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Chapter 6 Will's POV

He cherished these moments. These happier days. That morning at half five, Tessa had woken him and said she wanted to watch the sun rise, so of course he said they would go up to the roof top and watch the sunrise. And he was glad she suggested it. In the middle their seemed to be a clash of light blue and light pink. The colours were like water colours and blended together. Will had his arm wrapped round Tessa and they remained snuggled under their blanket and watched as the world came to life. When the sun broke through, those sweet water colours were broken and replaced by new bold colours that illuminated the hanging fog around them. Will sighed gently and kissed the side of Tessa's head

"It's amazing" he whispered

"I love sunrises" she held her hand up and allowed the light to catch her bracelets, they sparkled like diamonds. Catching the light in such a way that it seemed as if they had caught the moment. Will studied them and smiled as she made a rainbow

"I don't think I can find words to summon the beauty I'm experiencing" Tessa laughed

"William Herondale? Speechless? Next you'll be telling me Henry can dance the tango in high heels!" Will laughed as well, when Tessa had good days, she had good days. Will felt like he could fight the world with her by his side. He felt so satisfied with life he often remembered the quote

'If I am to die, then let me die here and now for no day to come with be as great as this one' but more days came. And each good day seemed to be better than the last. Tessa closed her eyes and tilted her head up, allowing the sun to tickle her features, Will leaned back and studied them. Her mousey brown hair suddenly became lighter, her cheekbones became sharper as shadows filled were the sun could not. Her smooth lips seemed to be so soft that he couldn't help but kiss them. He felt Tessa's shock but that shock soon grew into desire, she closed her eyes and pressed her forehead to his and wrapped her arms around his neck, they barely ever did this anymore. Let their bodies melt into one, he smiled into her kiss and used his hand to support her lower back

"My Tessa," he whispered. He let his teeth graze over her bottom lip earning him a slight moan in pleasure. He smiled and hugged her again before carrying her down to their room. He was careful as he lay her down on the bed but he wasn't as careful when he kissed her again. Tessa wrapped her arms around him as Will let his kisses trail down her neck and to her collar bone, she had a soft point there. As expected, when he got to it she let out another soft moan. When he didn't expect was for Tessa to start shaking her head

"Not yet, I'm not ready" Will drew back and pulled her into a hug, massaging her back

"I understand, do you want some time alone? I can go check on James" Tessa nodded and let Will get up out of their bed. He kissed her again and left to the nursery, smiling as he saw James sucking his thumb and sleeping peacefully under his nightlight

"Hello little man" Will greeted fondly, sitting down next to him and smiling warmly

"Hello, would you like to come out and meet Babi? Mmm? Or how about Auntie Jessie, would you like that?" Babi was Will's nickname for Balious when he was near James. He picked his son up into his arms and cradled him gently

"I know you don't see mama as much as you use too, but mama loves you. Her love for you grows each day and sometimes her love for you is too much and she gets said" James had woken up now. Those sapphire eyes blazing into Will's blue ones

"But you don't realise do you? You just want to be hugged and admired" Will chuckles, tickling his son's tummy who let out another playful scream. There was a gentle knock and Henry came in, smiling at Will and James

"Good morning Henry"

"Hullo Will" he moved across the room and sat opposite Will "How has Tessa been? I've been meaning to ask but I've been so busy"

"She's better now, yeah. She's not perfect yet, but I think with time and care we'll be one step closer" Henry smiled but there was a sadness to his eyes

"Will, I'm really sorry about this" Will looked up at him, his eye brows knitted together

"Henry, what's wrong?" Henry opened a letter and give it to Will. Will opened it hurriedly and read it

'William,

I hope all is well. Things are not so well here, you're mother has taken ill and the doctors believe there is little time left for her. She wants to see you, Tessa and James. She wants to see her grandson before she passes. I wish it were for a happier reason, but it is an unavoidable price we have to pay for love. You will understand with time

Yours,

Edmund. H, your father' Will quickly handed James to Henry before walking out of the room. He walked blindly to wherever his feet decided to take him. He recalled hearing someone call his name, Jessamine maybe? He wasn't paying attention. He recalled feeling the rain soak his skin but what did it matter? What did the rain matter? Was rain going to stop time? Was rain going to stop his mother dying? No. It wasn't. He did remember banging on a set of large doors and screaming Jem's name. He remembered falling to the ground in the mud and puddles and sobbing his eyes out. He also remembered a set of warm robes being wrapped round him

At ease, brother. I am here

"S-she's dying. Jem she's dying" he cried. Jem kneeled in front of Will and rested his hand on his shoulder

Who is dying? I can try to save them, Will. All is not lost

"She's not a S-Shadowhunter. It's my m-mother" Jem let out a soft sigh and pulled Will into a hug, he knew his parabati needed it. Will cried for everything he had missed, those years turning her away. Denying her help and refusing to answer her

Will, Will I need you to breathe for me. You're in shock and you're wearing yourself out. Copy me now ok? In for three and out for six, can you do that for me Will? Will tried to do as Jem instructed but the breath kept getting hitched in his throat making it come out awkwardly. This wasn't struggling to breathe. This was a panic attack. Will couldn't get his thoughts clear either, he was panting and trembling, everything around him was fussy until he felt a hand on his chest

This is your heart, you own it. It is under your mind control. Your heart needs to listen to you. Breathe William, breathe and control your heart or you will regret it. Breathe for Tessa, for Jamie and for Cecily. Close your eyes and picture a candle, as you breathe in the candle goes stronger and as you breathe out it dimmers. Will listened to Jem and soon found his breathing coming to it's senses, he still stuttered out breaths and he still felt unsure about everything but he knew Jem was there and he knew Jem was helping him. Soon his breathing returned to normal and soon he managed to control himself

There, you are ok now

"Thank you"

Anything for you. Will smiled weakly and rubbed his face and sighed, "I best go back to Tessa and tell her about mother" Jem nodded

That would be wise, I also suggest a warm bath and some smelling salts to try and relax your mind a bit more, when your mind is tense you are more likely to panic so a warm bath with smelling salts will help. Will chuckled and shook his head

"You're like one of those old grannies who nag on to their grandchildren"

If I am the granny then you are the rebellious grandson always giving me heart attacks when you decide to go fight one thing or another

"Oh please, you loved it secretly" Jem shook his head, Will knew he was smiling, he could feel it

Oh what's not to love about seeing your own parabati go fight a vampire and then bite it? And also your drunken fights with bar tenders

"All for the better cause" Jem tutted and sighed

Go on, before I get put on grave cleaning duty and Tessa rips your head off for leaving. Will smirked, he smiled as Lucifer might have done before falling from heaven, a playful glint in his eye that sparkled nothing but danger. He stood up and hugged Jem again before returning to the institute. He explained himself to Jessamine, who shouted at him for running away like that and explained what had happened. She was very gentle and understanding. He made his way to his room and found Tessa nursing James. He smiled sadly at the scene, sitting down and explaining to Tessa about his mother. His wife gasped and walked over to Will, she kissed her forehead and pressed the side of her head to his

"You'll be alright, it'll be ok. I promise" how the tables had turned, Will thought, how they had turned indeed.