Ok so I'm back with another chapter, just a disclaimer I do not own any of the Inuyasha characters or plots just my own twists and characters, my OC's are; Yuzuki (main character, half-wolf demon/water sorceress), Raven (wolf demon 'bad guy'), Ryuu (water dragon), Kamiko (fire/earth dragon, Ryuu's mate), Taro and Kenji (Ryuu and Kamiko's children), Hayami (Yuzuki's mother), Tsuyoshi (Tiger demon/elemental sorcerer, Yuzuki's teacher), Narumi (Tiger demon, Tsuyoshi's mate), Kazuhiko (leader of the southern tribe, Sayuri's mate), Sayuri (leader of the western tribe, Kazuhiko's mate), Michiko and Satoru (wolf demons, children of Kazuhiko and Sayuri), Zurui (mixed-breed, fire sorcerer 'bad guy'). Enjoy

Chapter 17: Yuzuki's memory

I shook my head "You have no idea how terrifying it is for a hanyo to get taken over by their inner demon, Inuyasha wants to become a full-fledged demon to prevent that from happening I wouldn't blame him but he should just accept that fact that this is what we are" I said I looked to where Inuyasha took off. "You sound like you know what it is like to be taken over by your inner-demon" Miroku said "I'd rather not talk about it… We should keep moving" I said and started walking I had no idea if Inuyasha had killed when under control of his inner demon but I had. If everyone knew what my inner demon made me do, if my fathers' tribe knew I'd be disowned and surely Koga, Ginta and Hakkaku wouldn't like me anymore, maybe I was better off being alone, no I can't think like this, I have to keep this a secret until Naraku and Zurui are dead. Shippo clung to my shoulder and told me all their stay with my friends while we walked, Inuyasha was still nowhere to be seen we had walked a fair distance and decided to stop for the night, not long after we started a fire Inuyasha showed up.

Inuyasha had a look I knew all too well, he'd been looking over his life and made decisions thought things over, he looked to me "Can we talk please Yuzuki?" Inuyasha asked I gave a nod and followed him away from everyone, we got away from camp. "I'm sorry from been moody before but you have a family, I don't and I've been thinking maybe I don't belong with Kagome and the gang" Inuyasha said "Inuyasha I've been thinking as well and I think you do belong there, they're all you have, if you talk to them they'll understand" I said "You don't get it now that you have a family and guys competing for your affection you have everything, I may have them as friends but a family is something I may never get" Inuyasha said. I clenched my fists and as he went to walk back to camp I grabbed hold of him and turned him around "No, you don't get it, Inuyasha I know the reason you want the jewel, it's to be a full demon or a human so you don't have to worry about your inner-demon" I said "And what would you know about having your inner-demon take control, you're lucky that you've survived this long without it taking over" Inuyasha snapped. I felt tears building up "You have no right to assume anything, like you would know what it feels like watching, desperately trying to stop yourself while your inner demon slaughters innocents!" I yelled "I do know what it feels like stupid! Why do you think I want that jewel so badly?!" Inuyasha shouted.

"You're the stupid one! If you take that jewel you'll end up losing who you really are!" I snapped "Who cares at least I won't be stupid half-breed no more" Inuyasha snapped "Why did you want to talk when all you're going to do is argue with me?" I asked. "Argue? Don't blame this on me you started it" Inuyasha growled "You know what I can't take this anymore you think you're the only hanyo with problems, then why don't you stop pestering me do whatever the hell you want to do because I'm sick of you being nice and friendly to me one minute and chewing me out the next" I snapped and walked off. I stormed off back to camp "Hey! Yuzuki I was talking to you, Yuzuki!" Inuyasha called as he walked after me, I got back everyone was silent as I came back and Inuyasha was still raving on behind me "Oh shut up Inuyasha! Not everything is about you! Leave the group or suck it up!" I growled I went to sit near tree away from every one. "Uh should we ask what happened?" Miroku asked "No…" Inuyasha and I snapped at the same time, I turned away from everyone I hated that spilt personality Inuyasha had why can't he just let he's kind side out. I sighed as I leaned against the tree and listened to everyone talk about all different sorts of things, a frown crossed my face as my worries of my inner-demon came to me, things I hadn't thought about in years, my memories came back of when my inner demon had come out.

Flashback (POV from when Yuzuki was a child);

I was around six, in human years of course I was playing by the lake trying to lure out the fish "Yuzuki! Yuzuki!" mother called I looked back to see my mother running towards me and I got up and ran towards her with a smile on my face "Mommy!" I said happily. Mother had hugged me tight "Sweetie listen to me very carefully I need you to run far away, I'll get Ryuu to take care of you" Mother said my smile had disappeared "What? B-But mother what about you?" I asked sadly. My mother had tears in her eyes, I had never seen her cry before, I could sense her fear and it scared me "Yuzuki, I can't protect you any more you have to be strong and learn how to be strong not just for yourself but for others" mother said I felt tears building up. "Hayami! Where are you?!" a man's voice yelled out "Don't think you can hide yourself and your half-breed child for long!" another man's voice cried out "Mommy? What's going on? Did I do something wrong?" I asked as a few tears escaped.

