? Would you like that?" Luna asked as she tickled Lynn, who flashed her a grin.
"Okay! Let's go!" Luna put Lynn on the ground, took her by the hand, and led her out the front door. "Ball!" Lynn said as she picked up her soccer ball that was on the porch. She went down to the front lawn and started kicking the ball around.
"Yes! Ball! Now go play while I help Lori with lunch, okay?" Luna said as she went back inside and to the kitchen. "Good job on getting Lynn to calm down. What did you do?" Lori asked as she handed a sandwich to Luna. "I let her play outside", Luna answered with a smug look on her face.
"YOU WHAT?!" Lori shrieked. She ran outside, to find a crying Lynn in the backyard. She was on the ground, and had a scraped knee. "Aw Lynn, did you fall down and get a boo-boo? Don't worry, your big sister is here", Lori said as she cradled Lynn in her arms.
"Luna, what the heck? Are you crazy? Lynn isn't Charles, you don't just let her out when she's upset! She's a baby, she could've wandered onto the street or gotten kidnapped. God! I can't believe you're even her sister, you don't have a brain! I wish you were never born into this family!" Lori screamed at Luna, then hurried inside with Lynn. Luna collapsed onto the ground and started crying, as Leni, who was watching from the door, ran over and put her arm around her to comfort her.
*Later that day*
Luna walked into Lynn's room and saw her sitting on her bed hugging her stuffed animal, Bun-Bun. It was the same stuffed animal that Lori first had, and got passed down the family as a hand-me down. She knew that Lynn had to pass it down to the new baby sooner or later. Luna sat down beside Lynn and stroked her hair.
"Lynn, I'm so sorry. I shouldn't have let you go outside on your own, I should've known you would've gotten hurt. Lori's right, I am a bad sister. I'm useless, and I don't know how to take care of any of you. I don't know what I'm going to do when mom and dad bring the new baby." She sighed as Lynn looked up at her with wide, tearful eyes.
"I promise you Lynn, I'm going to become a better sister. To you, to our other sisters, and our new sibling. I promise I won't ever let any of you get hurt again." Luna cried as she hugged Lynn. Little did she know that Lori was watching from the doorway with tearful eyes, but a proud smile on her face.
*Back to present*
"You know, I always regretting yelling at you like that. Luckily since you were really young, you forgave me right after I gave you chocolate" Lori laughed. "Wow, I actually don't remember that at all. I mean, I think I would have remembered getting chocolate from 'Miss Chocoholic' herself", I said as I stroked my chin.
"That's not the point", Lori said, punching me in the arm. "Oh, there's a point to this story?" I raised my eyebrow. Lori rolled her eyes and said, "You promised Lynn that you won't let anything hurt her, that you'll be a better sister to everyone." She said.
"I know", I said as I looked down at my lap. "I guess it's just hard. Sometimes I even wish I wasn't born the third eldest. I get so much responsibilities in this family that I'm not ready for. I need to protect everyone, and raise them right. Sometimes I can't handle it. So I blow, just like tonight." I sigh as I stand up and walked to mirror.
Lori walks up behind me and looks at me in the mirror. "We all make mistakes Luna. The best thing about family is that we say things we don't mean and we know that. The reason I told you this story? I yelled at you, said I wished you weren't our sister. Literally ten minutes later you forgave me. Not just because I gave you chocolate, but because you knew I didn't mean it. Lisa was hurt at first, it's normal. But she'll soon realize you didn't mean it, and she'll know you still love her. That's the best part about being siblings, forgiving each other. All you need is some chocolate and an apology and everything will be fine."
"You really think so?" I ask as I turn around to face her. "I know so. Just remember, you're supposed to be setting an example to them. Luna, we all love you, and our younger siblings will look up to you, all the time. They think you're the fun, cool, older sister, and they want to be you. I mean, no pressure or anything, but it's amazing to know that 8 other people in this house see you as their role model." She smiles but I can still see a hint of jealousy in her eyes.
"You're right", I say, "They do look up to me, and I need to keep up on my promise and be a good sister to them." I smile brightly. "Thanks Lori. You're the best" I say as I give her a hug. "I know", she says smugly. I laugh as I gently shove her. Then I walked out of the room and towards Lisa's.
This is it, don't chicken out Luna, I think in my head as I walked into Lisa's room. "Hey Lise", I say awkwardly. She was just sitting on her bed, looking at the ground. "Oh, hello third eldest sibling." She says as she awkwardly adjusts her glasses.
