Lori paced back and forth outside the hospital room. Everyone watched curiously as the eldest muttered under her breath. Lynn finally had enough, and exclaimed "God Lori, can you stop pacing? It's getting annoying".
Lori slowly turned and gave Lynn a death glare. In return, Lynn also gave her a death glare. Lana, who was sitting in Lynn's lap, gulped.
"How can you be so calm?" Lori asked. Lynn rolled her eyes, and said , "Maybe because Lisa said she'd be fine, and the fact that Luna was still breathing?"
When the kids had ran to Luna's room and saw her lying on the ground with her wrists slit, they were shocked.
Lynn thought fast and ripped off her sleeves, and used them to tie around Luna's wounds. Since she was an athlete, she knew all about injuries and how to deal with bleeding. She knew that you needed to apply pressure to stop the bleeding.
While Lynn was doing that, Lisa was checking out the wounds. She said that since Luna hadn't cut near her veins, and she didn't cut deep, that she would be fine. Still, Lori was worried since Luna was unconscious, and she'd been a wreck ever since.
"I know, but it's all my fault", Lori started to cry. Lynn's face instantly softened, and she felt bad.
Meanwhile Leni has walked over to Lori and started to whisper something to her. Lori nodded a few times, and Leni gave her a hug. The others were clueless as to what just happened, but hey, Leni managed to comfort Lori, so they weren't complaining.
Lana tugged on Lynn's shirt, and said "Lynn, I wanna go see Luna". Lynn looked down at Lana who looked like she was about to cry. The poor girl. "Not yet Lana, but I promise we'll see her soon." She told the little girl. But Lana didn't listen. She jumped out of Lynn's arms and ran into the room. "Lana! No!" Lynn yelled as she ran after her.
Inside, Lynn saw an awake and confused Luna, who was holding Lana. By the looks of it, Lana had just ran and jumped into Luna's arms. The doctor looked at Luna, then Lana, and then turned to look at Lynn. She shrugged, not knowing what to say. The doctor just smiled and walked out to talk to Lori.
"Lanz…. Can't… breathe…." Luna wheezed. Lynn just watched with amusement as Lana practically suffocated her. Luna looked at Lynn, and said "Lynn… please… help…"
Lynn smirked. "Hey, you deserve it for scaring us like that" she said. After a few moments of watching Lana hug Luna super tight, Lynn finally went over and pried Lana off of her.
"Jesus Christ girl, I think your hands are now imprinted on the back of my neck", Luna told Lana while rubbing her neck. Lynn laughed and even Lana smiled a little as she wiped her tears.
Suddenly, the other came rushing in and instantly started smothering Luna. "Guys, guys. I'm fine, really." Luna proclaimed.
"Why? Why Luna?" Luan cried as she held Luna's hand. "I- I don't know. I've been hearing these weird voices in my head, voices telling me that i'm not loved or needed in this family." Luna replied. They suddenly grew silent. Life without Luna? That would be chaotic.
"Luna what are you talking about? Whenever Lori isn't home, you're the one who keeps this family together. You know what foods we like and dislike, you know when we're feeling sad, how to cheer us up, you know when we're hiding something, you know how to get everyone out of the door on a Monday morning, and you can multitask, like you can totes give Lily a bottle, make lunch, separate the twins from fighting and help Lucy with a poem all at once. You're like a total machine!" Leni exclaimed.
"Above all, you're our sister, and we love you. You do so much for us, and without you we'd be nothing." Luan said, smiling.
"I know i've already mentioned this, but you're my role model Luna. I look up to you, not to be a musician, and not because I physically have to.. but to be a good older sister. I mean, Lori is awesome. But she has two jobs to handle, so she's not around as much. I'm not complaining, without her we'd be nothing too. But you're practically raising us, and we love you for that." Lynn said punching Luna in the shoulder.
Lori watched from the doorway. She was afraid to come in, afraid to see Luna like this. It was her fault, she kept blaming herself. Luna did do a lot for the family, and without her Lori wouldn't know what she would do. Has she been taking Luna for granted?
"Lori?" Lincoln interrupted her thoughts. She walks over slowly to stand beside Luna, but doesn't meet her eyes.
