Quick Authors Note: Phew, it's been some time since I last updated. I apologize for that. But for now, I hope everyone enjoys the chapter after the long wait!
Chapter III: Positive
I start to hum softly as I wash the dishes in the sink, carefully and diligently. It had been three months since I have been off the pill, and I have been waiting for any signs of pregnancy. Though, a couple times I got a little too excited when looking at my stomach thinking I was pregnant and I would go out and buy a test and to only find it negative. I guess, I was just being a glutton as usual and overindulging in my food, hence my imaginary swelling or not so imaginary.
Every week on Friday, Levi and I had sex. It was sometimes rough depending on how his day at work went or it was sometimes gentle. I personally prefer his gentle side but I won't ever say that out loud. Though his gentle side, rarely came out, I liked it when he caressed my skin and actually lied side by side, naked together, and very rarely I would feel him kiss my arm as I slept before he left for work. I was surprised these days he let me sleep in. Normally he would have woken me with him.
I then put the final dish in the rack, and turn the water off, it was noon time and a Friday. I sigh drying my hands on the towel by the sink and I begin to walk off. The day was warm and sunny and it felt peaceful, probably a little too peaceful.
With nothing to do, I walk into the living room and turn on the tv. The first thing that pops on is the news because Levi likes to watch it every day after dinner, a nonstop routine. The first thing that pops up on the screen and on the headlines is a very petite and curvy blonde. She then announces "A young woman attending Shina University was found dead, earlier yesterday afternoon."
I make a face, muttering "Isn't that the university Levi works at.."
I hold the remote as I listen to the reporter continuing speaking on the television "The police have not come forward with a statement quite yet. Other than the victim to have been attacked by an animal of sorts-" I quickly switch the channel hearing it wasn't, in fact, a murder, but an animal attack. My worrying ceasing. You didn't hear about them too often as there weren't much woods around here. So I did feel; a bit surprised.
'I wonder if Levi knew her...' I think.
I worried Levi was overworking himself, he didn't even eat his dinner last night...Instead, he focused on the paperwork his superior, Erwin Smith gave him. And I doubt he would eat leftovers, so all my hard work would go to waste. After thinking about food, my stomach growls but I ignore it at the moment. I was currently trying to diet and have been cutting back on my food intake, though it seems each week I fail.
I sigh as it growls again when moments pass, and I stand up. I should just eat his leftovers for lunch. "Stupid greedy belly," I mutter to myself while walking to the kitchen. The dog watches me as if ashamed from his bed and I glare slightly at him before opening the fridge and taking out the plate. I take the saran wrap and undo it before placing in the microwave and putting it in for 4 minutes.
As I watch the timer go down and the more the food heats, the smell of the food hits me. I sigh in content, and I couldn't wait to eat. Once the microwave, chimes I open it and take the plate out and set it down on the table top. I then take a fork and knife from the dish drainer, and I sit down at the table and begin to eat in silence. Each bite, like a little bit of heaven. I wish I didn't enjoy food so much...or else I would be thin again.
I wish I was like Levis coworker, Sasha, who could eat and eat and never gain a pound. I was quite jealous of her, as we shared the same fondness over food but unlike her, I gained weight quite easily.
After finishing half what was on my plate, I start to feel full but I force myself to eat the rest not wanting to waste any food. I sigh, after pushing the last bite into my mouth and then I stretch. I start to feel lazy as now I have a full and warm stomach.
I sigh as I look down placing a hand on my belly. When I sit, my chubby belly also sits on my lap like it had a life of its own. I hated my new body but this is what I get because of my life choices. And I kept telling myself, I would lose the weight I gained, but really I was getting lazy. I should probably start walking the dog more instead of just letting him out back to do his business. If I just got back into my active life, things would be fine.
What was really depressing is Levi and I's wedding photo that was hanged up in the kitchen. Reminding me of when I was thin and beautiful each time I went out into the kitchen.
Though, I smile softly. The time that picture was taken, was one of the happiest moments of my life but Levi didn't smile in the picture like I did. My family tried and tried to get him to smile but he refused just saying 'Take the damn picture already.' He said that sentence about 5 different times, but no one listened to him until he started getting angry and then they quickly snapped the photo.
After the photo was taken I could only laugh but again Levi refused to laugh, he never did like getting his photo taken. Each time I tried taking a picture for social media when we were dating, he would put up a fuss and smack my phone out of my hands. He was the most stubborn brat when it came to simple things. I only have a few photos of him, which was never enough for me.
I stand up, taking my plate to the sink and rinsing the dish off before setting it down. When I start washing the dish, I start feeling nauseated rather quickly. The food I have just eaten, not sitting well in my stomach and I quickly turn the water off and run towards the trash can, throwing up everything I ate just now and for breakfast. The smell emitting from the trash doesn't help much either making my stomach twist and turn.
I grimace before straightening myself out, and the gross feeling doesn't last as something clicks in my head...Was this the beginning of morning sickness...? Or well afternoon sickness in this case. Was I finally pregnant? Or had I eaten something bad?
