Before you read this, know that i love the character of Alex, and i think anyone would kill for a sister that loved them as much as Alex loves Kara but sometimes love blinds people to the damage they are unintentionally doing. And I wanted the relationships i potray to reflect life, where after one conversation everything isn't magically okay, that there are steps to be taken if one wants to repair bridges before they fall completely.

Anyway, enough of that, let's get reading.

Don't Question my Love!

Chapter 4

Jess's P.O.V.

I knew the moment that I saw Alex walk through those elevator doors that she was a woman on a mission, that she was finally disclosed about the true depth of Ms. Luthor and Kara's relationship. And boy did she look angry, and that...well that frustrated me. The look on her face, the anger that was pouring off of her lithe frame were the very reasons that the two love birds were so reluctant to tell Kara's family about their relationship.

"I am here to see Luthor." The woman demanded and I just couldn't help myself and the anger tinted tone that came with it.

"Really? Well she is in a meeting right now so you are going to have to sit over there and wait." I snapped.

The look that Alex shot me was one full of surprise and deep thought, but she didn't argue further, merely planted herself on a chair and continued to study me. I dutifully pretended to be hard at work when in actuality Ms. Luthor was in her final meeting of the day and told me to go home before she was dragged a few floors down into what I know is a meeting that is giving the woman a headache.

I was tempted to call Kara and let her know, but I knew that Kara had had a few bad days sine Ms. Luthor was MIA for three straight days. I don't know what happened but I know that it was nothing good. Kara could fool the entire world right down to her sister, but I saw... I see the profound sadness behind those blue eyes just like Ms. Luthor does. I hear her sobs has she mumbles words I can't hear, as she cries in Ms. Luthor's arms, I see anger like no other when another threat against Ms. Luthor's life reaches her ears.

So, no one had to tell me but I know that Kara went through something that she required her girlfriends undivided attention, and somehow and somewhere in all of this Alex Danvers came in to play.

Maybe Kara told Alex she was dating Ms. Luthor and she hadn't taken it well, I doubt she would disown her own sister but well you never know. When people mention the name Luthor they do crazy things.

"You know, don't you?" I am pulled from my thoughts by the surprisingly soft words across the room. Without looking up, I answer.

"Know what, Agent Danvers?"

"That Luthor is dating my sister?" There is that edge again when she says Luthor.

Looking up this time I see that there is a war of emotions running rampant behind cool brown eyes. "Yes," I keep my answer simple.

"What's it like? Working for that family?"

"I don't work for that family, I work for Ms. Luthor." I snap. "Ms. Luthor saved my life when she hired me here, I owe everything that I have and everything that I am to her. She saw the scared barely out of high school girl who applied for a job that I wasn't qualified for because I was that desperate to eat and sleep under a roof, that I was willing to lie through my teeth just to get a job. Instead of laughing me out of her office, she took time out of her day to train me, she lost many lunches and skipped many dinners to get me to where I am, and personally paid for my classes that would teach me what she couldn't. So, no I don't work for the Luthor's, I work for Lena."

Alex is quiet for a few minutes before she speaks and at least she looks somewhat guilty. "I just... I'm sorry. I know that she isn't like the rest of them but I just... I can't get over the fact that she is a Luthor, and that Kara kept that from me..." She runs her hands through her short hair and I can see so much tension in her shoulders. "I was told to come here because I might learn something about her but I don't know if I want to learn anything about her..." It almost sounds like I wasn't supposed to hear that last part but oh how I did.

"Did it ever occur to you that Kara didn't tell you because she feared this very reaction? You are angry, and some of that anger is justifiable, Kara kept a huge secret from you but Kara is an adult, she shouldn't be punished for keeping something from you, she doesn't have to tell you every little thing that she does." I say gently, because I know that this was the very reaction that Kara and Ms. Luthor feared, this anger, this hostility.

"But this isn't something like what movie she went to see or what she had with lunch. This is a dangerous secret to keep, what if..."

"Do not finish that thought in this office Agent Danvers." My voice becomes curt.

"I am sorry Jess, I just... I'm trying to wrap my head around all of this..." She huffs as she looks up to the ceiling, resting her head against the back of the plush chair.

"Well wrap it around quickly because Ms. Luthor loves your sister and I know, that if you make an ultimatum; you or her; Kara will choose her but Ms. Luthor will take herself out of the equation before she ever tears Kara away from you., and that will be the ultimate pain for the both of them and you will have only yourself to blame."

As I finish talking the elevator doors slide open and Ms. Luthor and slimy Mr. Collier walk out.

Alex's P.O.V.

Jess's words hit me hard. There was no way to get Kara to see that this was a bad idea without hurting her. If I tried to reason with her then she would become angry and that was something that National City didn't need was a hotheaded Supergirl. If I made her choose, she would choose Lena but Lena would push Kara to me even if it would hurt her like Jess said it would...

