Nope, not dead... yet :) so i'm guessing y'all hate me, like a lot. You're gonna hate me anymore when you realize this isn't an update but it's an author's note. Please read though, if you wanna know what's going on with this story.

I'm gonna be honest with you, I have no excuse for why I didn't write. Literally I had everything planned out, and I had time. But something changed.

Right after I finished telling y'all about the contest, I somehow winded up reading winx club fanfics. Yes, winx club, fairies and stuff ik i'm a kid.

When I first got into fanfiction, it was only because of winx club. (not world of winx though, i hate it so much) I loved this show so much, and i still do. Maybe it wasn't the show, but it was the fanfics that people wrote about it

jk, it was totally the show. that anddd the super hot guys. reading winx club fanfics was what i did all the time, and i even made stories about winx club myself

Then i started watching the loud house, and my love for winx club died and instead my love for the loud house grew. It was a habit i had, i would get into different shows and forget about the others.

for example, i was obsessed with baby daddy over the christmas break and binge-watched, however i lost that interest and still haven't bothered to finish season 5.

I will though, just give me some time and i'll finish the show lol.

anyways, i started reading loud house fanfics. funny story, when i first read a loud house fanfic it was like the third or fourth story that was ever on the archive. I WAS HERE FROM THE VERY START

and finally, i decided to write my own loud house fanfic. and thats where i met you guys, my awesome fans who i love so very much more than anything. You guys are what keeps me going, what makes me write this story. LOVE LOVE LOVE YALLLL

but when i had writers block after the last chap, for some reason i found myself reading a few winx club fanfics, and i totally lost interest in loud house and went straight to winx club.

lemme rephrase that.

i will never lose interest in the loud house. I love it and am always there to watch new episodes right when it comes out. however, lately i've started to get more obsessed with winx club.

actually, more obsessed with the boys of winx club lol.

I thought about it for a while, should i write winx club fanfics, cuz i have a TON of ideas going through my mind right now.

Then i told myself no, you still haven't finished the loud house. and i definitely don't have time to do two stories, since i have exams in 7, 8 weeks?

and i'm going to london for the summer, leaving the second week of july and coming back the first week of september.

my flight lands the day before i start school. go figure.

anyways...

I can't do that. I can't write two stories at once, maybe later but not now. As of now though, i have no idea what to do about this story.

Let me make one thing clear to everyone.

I am not going to delete this story. nor will I quit.

I was a young girl who was told I couldn't do much. I got the courage to write, and publish my stories for hundreds of people to read.

I could never quit this story.

I need time. my mind is going crazy. I have problems left and right that make me so confused. I used to say writing helps me escape. and it does, it still does.

But now, i'm stressing to write just to update for you guys. and i don't want that. The pressure i get thinking, i need to update, so everyone can read what'll happen next. I never wanted that. But that's what i am now.

and i hate that feeling.

sitting here, stressing out, i have no idea on what i wanna do. but then i took a deep breath, and let it out.

i will finish this story. I don't know how, not with my mind going all crazy, but I will.

I wanted to write today. then i realized that I still had no ides what I wanted to make Lynn's problem. i got very few people who wrote their ideas, but none of it got me hooked.

don't get me wrong, they were great ideas. I think i had an idea, deep down inside, that I really wanted to do. However, i wanted to see if someone else could think of a better one.

That's what got me stressing right now. I decided, i'm going to stick with the idea I had originally.

Then i realized, stop. this is what's stressing me out, worrying about you guys. If you really are my fans, you'll love my story the way i write it, without caring when I update it.

as of now, I'm gonna start writing for myself. to get away from this madness. I might start a winx club fanfic by this week, who knows? if i'm really into it.

again, not quitting this story. it will be updated soon.

I will try to update this week. if not by next week, i promise.

i love you guys so so so much. you're the reason i kept going and kept writing when I really wanted to quit. you're helping me get away from the pain inside, just by reading my story.

love from the bottom of my heart.

xoxo, dreamergirl :)