Olivia went home exhausted from work. They had just closed one of the hardest cases. Amanda was punishing herself for Esther's death, the worst part was that Olivia couldn't do anything to help her, Amanda had been the one who shot her, she had been the one who killed her.

When she was about to go to sleep her phone rang, she picked it up seeing it was Peter.

"Hey" she knew she sounded exhausted but she couldn't make her voice sound any different, she was really exhausted.

"Hey... I heard about the case and... well I was wondering if... I mean I know is late but... I... I'm close to your place... well I was...

"It's ok... come over... please " she didn't want to sound like she needed him but right now she did.

"Ok I'll be there soon"

"Thanks " she hang up and went to her kitchen to make some coffee. She thought about changing her shorts and tank top for something that covered her more but she just didn't feel like it.

Peter knocked at the door and waited for her to open. When she did he was surprised, he looked at her, at her shoulders, her chest, her hips, her long legs, but he caught himself and his eyes went immediately back to hers, she was staring at him with a small smile on her face.

"Sorry"

"It's ok... come on in" she opened the door wider for him.

They sat in the couch not knowing what to say or what to do.

"How are you" Peter was the first to talk, it was a stupid question but he didn't have an idea of what to say.

"I'm... well it's hard to see Amanda like that, she feels guilty. I know the feeling, I have been in that same situation a lot of times. I know what it feels like when you let someone down, when you feel like you could have done more, when you feel like you disappear do your best. It's hard..."

"Olivia... I know you feel like you need to help Amanda but she is a strong woman who will find the help she need and just like you she will get through this"

"That's the problem Peter... you never get through the guilt, that voice in your mind that tells you that you could have done something, and I'm afraid she hears that voice, I'm afraid she listens to it."

"You feel responsible for her... talk to her, if she wants your help she well hear you out, if she doesn't then she will find help somewhere else"

"Yeah you may be right... but can we talk about something else, I just don't feel like thinking about that anymore... what about you where have you been?"

"I was with my sister, she just doesn't seem to change... she's still the same just like before we increment her meds."

"Seems like we are both going through a lot... I know you want her to be better, but Peter lets be honest, she's sick, you just have to live one day at a time and each day be glad that she's alive" Olivia took his hand and got closer to him looking directly at his eyes.

"Yeah you are right... one day at a time... listen about last time... I don't want this to be uncomfortable between us... but Olivia I'm feeling something for you...

"Peter.. don't, I don't want this to be uncomfortable either, please don't say things that are to soon to be said... there's a lot going on right now for both of us... let's just give it some time"

They got closer needing each others contact. Olivia had just said that it was too soon but there was something they couldn't control. Their lips locked and sights were exchanged, sights of relief. The kiss became more heated soon and their tongues danced together savoring each other, feeling each other, needing each other. Peter hands were on her hips not knowing if touching her somewhere else would be inappropriate. Olivia sensed his hesitation and put her hands on top of his encouraging him to touch, to feel, to make her feel. His hand roamed her body feeling every inch, feeling her muscles tightened under his touch and relaxing again.

They broke the kiss needing air, they looked into each other's eyes waiting one waiting for the other to take the first step.

"Olivia I don't want to do this... I don't want to sleep with you just because we both feel down, I don't want you to feel like I used you, I don't want to feel like I used you" Peter looked at her waiting for her to be mad at him for kissing her and then backing up but she just smiled and nodded.

"Yeah, when we do it we will do it not because we need a release but because we feel something that tells is t it's ok, that we will feel confortable the morning after and we'll be able to look into each others eyes without feeling like we used each other to release some tension"

"Yeah... but that kiss helped you know I feel relaxed " they laugh at his comment and Olivia laid down on hin lap.

"Stay tonight" she said in a whisper almost inaudible.

"I thought you said...

"No no... just, stay with me"

"I will... I will"

They went to her bedroom where he took of his shirt and pants and climbed to bed with her. She put her bed on his chest and closed her yes, a smile spreading on her face. He looked down to her and put an arm around her, kissing her head softly he closed his eyes and deciding to live one day at a time. They were afraid, they wanted to take it slow but they wanted to be together, they didn't want it to be uncomfortable, but they didn't know how to make it comfortable. They had no idea of what to do but right know in each other's arms they knew that it felt right.

Guys I know this is short but I don't have a lot of time right now with finals and all coming up. I hope you like it and please review!