Dear brother Benji,

I'm writing you now to tell you that I will not be coming back from Total Drama. My life is going in a whole new direction and I don't want to be a part of my old life any longer. After meeting people on the island and off I realize that the life I have been leading is a lie and that I am not accomplishing the things I truly believe in. Becoming a lawyer and a CIT is the worst possible thing for me right now. It's not what I want it's actually the opposite and I can not go back to that life so I will not be returning to you or our family. We have two more seasons to go with this show then I am joining my friends from the show and going to do my own thing. DON'T LOOK FOR ME. I am finally going to be happy and if you look for me I will never forgive you.

Courtney

Benjamin's POV:

I could not believe what I was reading, my sister is not coming back? This must be some kind of sick joke! She loves her life and told me herself that the show would have been a waste of time because she was happy with where she was in life to begin with so even if she did win it would not have mattered. Growing up Courtney and I had it kind of rough… our father left us, Courtney taking it especially hard had lots of fights with friends and family. She went through a really rough patch when he left, getting into trouble, throwing fits and getting into fights with friends. Our mother is a doctor so she had no time to really spend with us which made it harder for both of us, though our mother loved us greatly it was clear that she was having a hard time as well. Courtney didn't want anything to do with anyone for the first couple of years.

Two years later when Courtney turned 8 and I was 15 our mother found someone new and became quite serious about him, he became our new stepfather a year later. His name was Brad and he and my mother knew each other since they were 5, started dating in high school and lost touch for a number of years until they met again after our father left. He's a nice guy and showed lots of interest and understanding towards Courtney and I. He was and still is an amazing lawyer and because of his job has a choice of how much time he spends at home but is also very busy.

The addition of Brad made it hard for Courtney but it also helped a lot. He and Courtney got pretty close and she became Daddy's little girl once again. He went to all of her dance rehearsals, her music class shows, her spelling bees, football games, she was a cheerleader, and he supported her in everything she did. As she got older she was getting more and more interested in my Karate class, she wanted to learn how to fight so I taught her, Brad was there for that as well. He taught both of us about one of his hobbies, hunting, and showed us how to use guns. He came to every game I played and to all of my things that were important to me as well. He really is a good man. Lately since Courtney and I have become older he has been working more often, meaning my parents asked me to be in charge of Courtney and our younger step-brother Andrew who is now 7. Me being the only adult in our household most of the time is responsible for both of them, I go to college and pick them up from school.

Brad was nothing like our father, I remember him more than Courtney does, he was a mean evil asshole in my eyes who wanted nothing more than to just cause major drama and issues for everyone because he loved how it made him feel. He was an ass to my mother most of the time and ordered me around quite a lot so that he didn't have to do any work. He was completely different towards Courtney though for a little while she was his little angel who could do no wrong. He would play with her, care for her and teach her things like singing songs and such but as she got older and he started to realize that he was not going to 'make money off of her' as he put it, he decided to leave our whole family behind. The whole reason why he was with my mother in the first place was because she was attractive and if he could make an attractive child who could bring him easy money with modelling and such then he would be over the moon. That was his only goal in having a family and my mother didn't see it until she had kids and it was too late.

After he left he refused to pay child support, sent my mother and I as well as Courtney, though she never saw them, nasty messages. The courts said there wasn't much they could do because at that point he had moved out of the country and was no longer in their jurisdiction. He decided to leave when we were all home, seemingly a normal Saturday morning but he decided to ruin it by making a scene and storming out of the house with a bag of his belongings, which weren't much because apparently he had sent a lot of things away before that day. Courtney was crying and begging him to stay, she thought it was her fault that he was leaving and she would repeat over and over that she would do better, though she was his little angel he was harsh with her about getting things right the first time and when he left she thought he was leaving because she had done something wrong or because she was weak, another reason he was harsh with her about, she had to be strong. She would hold onto his coat as he was walking away and chase him down to his car. When he finally had enough he gave her a shove, got in the car and slammed the door. That night was horrible, Courtney was a mess and ever since she has had a hard time trusting people and being okay with not being perfect at everything.