Leni, knowing that they'll need privacy, says "Hey guys, why don't we leave them alone to talk and go hit the vending machines for chocolate? It's on me". She smiles as everyone cheers and walks out, leaving Lori and Luna alone.
"Lori…" Luna starts to say, but Lori cuts her off. "No Luna. I talk, you listen. Got it?" she said firmly. Luna nodded.
"After the accident, I was worried that the little ones would be devastated. I tried to focus so much on them, that I didn't care to focus on you. You were hurting Luna, and I never noticed. I paid little attention to you. I know I'm like the worst sister in the world. You must hate me. But I'm so sorry. Luna if you ever need to talk, don't think I'm not here for you. I will always be here whenever you need me. I love you so much, okay?" she says hugging Luna.
"Lori, dude, this isn't your fault. It's mine. I did it because I thought it'd be easier for you, you know, one less kid to feed, right?" Lori's eyes widened when she hears this. "I know dude, stupid. But I know you're having money problems, and I know you lost one of your jobs and Lori, I want to help. That's why I'm here. I finally accepted the fact that being the third oldest means more responsibility, and i'm ready for that. I'll get a job, or do some late night gigs, whatever it does to get money. But I won't ever, ever think suicide is the answer. I know that now." Luna says.
Lori take a moment to think about all this. "Luna, thank you. I'll admit, it's been scary to think about the fact we're having money problems, but the fact that you want to help makes me happy. I guess we can talk about you or Leni getting a job later. Right now, let's just go home. And yes, the doctor says since it's not that bad a cut that you can come home right now." She explains, looking at Luna's confused face.
Luna smirks, and says "You know, Lori, you're not as much of a jerk as we like to think you are." Which earns a punch on the shoulder from Lori. Luna laughs as she takes Lori's hand and walks out of the room.
*Flashback*
"Lunie, uppie", a two-year old Lynn says as she raises her hands up. She had just woken up from a nap and was fussy. Luna rolls her eyes at the nickname and picks Lynn up and out of her crib.
This was her job, after all. Since Lynn was the youngest of the sisters, she had the middle room that was right in front of the stairs.
Lori had the first room (the one that she and Leni share now), Leni has the second room (the one that Luna/Luan share now), Lynn has the third, Luna has the fourth (the one that the twins share now) and Luan has the fifth (the one that Lisa/Lily share now).
Since Luna was on the other side of Lynn, she was the one who always went to take care of her when she cries. Leni should've, since she was older, but she had once dropped Luan and ever since then she wasn't allowed to hold a baby unless she had parent supervision. Lori was too busy playing tea parties, especially with Leni, and of course Luan was too young, so it was Luna's job.
She was four. What kind of parents makes their four- year old daughter take care of their two- year old? Speaking of the devil….
"Luna, honey, can you get- oh nevermind, you already got her", Rita says as she peers into the room. She's holding baby Lincoln in her arms.
"Honey I have to take Lincoln to the doctor for a check-up. Your fathers working in his room, and he isn't to be disturbed unless there is an emergency.
Lori and Leni have a play date with a friend, I'm going to drop them off on the way. Do you mind watching Lynn and Luan?" she asks her daughter.
Luna sighs. She doesn't want to, obviously. But what choice did she have? Her mother was exhausted. Babies were tough work. Especially since this was her first boy, and she took care of him with extra care.
So that's why she found herself watching her younger siblings while her mom was out. It wasn't easy. Lynn was a runner, so Luna had to chase her over the whole house. She finally caught her and put her down in front of the TV, putting on a soccer game. Lynn loved watching soccer, so there was no way she'd take her eyes off the screen.
Of course, this wasn't the end of the problem. While she was chasing Lynn, Luan had managed to escape as well.
Luna looked all over the whole house, and finally found Luan in the kitchen. The three-year old was sitting on top of the counter, fiddling with the knobs on the stove. How she got up there, Luna had no idea.
Panicked, Luna rushed over and picked up Luan, putting her on the ground. Then she pushed a chair over so she could reach over and turn off the stove.
However, her arm brushed along the burning hot stove. Luna's eyes widened, and she let out an ear-piercing scream.
*Half an Hour later*
Luna, honey. I'm so sorry." Rita said as she applied ointment to Luna's burn. Luna winced, and then glared at her mother.
