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Akko sighs softly, Lotte has been giving her worried looks all week, and Sucy, well, she stopped testing things on her. They saw through her, they knew something was up despite her efforts to hide her feelings.
She knew her roommates cared for her, but she had been afraid, afraid of further rejection, afraid that they'd make fun of her, that they'd be grossed out by her preferences.
'They'll find out eventually', The brunette thought, She sucked in a breath and gave Lotte's back a sad glance, the blonde was reading silently at the desk. It was just her and Lotte in the room, Sucy wasn't here at the moment.
The brunette felt her cheeks grow warm, she felt a fuzzy feeling in her gut, her lips trembled and then parted.
"I'm in love with Diana.", Akko blurted out, her voice cracked slightly.
The atmosphere in the room suddenly felt heavier.
Akko could hear her heart thumping loudly in her ears, she felt slightly nauseous, she placed her hands on her lap and looked down, keeping her eyes focused on her knuckles as to avoid looking at anything or one, else.
The room had grown ominously silent, too silent, so silent that Akko swore she must have gone deaf.
Until the sound of Lotte setting her book down onto the desk brought sound back to the room.
Akko's breath picked up, her vision began to blur.
'Damn it', Akko cursed mentally.
The sound of Lotte shifting In her chair reached Akko's ears, and Akko knew, Lotte was no doubt staring at her.
She could feel Lotte's gaze on her.
"Akko", Lotte spoke softly, so very softly.
The Tears Akko had been keeping at bay for a while now, had finally began to roll down her rosy cheeks. She tried so hard to not cry in front of her roommates, she was afraid of being vulnerable in front of them. But...she just didn't want to keep her feelings buried anymore.
Akko's lips trembled, she screwed her eyes shut, the hot salty liquid kept escaping her eyes. "She…", Akko's voice began cracking, she grew slightly breathless, "...She didn't feel the same way...she wanted to try being...friends…", a sob erupted from Akko's throat, and she finally looked up, afraid to meet a look of disgust, but her fears were quickly thwarted when she met the soft, gentle expression Lotte wore.
"Oh, Akko", Lotte stood up from her chair and quickly got to Akko's side, she sat on the brunette's bed and pulled the clumsy witch into her arms, "I'm so sorry.", the girl rubbed the crying girl's back.
Akko whimpered softly, "I...When I first approached her, Hannah and Barbara were around...they made fun of me.", Akko screwed her eyes and curled into her friend's embrace. "...I was such an idiot, right?", she sucked in a breath.
Lotte frowned heavily, "No, don't say that, You can't help how you feel."
The brunette sighed, "...I...Diana didn't say anything at the moment, she just stood there...while Hannah and Barbara made fun of me."
"That's low, even for Diana", Lotte said softly, as she kept rubbing Akko's back, "How could she…"
Akko's breathing began to even out slightly, "She apologized...the next day, but…"
"She let them do that to you, Akko", a sad expression found it's way onto the girl's face.
Akko nodded and began to pull away, she felt lighter upon telling Lotte everything. "She told me she didn't mean to let it happen, she told me she spoke to them about what they did. She said she cared about me, but she just didn't feel that way about me."
Lotte nodded, following along.
"She wanted to try being friends again, she said we could work through...my feelings, together.", Akko looked up to meet Lotte's gaze, she could see the understanding expression Lotte wore so clearly through her tear eyes, "...but...I felt like...she expected me to just let go of my feelings."
Lotte sighed softly.
"...I tried so hard, to bury my feelings. Diana moved on, she acted like it never happened, but then all that stuff at happened during lunch…", Akko frowned sadly.
"That girl...she said some things…", Lotte rose an eyebrow, "And Diana...I don't think she's ever snapped like that."
"Yeah...me either.", Akko whispered and looked away for a moment.
The blonde placed a hand over Akko's own, causing Akko to turn back to her.
"I'm glad you're finally sharing these things with me, Akko.", a small smile began to curl her lips, "I was worried, you seemed so sad, so down…"
Akko felt much more at ease, "I...I didn't want to bother you or Sucy with my problems."
"Akko, your problems are our problems, if somethings affects you, it also affects us, we're not just a team, we're also friends."
The brunette's lips began to crack into a small smile, "Thanks, Lotte."
The blonde smiled.
Akko felt relief wash over her, she felt more in control of her feelings, she didn't feel so bottled up now.
Who knew speaking to someone could be so freeing.
Diana had barely left her room since her little break down a few days ago, she felt ashamed and a feeling akin self loathing began to grow inside of her, she felt so utterly conflicted.
Aunt Daryl would come knocking at her down once a day, making sure she was 'alive'. And other than that, Anna would come up with her food and or snacks, she'd come in and place her food on her study desk. Anna tried to coax something out of her, asking her if she was okay, if there was something she could do. Just like she'd respond to her aunt after her shameful break down, she merely turned the maid away.