"Lisa I'm so so sorry. I don't know what got over me, to say all those cruel stuff to you. You're my sister for God's sake! How could I say that! I know you must really really hate me and I know I'm like the worst sister in the world but all I'm asking is for you to forgive me please?" I ramble, with tears in my eyes.
Lisa chuckles. "I'm sorry. Did- did I miss the joke here?" I ask as I look around to see… what exactly she was laughing at. "Luna, you don't have to apologize. What I did was… well… wrong! I could've really hurt someone. I'm the bad sister, not you. I really don't know anything about family." She says quietly as she looks down again.
I sigh. "No Lisa, that's not true. You're a great sister. You're super smart and talented. I mean, you help all of us with our homework! You're the one that everyone is impressed with, because you're four and can do college math." I grin as I nudge her with my shoulder.
She looks up at me. "Do- do you really think that's impressive?" She asks with wide eyes. "Um, HECK YEAH! You're the genius of this family, which is really awesome when you think about it. But besides all the brains, you have a really big heart, and you're willing to do anything for this family. I know that now." I say as I give her a hug.
"I love you so much Luna." She says, as she hugs me back, "and apology accepted." She grins at me. "Thank you", I say as I stand up and take a little bow. She laughs. I stop at the door and turn around. "And Lisa? I love you too." I smile as I walk out and close the door softly behind me.
"Nice job." Lynn says from behind me. "AHHH!" I scream. "Jesus Lynn, give me a heart attack, why don't you?" I say, with one hand over my now pounding heart. "Oh wait, that's Lucy's job." I say as I roll my eyes.
"Wait, were you listening to everything?" I ask with my hands on my hips. "Um, duh. But I also listened in on you and Lori as well." She smirked. "God, you do 11 sports and right now your only hobby is eavesdropping?" I ask as I roll my eyes.
"I know I was young, but I do have a vague memory of you almost killing me…. Then promising me you'd become a better sister. I'm glad you've still kept that promise." She says, as she tosses the baseball in her hand up in the air.
"Yeah, well, I am a pretty good promise-keeper." I say as I pretended to toss my hair over my shoulder. Lynn laughs, and says, "Yeah, well you're also a pretty good sister too." She grins at me as she starts to walk to her room, still tossing the baseball.
"Oh… and Luna?" she says as she turns around. "I don't know about the others… but you definitely are my role model." She smiles as she walks into her room and closes the door. After she's gone, I do a little happy dance. "OH YEAHHHH I'M THE BEST SISTER EVERRRR! Oh yeah, go Luna, go Luna go-"
"-Luna?" I hear a voice and stop mid-dance. I turn around to see Lola looking very creeped out. "Heyyyy Lola," I say as I try to look casual. "Um, I don't know what exactly I just saw, but whatever it was could you take it to your room so I could get my beauty sleep?" She asked, still with a creeped out look on her face.
"Yeah, sure… and.. um… could we pretend like none of this happened?" I asked as I tried to smooth down my hair. "Oh don't worry… I've already erased it from my mind," she mutters as she goes back inside her room.
Even though I just made a complete idiot of myself, I smile, knowing that starting tomorrow, things were going to be different. I was going to show the world that Luna Loud can be the perfect big sister.
I'M ALIVEEEEE! Aren't you guys glad I didn't die? Were you preparing my funeral, aww how sweet of you! Okay so please forgive me and don't hate. Story time: I went on vacation last summer, and came home to so much changes. Changes that involved me going through depression, suicidal thoughts… it was awful . Things are getting just a teeny bit better, and I'm glad for that. Hmmm what else happened? Oh yeah! Two weeks ago your girl turned 16! (No applause please) I got my liscense, so yay me! And I finished my last exam on Friday, so basically this whole week is no school for me! I went back on fanfiction last night, caught up on the stories I missed, and finally managed to convince myself to stop being a lazy bum and just write a new chap. So that's exactly what I did, and to make up for taking such a long time (6 months exactly) I wrote a long chap! I feel like writing definitely helps with my depression, makes me feel like I can escape from the pain. I am praying that I will write again tomorrow, if I can actually think of a story and if I can actually stop being so lazy. Literally after the summer I kinda wanted to quit fanfiction because I was lazy and didn't think I would have the time -_- but now I am actually gonna try, and who knows? Maybe I'll start updating regularily. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE COMMENT BELOW ON WHAT SHOULD HAPPEN NEXT, I would love to hear your ideas and maybe just maybe I might use your idea in the next chap? BUT PLEASE GIVE ME IDEAS CUZ I GOT NOTHINGGGGG! Anyways, hope you love this chap! Enjoyyyy, till next time (hopefully this week) xoxo, dreamergirl