They were sitting on Luna's bed. Lynn and Luan were sitting in front of her, watching their mother take care of her wound. Lincoln was finally asleep, and Lori and Leni were still on their play date so the house was quiet.
"It's all your fault! You left me alone with them!" Luna yelled. "Lunie?" Lynn asks as she cocks her head. She was confused as to why her big sister was yelling at their mother. "Stop calling me that," Luna snapped at her sister.
"Luna! What has gotten into you?" Rita asked, confused with her daughters behaviour. "It's you fault! You're the one who keeps having babies! Why do you even have babies if you can't make time for the kids you already have?" Luna yelled.
Rita was hurt by this, she had no idea Luna felt this way. "Luna, sweetie. I'm sorry, but babies need attention. Yes, I admit your father and I have been taking care of the babies mostly and not you, and i'm sorry for that. But honey, that doesn't mean we don't love you." She says as she stroked Luna's hair.
"It- it doesn't?" Luna sniffled. "Honey, of course not. I love you. Your father loves you. Your brother and sisters love you. I may not have time for you because the babies are really young. Especially Lincoln and Lynn. Sweetie when you were a baby I paid more attention to you then to Lori or Leni. But as you guys grew older, we started to pay less attention to you and more to the younger ones. That doesn't mean I don't love you. In fact, I love you more than anything in this world." She says as she kisses Luna's forehead.
"You even love me more than the others?" Luna asked, with wide eyes. Rita chuckles, and says "Nice try. I love you all equally. You're all my babies." She hugs Luna tight.
"I want to join the hug!" Luan said as she hugged them. "I love you Luna", Luan says, looking up at her big sister. Little did she know, that Luna would turn out to be her best friend.
"Huggies!" Lynn squealed as she jumped into Luna's arms. The others laughed at baby Lynn. "I- I love you Lunie", Lynn said as she hugged Luna. "I love you too. I love both of you," Luna says as she kisses both Luan and Lynn on the top of their heads.
"And now…. The tickle monster is coming!" She yelled as she started ticking her baby sisters, who were screaming. Rita took this moment to quietly leave. She stopped at the doorway, and smiled as she watched her babies laugh and have fun with each other.
*Back to present*
"Lunie, wake up", someone said, poking Luna in the ribcage. Luna stirred, then rubbed her eyes. She was back in her room. She probably fell asleep in he car, and Lynn must've carried her in, since she was the strongest. Funny how she was just dreaming of a baby Lynn, who she used to pick up and carry around, but now it was the other way around.
Luna turned to see who woke her up. She rubbed her eyes and opened them wider, to see Lana sitting at the edge of her bed, looking scared.
"Can I sleep in here tonight? I had a nightmare", she whined. It took Luna a few moments to find the right words. "Why not Lori?" she asked Lana who wrinkled her nose, then replied "She has work tomorrow. You know the rules."
Right. The rule was that if Lori had work the next day, she was not to be waken up in the middle of the night unless it was an absolute emergency. Luna knew this rule would be hard for Lana, since she always had nightmares and went to Lori when she was afraid.
"How about Leni?" Luna suggested. She loved Lana, but right now she was insanely tired. "Leni is afraid of the aliens too! But you'll fight them away, right?" Lana asked her.
"I'm pretty sure Lynn could fight them off better than I can" Luna told her. Lana sniffled, and a single tear rolled down her cheek. "But I mean, i'd definitely throw hands if they wanted to come near you", she said quickly. Lana smiled a little, and Luna shifted over to make space. Lana snuggled in and wrapped her arms around Luna.
"Did you ever have nightmares?" Lana asked her older sister. Luna sighed, and said "Yes but I never went to Lori when I had nightmares."
"Why not?"
"I started having them when I was four, which made Lori six. That's your age dude. No way could she deal with nightmares."
"So what did you do?"
"I went to Mom and Dad. They'd let me crash in their room for the night."
"Lucky", Lana sighed. Luna raised an eyebrow. "You kidding? I would've loved to go to an older sister when I had nightmares. I still remember when I first had a younger sibling come to me with nightmare problems." Luna sighed at the memory. "What happened? Who was it?" Lana perked up.