When all of this happened it affected Courtney's relationship with her friends, she was able to keep quite a few of them but kids being kids did not understand why Courtney was behaving the way she was so she lost a few of them, including Duncan. Duncan, Heather, Courtney and Trent were all in the same dance academy when they were younger, Duncan, Heather and Courtney were in the same ballet class while Trent was across the hall in a mixed type of dancing class. Duncan being the little piece of shit he was teased Courtney quite a lot when he noticed her acting differently then before which led to Courtney flipping out at him and tackling and punching him while at a ballet play that their class was performing. All of the parents were there and Trent was there as well, he was actually the one to pull Courtney off. After that she was put into the class across the hall and a year after the whole incident Duncan quit dance all together, he never actually wanted to be there his family wanted him to be more graceful and teach him some discipline.

Anyway when our father saw Courtney on the show he started to harass us for her number, we never gave it to him of course because we knew just what he want, money. Being through everything Courtney has been through makes me believe that she did not write this note just out of pure fact that she does not hate it here, she pulled through everything we went through and now has an awesome life and before she went on the show was very happy go lucky so I really doubt this is from her. This concerns me more because if this is not from her then who is it from and why did they send it.

Duncan's POV:

It has been three weeks since Courtney left, none of us were allowed away from Chris and the camera crew so we were all put in this crappy hotel and told to stay as if we're dogs. I was pissed, Courtney wasn't here and the T.V sucks and the internet is a load of bullshit, the only thing I have to look forward to is hanging out with people and playing cards or board games. Every now and then there would be a party but without any booze it's hard to accomplish and succeed in a good night. Life wasn't as interesting as it could have been, we all could have been home enjoying our freedom but because Chris decided to start the new season quickly he decided that we should all just stay here and wait.

I heard a knock at the door and sigh knowing full well who it was, "Hey Duncan I got a surprise for you."

I sigh and groan, Chris having a surprise only leads to trouble. I get up and walk to the door and as I am opening it I say, "What the heck do you want now….." I trail off as I see princess standing there.

"Princess?" I say in confusion.

She sighs, "Do you really have to call me that? The cameras are off you know?"

I glare at Chris, "Is that what he told you? Oh please Chris we all know you are filming us every minute even in the bathroom might I add. Oh by the way you may want this back." I turn to a table that was placed beside my door and pick up what was left of a camera and handed it to him. He looked crushed that he would now have to spend more money to replace a camera but walked off without another word.

I turned to Courtney, "So you decided to be on the show huh? I thought Chris said something about you didn't want to be here or that you 'threatened to sue' or something."

She laughed, god I missed her laugh, and shook her head, "Duncan please don't tell me you believed him? I had to leave for a family emergency, turns out old people can have gas too."

I looked at her confused and she laughed once more but did not provide any more details, instead she walked passed me into my hotel room and laid on the bed, picking up a pack of cards I had on the night stand and held them out to me.

Courtney's POV:

It's been three weeks since I've been in this hell hole and I'm about to give up all together. I have been starved, beaten, raped and mentally tortured ever since I got here. I don't think I'll ever be able to leave and I've been forced to watch my friends living in hotel rooms while Chris made plans on how he was gonna ruin my life. Today was the day he was gonna 'bring me back' to the show and by that I mean he was going to introduce an actress he found 'back into' the show. He hired an actress to pretend to be me!

I watched helplessly as he knocked on Duncan's hotel room door. The fake bitch in tow waiting for Duncan to open the door. I heard him call her princess and I knew there was no way he would ever question who she really was, I don't think anyone will because she looks just like me and I'm sure Chris and her have went over footage so that she could act as me as well. I don't blame Duncan or anyone else for them thinking it was me even though its not.

I think if Duncan and I were to switch places I would not know the real Duncan either.

Author's NOTE: This chapter is subject to change... It is not for sure going to change but if i see it needs to be i will rewrite it :)

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