"Oh my God." Carlos said, till not looking up from his shoes, "tell me I just imagined that, and it didn't actually happen… please?"
Jane placed her hand on Carlos' back in an attempt to calm and reassure him. She could tell from the feel of his heavy breathing that this did neither of these things.
"Umm, I can't. It happened. But I mean maybe it's not so bad. Maybe he didn't see that much." Jane said trying to sound convincing.
Carlos just groaned and finally looked up to make eye contact with Jane,
"He definitely saw. Oh God, what am I going to do? What am I going to say?"
"Look, I thought you said he didn't feel the same way as you anyway so, does it really matter that much?" Jane asked, trying to make Carlos feel a least a little bit better.
"I guess not. But it still must look weird, I mean like only an hour ago, I was here confessing my love for him and now I'm kissing you. He probably thinks I just made the whole thing up to mess with him. I'd be pretty annoyed if he did that to me."
"Hmm." Jane thought for a second, "then just explain to him when he comes back out, I'm sure he'll understand it was just to get it over with so we could keep up the act. People were going to eventually realise we never kiss properly and that would look kinda weird. We needed the practice, that's all it was!"
Carlos nodded. Jane was right, surely Jay wouldn't be too mad at him once he explained. It wasn't like he'd got an announcement of feelings back from him anyway so really, Carlos could kiss who he wanted. Especially if no one else, including the guy he really liked, was going to do it. He took a deep breath in and let it out again, forcing himself to calm down and be rational about the whole situation.
Carlos gave Jane a small smile and thanked her. Jane stood up then and gathered her things, getting ready to leave.
"I'd better go so you guys can talk. Text me later if you want to talk or anything. See you tomorrow." She said.
Carlos walked her to the door and closed it softly behind her. He took another deep breath to steady himself and went back over to his bed and sat down. Dude whined a little behind him and raised his eyebrows at Carlos a little, as if to tell him what an idiot he was. Carlos sighed at him and scratched his head a little saying,
"Yeah, I know."
Just then, Carlos heard the shower turn off and knew that he would have to face the music any second. He hated how fast Jay showered as he wanted just a couple more minutes to himself to prepare what he could possibly say to make the whole thing better.
When Jay emerged from the bathroom, he was dressed again and had put his shoes back on as if he was going out again. As neither one of the boys were very good at facing and handling their problems, Carlos wouldn't have blamed Jay for leaving again, it was exactly what he would do if he was honest. However, he knew he couldn't let that happen and they had to stay and finally have a proper conversation about everything that had happened – no one was leaving this time.
Jay's damp hair fell in his face slightly as he knelt down to tuck in the laces of one of his shoes. He stood again and quickly moved towards the door.
"Jay, wait. I think we should talk. Like properly." Carlos almost shouted as he stopped Jay in his tracks.
"I don't know if I have anything to say to you right now Carlos." Jay responded, spitefully, not even turning around to face Carlos.
Jay knew he had plenty to say, or at least ask, Carlos but he didn't feel much like talking in that moment and needed time to cool off before he said anything he might regret later.
"Well I have stuff I need to say to you. And you must have questions. I didn't really give you a chance to speak earlier and I know you're mad at me, but we can't keep running away from this, I hate things being weird between us."
Jay sighed and turned around, folding his arms defensively across his chest as he did so.
"What did you want to say then?" He asked, a little more forcefully than intended.
"I just wanted you to know that what I said earlier was true and I didn't mean to tell you and make things weird, but I just needed to get it out, it was killing me. I'm sorry if you think I'm a freak now but it was the truth and I couldn't keep it to myself much longer, I felt like I was going to explode." Carlos said, trying his best to articulate what he wanted to say without rambling too much.
Jay choked out a sarcastic laugh that sounded more like a scoff and said,
"The truth? If it was the truth, then what were you doing with Jane? Who were you putting on a show for in our empty room?"
"We were just… Jane thought it would…" Carlos sighed and suddenly felt all the anger he had before when he left with Chad and Jay hadn't said he felt the same way and continued more forcefully, "why do you even care?"
"Because Carlos! Because you stood there and told me you liked me! Then you ran off before even giving me a chance to respond and left me going insane after that bombshell. Was it all just some kind of sick joke? You tell me you like me, make me realise that I have feelings for you too and then carry on making out with your 'fake' girlfriend for laughs. Hilarious!" Jay replied, raising his voice a little and too swept up in the argument to realise he'd just told Carlos he liked him back.