Ahhh, I pulled on my hair to the point where tears were pricking at my eyes

I am pulled out of my racing thoughts by Lena arguing with an older man who looked as though he thought Lena would bow at his feet with just a smile, when all it really did was make him look like some used car salesmen.

That's when I heard the term Alien Detection Device...

I knew that woman was up to something... "I scraped the project..." Well fucking shit. "I had a change of heart... more bad than good..." No, she had to make that device because that would make everything that I thought about the woman would be true... but alas I couldn't deny that she sounded genuine when she spoke as to why she tossed the project away. Was that change of heart Kara and her goofy smile? Or Supergirl's tough but kind persona?

God why was this woman so confusing?!

"Your little friendship with that Supergirl will be the death of you, she can't be trusted." The man said as he was promptly dismissed.

"I trust her more than I will ever trust you..." I look over Lena's shoulder to Jess and see that the woman is pointedly staring at me, almost begging for me to see the woman though her eyes, through Kara's eyes... and I am trying, I am trying to learn like Jonn told me too.

It is then, after that sleazy man has left that I hear the change in the Luthor's voice, she sounds human... tired...

I stand and try to keep my voice hard but I can't keep the thoughts that this hard, possibly evil woman somehow captured my sister's pure heart... and maybe, just maybe there was a reason why...

"Ms. Luthor."

"Agent Danvers, what can I do for you?" And I know that she knows, that Kara didn't have to tell me that she was seeing someone, it's hard to miss the blaringly obvious marks that she left on my sisters back... yea lets just lock that image far, far... far away.

"You know why I am here."

Luthor sighs before turning back to Jess. "Go home like I told you to an hour ago and don't come back till Monday, just forward all calls to the voicemail, I will take care of them tomorrow."

"Ms. Lu..." She holds up her hand while the other pinches the bridge of her nose.

"Enjoy your four-day weekend Jess." While her tone leaves no room for argument it still holds fondness and gentleness that one rarely, if ever associates with a Luthor. "Agent Danvers... follow me." She leads me to her office once she sees with her own eyes that Jess did in fact heed her orders and left for her long weekend.

As I stand awkwardly in her office as she takes a seat behind her desk I look around. The room is surprisingly homey, the balcony looking over National City is obviously unlocked... and it strikes me as to why... for Supergirl, for Kara.

"That Jess is a good assistant but trying to get her to take days off is like pulling teeth..."

"Why my sister?" I cut her off, not wanting to linger in this room with this woman and her idle chatter.

That makes her look up sharply and I am struck by just how green her eyes are, how if I look hard enough I can see the wariness in them. "I am afraid I don't fully understand the question Agent."

Stalking up to her desk I lean on my hands bringing my face even with hers, just a few feet away from this potentially dangerous woman. "Why Kara? Why choose her to pretend to love?" And instantly I feel my head jerk to the side and my cheek sting.

Standing straight I see that Luthor has stood as well, my left hand goes to my stinging cheek... I was just slapped by my sister's... "What the hell was that?" I growl out.

"Don't you ever question my love for your sister, you can question anything else about me, my motives, my family anything but that. That woman is the love of my life Agent Danvers and it's a damn shame you can't seem to grasp that with an even mind." Her voice is steady... scary almost as those piercing green eyes bore into me.

"I will question whatever the hell I want Luthor, you can understand my apprehension. A Super and a Luthor? How do I know that you aren't like Lex? How do I know?" I ask lowering my hand and shrugging my shoulders with the age old question.

I see her thinking deeply before she sighs and the tension falls from her shoulders. "Did Kara ever tell you about her time in the phantom zone?" I shake my head, my face scrunching up.

"All she ever told me was that she had periods of being awake but that she slept most of those years away."

"Well, she spent more time awake than asleep. In that time, she told me that all she could see was her planet, dying with her family. She told me stories about Krypton, about her mother and father. She told me about Astra, about what you did," at that her voice hardens.

"I did what I had too, Kara understands that. I didn't want to kill her aunt, but she knows that I had no choice." I yell back but it doesn't faze the woman.

"I'm not arguing that, she's know you had no choice, you were protecting someone close to you, who I don't know. But did you ever let Kara grieve. I mean beyond the obvious anger that she held, did you ever hold her as she cried herself to sleep? Did you ever hug her, and say sorry, over and over and over again so that she would know that you would forever be sorry that you took her last connection to her mother away from her? Did you ever let her grieve before moving onto the next Supergirl mission?"

I swallow thickly at the Luthor's heavy words. Kara never made it seem like she needed a shoulder to lean on after the first few days passed after Astra's death... did she really... "She said she was fine," and even to my own ears it sounds like a weak argument.

Luthor sighs before walking around the desk to stand directly in front of me, standing eye to eye, this close with a look of complete sadness tinging her eyes, I can almost see what Kara see's in this woman.