I start to feel sudden happiness as I place a hand on my belly, thinking if I was indeed carrying Levi's child how would he react? Happy no doubt, as he was the one who brought up having children and told me he wanted a baby. Then it would also make sense, that I was craving a lot more foods lately, and eating more than usual. But there was only one way to find out, a pregnancy test.
I go to reach for my car keys but a sudden wave of nausea hits me again...'Maybe in a little while,' I think as yet again I run for the downstairs bathroom.
Once nighttime finally came, I had gone out to the nearest pharmacy and bought the pregnancy test. Then upon arriving back home again, I instantly used it only to find out...it was positive! I cried a little bit, overjoyed I was finally pregnant after 3 months. Though I had wondered how far along I was now. The last pregnancy test I bought and checked was nearly 5 weeks ago. So it was very well I could be about a month into my pregnancy.
Then I had sat in the living room chair, waiting for Levi to come home from work...but he never came home that night. I had waited and waited, only for me to pass out come midnight and after making a celebration dinner for us. Upon waking up in the morning, at the crack of dawn, I had grown worried so I sent him a test.
Today at 7:01 am
Me: Is everything ok? You didn't come home last night...
When I get no reply back, I purse my lips before calling his phone, only for no one to pick up. Minute's toll by and I start biting my lip, and just when I'm about to call his boss Erwin, I get a text back.
Today at 7:34 am
Levi: Sorry, fell asleep in the classroom. On my way home now.
I quickly type a reply back as soon as he sent the message.
Me: Ok. You jerk... I was really worried you know.
I let out a sigh of relief, for a moment the worst case scenarios had popped into my head. Stuff like, what happened if he had gotten into a car accident, or, what happened if he was with another woman? Though I quickly dismissed the second thought, this was Levi we were talking about, he would never cheat on me, right? I then look down at my body, pinching at my fat at my sides.
But what if he's disgusted at what I have become...and hasn't said anything? I begin to think, paranoid thoughts filtering into my head. This late night stuff and 'overworking' crap only just begin as of recently. Right when I put on the weight...has he gone to another woman for comfort? I feel my heart drop at such thoughts and visuals as I grip my phone tightly.
He couldn't be cheating, he has asked for a baby with me. Why would a cheater ask that...Suspicion begins to weigh heavy on my heart and there be only one thing to make me feel better...and that was to investigate him.
I get up from my spot on the sofa once I hear the front door open, the dog starts barking but stops once finding out his owner has come home. Levi reaches down petting the dog on the head before his eyes glance up towards me, and I notice dark circles under his eyes.
I Immediately say, announcing first, "I'm pregnant."
"Really?" he asks as he drops his briefcase on the floor., and his hand stops petting the dog.
"Yes really. I was going to tell you last night...but you never came home." I say, my tone coming off as slightly snotty.
He approaches me, getting close to me and he hesitantly places his hand on my belly, his eyes cast down towards it as he gently swipes his thumb back and forth. He doesn't respond to my slightly snotty sentence, instead choosing to ignore it. His face doesn't seem overjoyed like I expected, not even a smile but then again this was Levi. I didn't really expect him to jump up and down excitedly. His face is rather serious, as his hand still remains on my belly.
I feel my heart flutter slightly, as he tried to hide it but I notice the corner of his lips tug up slightly before he forces his lips to go back into a straight line. Then he says "I'm glad. We can work on the babies nursery once I get my weeks vacation next month from Erwin. Until then, I want you to see a doctor. Make an appointment...Do what you have to do to make sure the baby is healthy."
I nod, my suspicion and anger not lasting long. Levi removes his hand from my belly before placing a hand on my cheek, his rare shows of affection. He then leans up before placing a chaste kiss on my lips. He lets his lips linger before pulling away and he says "You will be a fine mother, Mrs. Ackerman."
"And you will be a fine, but strict father Mr, Ackerman," I mutter in return leaning down and returning his kiss, but smiling into it. There's no way he's cheating on me...
"Damn right, not any brat of mine will run wild and make messes." he says 'tsking' slightly at the thought of it. "Boy or girl...dosen't matter. They will learn to listen to rules and their parents."
I giggle slightly as he pulls away and he goes to the living room and collapsing in his chair and sighing. I follow him and he apologizes again, "I'm sorry about not coming home...Erwin just has me overworked right now..."
I sit on the sofa smiling before I say "Its fine. Why don't you get some sleep? You look tired. Do you want me to make you a tea?"
His eyes glance over at the mention of tea but he's stubborn and says "Tch, I can make my own tea. You don't need to make it for me. and you are the one who should be resting. I'm not the one carrying a child. "
I shush him standing up and heading towards the kitchen "Quiet you. I'm making it whether you want me to or not."
He quietens down, and by the time I make his tea and come back in the living room he had fallen asleep in his chair after reclining back into it. I smile again, setting the tea down on the coffee table and drape a blanket over him before muttering "I love you.". Then not wanting to disturb him, I go upstairs, the rest of our weekend together being peaceful...at the moment.
Authors Note: Chapter Three is finally done! And there is suspicion with what Levi is doing at night. Hehe, I wonder what it could be? What are all your thoughts on it?