"No of course not! I wouldn't do that! All me and Jane were doing was trying to get us kissing to not be awkward if we were going to have to be doing it for a while since you clearly don-" Carlos exclaimed back, suddenly very aware of what Jay had said and cutting himself off mid-sentence before continuing, "wait… did you just… say you have… feelings for me too?" He finished, his voice lowering again.
Jay's eyes widened and his mouth dropped open a little as he was taken aback at the realisation that yes, he had just said that. And he hadn't said it in the nicest way either. This wasn't how he wanted things to go but he guessed it was a good thing everything was out in the open now, one way or another. He quickly snapped out of his shocked position and tried his best to keep up his tough and annoyed bravado as he was actually still quite annoyed.
"Yes! Of course, I do Carlos! What did you think I was coming back here to tell you? But then I see you locking lips with Jane and thought you were just playing a cruel joke on me. It was kind of brutal." Jay's tone was considerably quieter now but still had an edge.
Carlos began to grin a little, thinking better of it for a quick second but then not caring that they were having an argument. This was all he had wanted to hear for goodness knows how long, truth gummy induced or not. He suddenly wasn't angry any more and all he wanted to do was smile and never stop. He took a step towards Jay then, still not being able to stop himself smiling.
"I'm sorry… we didn't think you'd be back so soon, and we thought we should work out the kinks of the act not in front of the whole school for them to see how truly awkward and weird the whole thing was. I didn't mean for you to see it. Especially since… you like me." Carlos smirked and continued taking steps towards Jay, growing in both nervousness and excitement as he got closer to him.
Jay was still scowling and had his eyebrows furrowed but it made sense, and he couldn't stand to stay mad when Carlos looked so happy and was not right in front of him, smiling like a Cheshire Cat and close enough that he could just reach out and touch his freckles. God, why did he want to do that so badly all of a sudden?
"And you're sure you like me too? Because I swear, if Chad jumps out of the wardrobe and tells me I just got punked, I will not be very happy." Jay couldn't help but smirk back at the smaller boy in front of him, the doubt suddenly disappearing from his mind.
"I'm sure. I like you Jay, I think I always have. It just took a while to realise it."
It was Jay's turn to grin then and he smiled like a maniac.
"Say it again." Jay said, bringing himself close enough to Carlos that he could feel his breath on his face.
"I. Like. You. Jay." Carlos said, speaking at barely above whisper level.
Both boys beamed at each other then and mutually moved to close the space between them. Their lips collided, Jay's hands moved to cup Carlos' face as Carlos found his own tangled in Jay's damp hair.
They both felt content and as if they were in their own little bubble that no one could burst. Their kiss was brief but sweet and managed to take both of their breaths away. They were so happy, and everything felt so right in that moment that they didn't know why they hadn't worked out their feelings for each other sooner, why they'd let themselves miss out on something so great for so long.
"Wait, don't you have a fake girlfriend you should probably explain this to?" Jay asked, still not being able to dim the smile on his face.
"Yeah you're probably right. And I'm sure Mal and Evie will be waiting to hear from us. But for right now, can we just enjoy this and not worry about anyone else? I've been too stressed out recently about what other people are going to say and think, and I think I just want to be happy for a little while." Carlos said, tucking a stray lock of hair behind Jay's ear.
Jay's smile widened and he nodded, leaning in to rest his forehead on Carlos's and saying quietly,
"Of course. But we shouldn't leave it too long, you know Evie will kill us if we don't fill her in as soon as possible."
Carlos chuckled and agreed; he wouldn't be surprised if Evie was waiting by the phone for a call or text from one of them, telling her how everything was going. In fact, Jay thought that she was due to text him and ask how he was any minute.
Regardless, the two boys stood there together, leaning into one another and not saying anything, just enjoying their time and the happiness they could both feel radiating from one another. And it was nice. It was calm and safe and just… right. Neither of them thought about what implications this would have on everyone else in school and what rumours people would come up with, or how their friends would react, because in that moment, they didn't care. In that moment, they were happy and they felt at home in each other's embrace, nothing and no one could touch them then and it felt… wonderful.
A/N - So this is super short compared to my last couple of chapters but I just wanted to stop torturing them them and for them to have their cute happy ending. I don't know if this will be the end for real, I might add in a chapter eventually to show people's reactions and more cute stuff because I know this is kind of lacking butttt I just don't have a lot of time at the moment with how much work I have to do for school and stuff so for now, I think this is the end. I hope you enjoyed this cute lil story and don't absolutely hate this as an ending!
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