She didn't have to leave her room, she had a bathroom in her room, her food was brought up to her, she could just stay in there, locked away until she had to go back to school. But she didn't. She forced herself to exit the comfort of her room at least once a day for at least an hour or two, she'd go outside and sit by a tree or just walk about the grounds of the manor aimlessly.
Diana sighed heavily, a breeze of air pushing passed her made her shiver slightly. She wanted to clear her head, But her thoughts were constantly invaded by the clumsy brunette. She tried pushing the thoughts away, but she just couldn't. She yearned to see the girl, she wanted to fix things, she didn't want to let the girl go like that.
"Diana.", came that familiar voice, a voice she knew so well-
"Andrew?", Diana spun around on her heel, she was clearly caught of guard by the male's sudden appearance.
The boy wore an odd expression. "Well that's a first, you somehow always avoid getting surprised by me whenever I show up.", his eyebrow was up.
Diana frowned immediately.
Andrew was taken aback slightly.
A brief moment of silence settled between them.
Diana released an exhausted sigh, "Why are you here?", her tone come out a bit aggressive, a slight bite to it.
The Male sighs softly, "I haven't checked in with you...after that whole missile thing, I wanted to see how you were, and I was hoping maybe you could also tell me how Akko was doing as well, you two were great by the way."
Diana only seems to grow more irritated, "I'm fine, so is she, that all?"
Andrew raises both eyebrows now, "Oook, uh, you alright...I know we were never really close, but...I think I've never seen you like this, you aren't even pretending to be polite."
Diana huffed slightly, "I...My apologizes.", she said through a heavy sigh, she crossed her arms over her chest and looked away.
Andrew rose a hand to the top of his head and rubbed it, "Um...so, what's up? What's got the great Cavendish like this?", he asked a question he was trying to avoid asking. Despite knowing full well Diana wouldn't willingly answer personal questions, he gave it a shot.
Diana turned to meet Andrew's gaze, she could see curiosity as well as reluctance. "Nothing-"
Andrew knew Diana would close off, but that didn't stop him from giving it another go, "You know, i hear that often. Frank always says 'nothing', and whenever he says that, he ends up eventually crying over some problem or some girl who broke his heart.", Andrew sighed out as he put both his hands on his hips. Clearly he was inferring that sharing what was wrong would help ease the situation.
Diana's cheeks grew red instantly, "G-Girl? Me- N-No, Never!", it all came out jumbled out, Diana's serious demeanor was shattered in a matter of seconds.
Andrew stepped back at the raise of Diana's voice, clearly he was startled, questions quickly rose in Andrew's head. 'Oh god' he thought, by some dumb luck, he just broke Diana.
Diana was a stuttering mess.
"What- That's crazy, I mean-"
Andrew felt his cheeks warm up slightly, he reached out and placed his hands over Diana's shoulders, successfully shutting Diana up. "Slow down there"
Diana blushed, and so did Andrew.
"Okay, so...you have girl problems.", Andrew got straight to the point.
Diana nearly shrieked, "NO!", her face went from pink, to red in seconds.
The boy was fascinated. Diana was always so unreadable, but now…
"Yes, yes you do! I'm right!", Andrew gasped.
Diana slapped his arms as to break the physical contact between them, "You don't know what you're talking about." Diana huffed.
Andrew swallowed thickly, he knew Diana didn't trust him, they grew up seeing each other, but they rarely ever talked, rarely ever truly interacted, deep down he wanted something with her, something...friendship-like, and this might just be his chance to finally get something going.
"I can help you-", he said a bit too eager.
Diana scoffed, "How?", and just as she asked the questioned she quickly took it back, "Not that I need help or anything, I mean, there really is nothing that I need help with."
"Diana, be honest with me, for once, please. We grew up together, not closely I know, but...just this once, can we...maybe share something together?", Andrew made hand gestures between them, "I'm not one to judge, I could care less if the person that actually turned you into a stuttering mess was a girl."
Diana hugged her arms to her chest, clearly she was hesitant, she doesn't share things with anyone, she never shared secrets or feelings, this was never something she did or felt the need to. But...Andrew, a boy, might be able to help her sort through her feelings.
Maybe this situation just needed a boy's touch.
"It...It's…", Diana struggled to form a sentence.
Andrew was in clear awe at the sight before him, Diana was always so put together, so perfect and prim, but now, she was just a love-struck idiot.
Just like Frank.
Yep.
"Something tells me this is the start of something nice.", Andrew crossed his arms over his chest, he spoke with a light tone, clearly trying to ease the girl in front of him.
Diana's lips pressed into a tight line and she turned away. "Don't get ahead of yourself, Hanbridge."
Hope it's been interesting, and sorry about the slow update. I'm just getting the rest of the chapters ready and as error free as possible. I pretty much have the last chapter typed up.
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Don't be afraid to comment, I like being corrected, I don't catch all errors, so when someone points one out, its a help. And I also like questions too.