"Look, Alex, I know she is your sister but you have to understand that there is an immense amount of sadness, hurt and rage simmering beneath her lovable exterior. And it may be hard to hear and it may not be my place to say this but you contribute to some of that." Her voice is soft and kind as she looks into my eyes, almost like she is staring deep into my soul.

I shake my head, "I don't understand."

"Kara forgave you for killing Astra but she wishes that you had been more concerned for her afterwards, and she was angry for the longest time that you were willing to let her be angry at someone else for what you did." I gasp, coming to realize just how much of Kara's life this woman knows. "The last thing Kara needs is for her sister to add on to the anger that she is constantly fighting against. Deep down she is just girl that lost her home, her family and just wants to be loved, for every part of her, and in my own personal opinion that I have never and will never tell Kara; I think you take advantage of her."

That last part is simple and to the point and stings more than the earlier slap ever would. I remain quiet taking Luthor's verbal bashing because I am seeing that I might deserve it. "I would never take advantage of my sister, I love her."

She nods her head as she takes a step back. "I know you do, but you take advantage of her understanding nature, like when you ditched her on her earth birthday. She plays it off that she knows that you were still running on the high of a new relationship, that you were finally happy in your own skin, and she was proud of you. But let me tell you something Alex, you hurt her that night, you were hurting her and you made it seem as though you didn't feel guilty..."

"I went to her, I apologized!" I snap back.

"But you still hurt her feelings!" Luthor growls back. "After you left that night because you couldn't even bother to stay with her through the night, she called me, and i held her as she cried. For the longest time she wouldn't tell me, we weren't dating then but I still loved her and I wanted to do nothing but ease her pain. I was there that night.

I was there on the anniversary of Krypton's death a month into our relationship and you weren't. You were with Maggie on the day that your SISTER lost her entire life. You weren't there to see the vacant look in her eyes as she ran her thumb over her wrist, you weren't there when she said that it was on that day that she wished her skin wasn't steel. You don't realize Alex, that if I hadn't been in her life and she had no powers that night you might not have your sister here anymore!" At this point she was yelling and I was breaking apart on the inside.

"Kara wouldn't do that, even if she could..."

"People do crazy things when they feel unwanted, and full of grief. And Kara, she is so kind, and so sweet that it's easy for people to not realize that they are taking advantage of that kindness. She is strong, but even the strongest of beings needs someone to see the sadness and pain that built that strength. And I see, I see Kara Zor-el. Not Kara Danvers, not Supergirl. I see that scared little girl who crash landed on this godforsaken planet with no purpose. You have to understand that I mean her no ill will, I would rather die than see a world without her in it, without her in my life. Your sister sees past whatever hang-ups you and the rest of the world sees about me. And it took a long time for me to accept that I was worthy of her love, that I was worthy of her."

I stand there dumbfounded as I watch tears glisten her green eyes, I see the absolute truth that she speaks, and damn does that hit me hard. I look back over my life spent by Kara's side and I can see what Luthor means when she says that we have all at some point taken advantage of Kara and fuck...

"So, you see Alex that is why Kara chose to fall in love with me, I see her rage and I accept it. I see her not as an alien but as a person who deserves to have an epic love story, and I will give that to her, I will give her the life that we both know she deserves. She will be the very center of my universe."

I take a deep breath and turn from the woman before me and walk to look over National City. I want to hate this woman... but even I can't deny that everything she said was truth.

"I hate to admit it," I say to my reflection, looking at hers knowing that she doesn't know I can see her. "But you are right." I choke out and the surprise that paints the woman almost makes it worth it. "I guess somewhere along the way I forgot... I forget that underneath that bubbly personality is a woman who lost everything." I turn back to Luthor and meet her surprised gaze head on. "You know before I left Kara made a comment that I am starting to slowly think might hold some weight."

"And what is that exactly." He voice is timid but her posture is every bit that of a CEO.

"She said that if I could get my head out of my ass, that the two of us would get along, her words were inseparable. I want to think that she was right but it will take a while Luthor, I can't just stop thinking that you will ever be worthy of my sister. And I heard everything that you have said, and you are right, I might need to clear the air with Kara about her aunt... it won't happen overnight but maybe one day I will make Kara's statement true Luthor."

And I see something that I have never seen, a smile that brightens the room instantly touches the stunning woman's face and again in that moment I see why Kara found herself entranced by this woman.

"Well, maybe we can start by you not calling me Luthor. Kara can't stand when people do that, it's kind of cute how riled up she gets." And with that her smile grows just a bit brighter.

I walk up to the woman who has my sister's heart and hold out my hand. Waiting for her to take it before letting a small smile touch my own lips. It will take a good while before I trust her enough to even think about calling her a friend but for Kara's sake I will try to understand this mystery of a woman. "I guess this is the start... Lena."

A. Grayson