"Lynn. I was 7, she was 5. She came into my room after being afraid. Some kind of nightmare related to monster or something. She made me check under her bed, and even after I gave her the clearing she wouldn't leave. So I let her bunk with me, and man she kicked in her sleep. But I guess it was worth it to keep her happy."
Lana didn't say anything. Then she asked the question that's been on her mind for a long time. "You and Lynn are close. Well, you were close, when you were younger. Why? And why aren't you that close now?"
"I was actually just dreaming something from the past. It involved Lynn, and the fact that since mom was so busy with Linc, I basically raised Lynn. Her first word was Lunie. That's why when you came in I thought it was her at first." Luna told her.
Lana blushed, and said, "Yeah, sorry about that. I just thought Lunie had a nice ring to it. But seriously, she started calling you Lunie?"
"Mhm. I'm telling you, I practically raised Lynn. When Luan was a baby, I was really young so obviously I didn't spend that much time with her. But I remember a lot of when Lynn was a baby, so she was technically the first sibling I started taking care of by myself. But when she started getting nightmares, she would sleep with me ever night. It went on for a year before mom stopped letting her. I mean, it was becoming a habit, and if that went on Lynn would be afraid to sleep by herself for the rest of her life. So I stopped letting her crash with me, but of course I still checked under her beds and in her close. God even those first few nights she made me sleep in her room, but on the ground. Then she finally let me go back to my room.. I think after that we spent less time together. I started getting close to Luan, and her with Lucy. But even then, we still have a connection, you know? Deep down, I know I'm her favourite older sister, and she's my favourite sister too. I mean, not favourite favourite, but we have this weird bond.. I love her in a way that's hard to explain. Maybe it's because she's like my baby sis, and she always will be." Luna says, staring up at the ceiling.
Lana listened patiently. She looked up at Luna, and asked her, "Luna, will we ever lose each other?"
"What?"
"In my nightmare, the aliens started taking everyone away, first mom and dad, then you…"
"Lana..-"
"I don't wanna lose anyone else. I'm scared Lunes."
"Anyone else?"
"We almost lost you tonight."
"I'm sorry Lanz"
"Luna.. what you said about Lynn. You really love her. Don't you love us? Don't you- don't you love me?"
"Lana, what the heck? Of course I love you. You asked me about Lynn and I told you. But if you asked me about you, well, I would've said that you mean a lot to me."
"I do?"
"Kid, you remind me of a young me! A young me and a young Lynn rolled together. But dude, you are amazing. You're 6 and you can fix anything. Girl you fixed Bobby Fletcher's car that one time! Lana, you impress me so much with everything you do. Of course I love you, you weirdo."
"But what if you decide to kill your self again?"
Oh Lana. Luna rubbed her sisters back.
"Please don't leave me Luna. I don't want to lose you. Promise me you won't leave me." Lana cried into Luna's shirt.
Luna kissed the top of Lana's head, and told her, "I promise Lana. Wherever you go, wherever you'll be, you'll always have me with you. You won't ever lose me. I promise."
ITS 1:34 AM! I am writing this on my phone because my laptop was too loud. If you read my authors note, you understood my problem. I didn't wanna wait till tomorrow to write because I have bad memory and I knew I would forget everything I wrong. Surprisingly I ain't that tired though, I think I drank too much coke. So obviously I didn't write exactly what I wrote in the chapter I originally wrote. I took a few dialogue parts out, since my finger hurt so much. I know I said no more luna and lynn… hehe sorry I just wanted to add one small part just to tell a little story of the two when they were younger. Sometimes I feel that if there was an episode of the past, Luna would def be taking care of Lynn. Plus I really love baby lynn lool. I decided to start adding parts with Luna and each one of her siblings. Lana is definitely my third favourite, so she came in this, I love how cute she is when she's afraid. I honestly had no idea what to write between the two of them so I hope you like this small fluff. I think it'll be hard to write something with Lisa, since idk science stuff, and hard to write luan, since I have no sense of humour -_-…. Anyways I hope this chapt was longer than the others god I hate when they're so short. I think the next time i'll update will either be tomorrow night or by next Sunday, I promise i'll try! Please review, and ofc enjoy! Xoxo, dreamergirl