I'm still shocked by that finale. Annnd that hug was so beautiful and heartbreaking at the same time. So here is another chapter hope you like it and please don't forget to review.

They stayed like that for minutes, Olivia was trying to stay strong for Peter but it was so hard. The sight of him in her arms, his tears coating her shirt, his feeling of guilt, her feeling of guilt, the memories from the week, the memories from five years ago. It was all too much. Tears escaped her eyes no matter how much she was trying to keep them inside.

"I'm so sorry" Olivia said, this time not just for Pamela, she was sorry for all the fights, for all she said.

Peter broke the hug and looked at her. "You have no reason to apologize, you didn't do anything wrong"

"I didn't listen to you... I wanted to go behind that cartel without enough evidence... I ..."

"It's ok... at the end... everyone got justice" he took her hand and kissed it, she could see the sadness in his eyes, she could see the sadness in his voice.

"I'm really sorry for Pamela"

"Liv... stop apologizing... is not your fault"

"It's not yours either"

"Yeah... let's get out of here"

"My place?"

"Sure"

When they arrived at her apartment Noah was already asleep and the nanny was waiting for Liv watching the news. Liv thanked her for staying late and offer to pay the taxi. When they were finally alone Peter collapsed into the couch, exhaustion written on his face, Olivia sat besides him with a bottle of wine and two glasses. She poured the wine into the glasses and handed one to Peter.

"Thanks"

"We need it"

"Yeah"

They stayed in silence for a couple of minutes enjoying the peace and each other's company.

"Five years ago I was kidnaped" Olivia looked at Peter, waiting for him to make a question or just to say something like 'I'm sorry' but he just looked at her and grabbed her hand, encouraging her to keep going. "His name was William Lewis... he... he kidnaped me for four days, he tortured me, cut me, burned me, he almost... almost raped me, but before he did I beaten him with metal bar."

"God Olivia... why didn't you tell me?"

"It's not something I like to talk about... I don't like the pity looks... the 'I'm sorry'" "

"I get it... you don't like to be treated any different"

"Exactly... but that's not all"

Peters eyes widened thinking the worst. "Liv... did he... you said almost..."

"No no... no... but one day he escaped from jail and kidnaped me again... he made me play russian roulette... he touched me... he killed himself in front of me" tears were treating to fall and she was struggling to keep them at bay. "This case... Lourdes told me what Miguel did to her... the same things Lewis had done to me... I feel like I needed to get justice... not just for her."

"God Liv... you should have told me I would have understand"

"Just like you told me your sisters was in danger" just as the words escaped her mouth she wanted to go back in time and shot herself before talking. " I'm sorry... it's completely different"

"As you said... there's nothing I could have done... now I'll have to find a way to get through this... and we have to learn to trust each other"

Olivia got closer and leaned into his chest feeling the love and protection that he transmitted her.

"Yes we have..."

"I love you"

"Love you too"

"We should go to bed"

"Mhm"

They got up and went to bed exhausted, physically and mentally. Olivia changed clothes while Peter took of his pants and climbed into the bed. Olivia sat on her side of the bed and took a deep breath before laying down.

"You ok?"

"Yeah"

Peter got closer and put an arm around her.

"Let's sleep... tomorrow will be another day..."

They both fell asleep until around one in the morning when Olivia woke up all sweaty, eyes wide... for a moment she wasn't in her bedroom, everything was dark and the only thing she could hear was Lewis voice. Peter woke up and looked at her, no knowing what to do he called her name softly.

"Olivia... It's me Peter"

"Peter" Olivia whispered eyes still focusing on the wall in front of her.

"Yeah Peter... it's ok... you are ok... you are safe"

Slowly Olivia looked around, her breathing slowing down. She looked at Peter and grabbed his hand.

"I'm sorry"

"It's ok, come here" she got closer to him and he hugged her kissing her head. "I understand we both have demons to fight against... are you better now?"

"Yeah I think so"

"You are safe... I love you"

With those words Olivia fell asleep enjoying that feeling of safety that she hadn't felt in a long time. Feeling safe, loved... and happy.

Just one more thing... is there someone who doesn't want Olivia Benson's happiness?