"No sweetie, you haven't done anything wrong… I love you my little Yuzuki, my precious daughter, now run, far away and as fast as you can" my mother said and hugged me once more as she kissed my forehead "Mommy…" I sobbed we separated. "Run my angel and don't stop till you get somewhere safe, Ryuu will find you" mother said I could see the villagers come into view and their scents following towards us they had weapons out "Run Yuzuki!" mother yelled. I turned around and ran like mother told me I had just got near the forest when I saw a fire light up and screams echo out "Mommy…" I cried I could my mother's voice echoing through my head telling me to run until I was safe. I ran off with tears running down my face I got into the forest, I had no idea of where I was or how far away from the village I was but I knew that my mother was gone that humans, the villagers I grew up with killed my mother.

I sat by a tree and grabbed my legs to my chest and cried I heard laughing and talking I got up in an instant and looked around to see a pair of full-fledged wolf demons coming my way I froze up "See told you I smelt a half-breed" one said. "Well then it's your lucky day, we get to end your miserable life" the other said they chuckled as they flicked their claws out "Stay still and this won't hurt too much the one who spoke first said, I flinched back against the tree. The had started beating me and cut me with their claws I had lost blood and felt immensely weak "Please… No more…" I cried they laughed "You won't need to feel the pain much longer half-breed" one said I glanced to see him about to slice his claws down at me. Suddenly a pulse had run through my body and I felt different more demon but I had no control not even showing emotion, the two wolf demons had taken a pace back "What the hell?" one exclaimed I had let a growl and lunged at them.

I had slashed my claws over them I had no idea why I was doing this but I didn't want this, I couldn't stop within a couple minutes I had killed the two wolf demons leaving them covered in blood, cold and lifeless on the ground. A smell had come my way and I was on guard I wanted to scream out to say run away, I wanted help but I had killed two demons already I just wanted to be a hanyo again, I wanted control back. I could see a dragon come towards me and change form, it was Ryuu my mother's friend and helper "It's ok Yuzuki, you're safe now… You're safe" Ryuu said a pulse overtook my body and in seconds I had collapsed to the ground. Tears fell like a waterfall, Ryuu had picked me up carrying close to him "Mommy's gone… She told to run… I told them to stop but they wouldn't… I didn't mean to hurt them…" I sobbed "Shh… Its ok kid, I'll look out for you, first let's get you fixed up" Ryuu said as he took off to the place.

Flashback end.

I felt a tears escape as I remembered my childhood, I had killed some of my own brethren, I didn't mean it but I had no choice my life was being threatened and I was so weak, my inner-demon had taken over and killed them. I exhaled heavily as I tried to forget it, though I had the feeling this was only going to get worse, my friends or family had no idea of what I had done "Yuzuki are you ok?" Sango asked as she sat beside me I wiped away the few tears that had escaped and put on a smile. "Yeah I'm ok" I replied "It doesn't look that way" Sango said I sighed "It doesn't matter I can't talk about it…" I said "Yuzuki we're your friends I'm sure we can help" Sango said I frowned "You wouldn't understand" I said harshly as a frown crossed my face and I looked away. "Then explain it to us we'll listen we want to help, seeing both you and Inuyasha like this it hurts us to see our friends this way" Sango said I clenched my teeth and stood up I looked at Inuyasha "What?" Inuyasha puffed "You and I are different way more different then you think, I want you to stop presuming that I've had a better life then you" I said.

"Why I know it's true, at least you had someone to watch out for you while you grew up I had no one" Inuyasha said "Ryuu looked after me because my mother asked him too and because he made sure my inner-demon would never come out again" I snapped and walked off. I wanted to be left alone to be able to go home, I wanted to tell my father but would he disown me and kick me out of the tribe, I sat in a little clearing not far of near a pond, I sighed heavily as I hung my head and closed my eyes. "Yuzuki?" Hakkaku called "I'm sorry I'd like some time to myself" I said "Please let us help you" Ginta said "We haven't seen you in a week and to see you like this it hurts" Hakkaku said I sniffled feeling the tears build up "Nothing can help my inner-demon… It's the same with Inuyasha" I said. "There has to be something other than the sacred jewel to help" Koga said "Trust me I've studied and there's nothing out there…" I said sadly "Mutt stay away from Yuzuki, you've upset her enough" Koga growled "Back off, I've come to apologize" Inuyasha snapped.

I snapped my eyes open and stood up "Don't bother I'm sick of your mood swings" I said "Look I have no idea what your life was like but I assumed you had a good life seeing your friends and now that you have your family…" Inuyasha said "Stop, I know where you're going with this and I don't want to hear it" I said. "I'm gonna say it anyways, you have everything you could want right now, your demon is at bay and yet you're acting as if you have some reason to be scared of your demon" Inuyasha said I turned to face him "Maybe it's because I am sacred of my inner demon… I'm not proud of who I am, what I've done" I said. "I know how you feel I've killed innocents before but it's our inner-demons doing this not us" Inuyasha said I shook my head "Don't you dare think you know how I feel… There's no way you could understand the pain I feel for what I've done and nothing can ever make up for it" I snapped and turned away from them all. "You're gonna have to talk about it sooner or later and we all know it" Inuyasha said "How dare he…" Hakkaku growled "And he said came to apologize, that jerk" Ginta puffed "Yuzuki I hate to say it but Inuyasha has a point you need talk about this, I think sooner would better" Koga said.

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So the vote is still going I'll let you all know when the votes stop so if you haven't voted PM or put it just in the review, that's if you want to of course. It's going towards Ginta at the moment.

Will Yuzuki's mate be:

Ginta?

Hakkaku?

or Koga?

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