This oneshot Plays after the events of Attack of the Clones, after the Mission of Siri and Obi-Wan, when Siri gots killed.
The sky changed from blue to blood-red. The evening lasted long and the sun disappeared slowly behind the skyscrapers of Coruscant. Even when the sun disappeared, the city of Coruscant still shone bright, because of its far-reaching nightlife. Lots of bars and restaurants opened at the evening and many politicians and other important people went into the theatre or the opera. You could say that the nightlife in Coruscant was more active than the daily life. You could met different species from different planets, perhaps persons you would never see during the day. Thieves, bounty hunters and smugglers went through the streets.
The bright window gave him an optimal view over this part of the city. The so called main part with the senate and the building, where he lives. The Jedi-Temple. He sat on his bed and stared on the streets, but without looking for something important. He only sat there and watched. He eliminated his thoughts, they came every second through his mind, but he didn't wanted to hear them. He ignored the feeling in his heart and his hurting head. It was normal that he felt such feelings. He was alive. He had to remember were he was and for what reason he lived. In that moment it was to difficult to stay alive.
His name was Obi-Wan Kenobi and he was a Jedi. He lost his Master years before, he trained his Padawan Anakin Skywalker and he lost the love of his life today.
He talked to her this morning about his plans. They were on a mission, together with senator Padme Amidala and his Padawan. Within a chase of Siri and Magus, the ship in which both fought, crashed against a wall and were destroyed. Obi-Wan could rescue Siris body from the debris. She was still alive, but to weak to live longer than some minutes. She spent her last minutes with Obi-Wan, who held her in his arms. He didn't cry….for her. He didn't wanted her to die with the knowing that he could not live with that. He held her hand and listened to her, when she declaired him his truly love and that she regretted it that they wanted to be friends. She gave him her warming crystal, closed her eyes and died.
After that, Obi-Wan only could remember everything through a kind of liquid wall around his view. His vision was foggy and without any emotion. He could barely remember Anakin, who found them some minutes later. He tried to talk to Obi-Wan, but his Master didn't heard him. He only remembered Siris peaceful face and her weak body in his arms, when he lifter her up and carried the body to his ship. He ignored every person in his surrounding. Not only during the trip back, also on the ship to Coruscant and his way to his chambers. Anakin was old enough to deal with himself.
Obi-Wan brought her body to the Med-Center and went strictly to the council to give his mission report. Master Yoda and Mace Windu were shocked and weren't able to talk for a long time. But both had different reasons for their silence. Mace Windu because of his regret and Master Yoda, because he understood the situation. He knew Obi-Wans feelings from the past and he also knew that this feelings were still alive in his heart.
When he left the Council chambers, he went strictly into his chambers. He didn't wanted to met Anakin and he didn't wanted to talk to him. He wanted to be alone.
This happened hours ago and he still sat on his bed and watched the skyline of Coruscant. He hadn't heard anything from Anakin or another Jedi-Master and he was grateful for that. But he realized that his silence lasted long enough. His Padawan sat alone in his room and didn't knew with which problem Obi-Wan had to deal with. And he knew that he must talk with him about this.
He remembered the same situation with Qui-Gon after Tahls death. Qui-Gon haven't talked with him for days and he knew how overhelmed he was with the situation, alone without his Master.
He stood up and left his room to visit Anakin. The door was open, when he reached his students chambers. Anakin sat on his bed and built his model of a space ship.
When Obi-Wan entered the room, he lifted his head and looked at him surprisingly. " Master?!"
" Sorry for leaving you alone the last hours!" Obi-Wan hated it to talk around the problem. He always started a conversation with the main point.
" It was ok" replied Anakin. " You lost one of your friends!"
" I not only lost one of my friends" said Obi-Wan and sat down next to him. " I lost my best friend. I knew her since my childhood and we were always good friends. Maybe not from the beginning, but our friendship grew with us. I could talk to her everytime and about everything I wanted. The knowledge that I lost her, didn't came to my mind. Now I realized it and I also realized that there are important people in my life, who are still alive and not dead."
" I didn't knew that she was so important for you..."murmured Anakin and watched him carefully.
" She was really important for me. She was always the second person right after Qui-Gon and after Qui-Gons dead my second responsibility after you."
" Did you love her?" asked Anakin without hesitation.
Obi-Wan sighed. " Yes, I loved her. I haven't told it anyone, instead of Qui-Gon and Master Yoda!"
" Qui-Gon knew about it?" asked Anakin surprised. " He allowed it to you?"
" He didn't allowed it" replied Obi-Wan calmly. " he accepted it, but he talked with me about it. He said that it would be my decision. Neither I leave the Jedi with Siri or stay with the Jedi and ignore my love for her. We had chosen the second way."
Anakin bowed his head and seemed to think about something.
" Qui-Gon was a kind Jedi-Master, but also a strict one" added Obi-Wan.
Anakin nodded. " I understamd what you're feeling and I understand your situation."
Obi-Wan rested a hand on Anakins shoulder. " Thank you, my young Padawan. May I leave you for the night. I'll see you tomorrow at breakfast."
" What kind of training will we do tomorrow?" asked Anakin.
" None. You can do whatever you want with the rest of the following day."
The last thing he could see, was the bright smile of Anakin, when he left the room. He went back to his own chambers and layed down on the bed.
Siri, my dear love. I'll always remember you. You and your lovely nature. I'm glad that I met you and that I shared some years of my life with you. You were the sunshine during the day. I doesn't matter, how hard it will be, but I can't end my life like this. I'll deal with the pain for the person, who are still alive. For Anakin and my other friends, but also for the people, who are dead. Qui-Gon and you! Your my only motivation during this time. Now, Anakin is still my first responisbility and I have to live for him. I have to fight for him. But I'll also fight for you. My dear Siri! I'll miss you! Forever!