So I want to make a point that I'm using the app to write my chapters and cannot put a separation in between scenes. I've tried everything and the minute I publish, what I've done disappears so I apologize for that.
He felt her hands push against his chest before his lips met hers.
He opened his eyes to find hers wet with tears.
"I can't do this. I can't. You're in love with Jean. I won't be some sort of rebound and I do not stand for this need to be my savior or my lover because we have a child on the way. I won't have my heart played with again Logan. It's been years and you've never tried to pursue anything of this nature with me so please do not insult me by doing it now." She pushes him away from her easily.
Partially due to the static she was practically vibrating with.
She wiped her eyes quickly taking a deep breath before she turned and walked out leaving Logan standing in her room in shock.
"You tried to what?!" Marie screeched.
Logan winced at her high pitched voice.
He took a deep sigh.
"She thinks I'm in love with Jean and man I don't know what I was thinking. I just- I ain't never been in love with Jeannie. And I don't want her thinking I'm just trying to rebound with her."
"Well can ya blame her? You ain't never really tried connecting with her on a more personable level Logan." She said.
Marie had blossomed into a beautiful outspoken young lady; a sharp turn from the shy teen she'd been when he'd first picked her up.
"Yeah but that's only cuz I knew the kinda woman she was and what she'd bring out of me and I just wasn't ready for that. I ain't gone lie I still kinda ain't but I can't watch her carrying my baby and not act on it when it's the very thing I've dreamed about before."
Fuck.
He said too much.
Marie turned to him with a smirk on her face.
"I'll be damned. You mean to tell me Roro had you dreaming about domestication? You denied liking her!" She giggled.
The stuff he'd felt seeing and being around Storm scared the living shit out of him. So he ignored it. He wasn't about to admit his fear of anything.
Until now.
"Listen. It was just some stuff I entertained once or twice. It wasn't nothing serious." He grumbled.
"Serious enough for you to ignore her. Ororo's a beautiful woman. You're an idiot for not chasing after her."
Didn't he know it.
"I just wasn't ready to be the type of man she needs. I'm still not. But I can't ignore her anymore. Who I am won't let me." He sighed.
"I don't think she would've judged you as hard as you're thinking. You wouldn't have needed to be anyone but yourself for her. You still don't." She said as she left out of the Rec Room.
She was in her office still as he walked in.
"Can I help you Logan?" She asked.
He shut the door causing her eyebrow to arch.
"Listen I just want you to know that I ain't tryna rebound off Jean with you. I think way too high of you to ever do that. I just- I want- Damnit I'm not good at talking about shit like this. Ro' I've always thought of ya as too much for me. Too high for me to touch. I'm not good enough for ya; not then and honestly not even now. I ain't love Jeannie the way y'all thought I did. I mean I loved her and it hurt me to kill her and I grieve over that but I wasn't in love with her."
She sat silently; staring at him. If she was feeling something it definitely was not visible on her face.
"I chased Jean because it was easier. I didn't like the way I felt when I looked at you. I didn't like thinking about you in the way that I did because you deserved much more than a fucked up dog like me. Jeannie already belonged to Scott so it was just entertainment and we both knew that. We'd never actually be a thing. But you actually could have changed me if you asked me to; and I wasn't man enough to face that possibility. I've never wanted to settle down; partially because I'm afraid of what could happen if I did. I don't think a man like me deserves happiness. There's no way in hell I do. But I can't watch you carry my child and not be involved when I've dreamt of this very thing happening." He decided to repeat what he said to Marie because it was true and if he was going to be baring his soul she needed to know the seriousness of his words.
He heard her heart pounding though the look on her face hadn't changed.
"I ain't tryna rush you into nothing or say we gotta be something but I just want you to know that this stuff that I feel ain't new. And it definitely ain't cuz of no Jean."
He felt like a weight had been lifted off his shoulders.
"Thank you for sharing that with me Logan. Did you need anything else?" She still had that expressionless look on her face.
His anger surged immediately.
"I just fucking poured out everything I been feeling and that's all I get is your robot act?" He slammed his hands on her desk.
She blinked hard but made no movement.
"I appreciate the sentiment but I'm not sure what you want-."
"I want a response! Damnit I want you to at least say you don't feel the same way instead of dismissing me like I'm one of your damn students or something. What the fuck Ro'? Don't give me this unfeeling bullshit!"
"You're not the only one who's not the greatest at expressing themselves Logan." She said quietly.
"And you don't always have to use words to express yourself. Actions speak louder than words. Ain't that right?" He said coming around the desk and pulling her up and out her chair.
His hands slid down to her wrists holding them as he pushed her up against the wall; even in his clouding vision he made sure to be careful of her belly.
Her heart was pounding hard; or maybe it was his, he wasn't sure at this point. She was panting and his eyes zeroed in on her full lips. Almost instantly his mouth was on hers.
She tasted like rain, like fresh air, like heaven.
The sensation that filled Logan was almost orgasmic; he raised his hands to cradle her face and deepen the kiss.
She let out a full moan and that immediately made him press her further into the wall. He couldn't get enough.
He felt like he was drowning and flying all at once.
He broke away from her mouth and trailed his kisses down the length of her chin and jaw until he made it to her neck. Nipping lightly and relishing in the small gasp only he would've heard, he suckled gently knowing that her collar would cover any marks he left on her.
And he did.
He marked her over and over again.
Mine.
It echoed through his mind.
He felt weak almost; realizing that she was vibrating with static and it was ringing through his adamantium laced bones.
His hands went to her skirt hiking it up before he wrapped both legs around his waist and swung her around to her desk.
"Logan we-."
He cut her off with a kiss.
"I know. I ain't rushing into nothing you ain't giving me the word for. I want to do this right. I wanna be right for you."
"You don't have to be anyone but you Logan. I don't need right; I need genuine."
Her hair had fallen out of its bun, her lips were swollen and her eyes were still heavy lidded.
"Ya know Marie told me the same thing."
"She's a smart young woman." She said with a chuckle.
He rested his forehead against hers planting lazy kisses on her lips at random.
"You're an amazing woman. I don't ever want you thinking I think any less of you. And I'm sorry for jumping and kissing on you; I just needed to show you better than I could tell you." He backed away and let her come down off the desk.
She was trembling as she tried to fix her hair and he grabbed her hands stopping her.
"Leave it. It looks good down. You don't look so uptight." He said.
She let out a light laugh but left her hair alone.
"Uh so- um, I'm sorry I just don't know what to say."
"Just know that this was real. Even if you say you don't wanna do this and don't wanna go there with me; I'm fine with that. I'm still gonna be right here with ya. I'm here all the way." He said.
"Can I touch your belly again?"
She slowly nodded and he knelt down resting his head and both hands against her stomach.
"Kendall can hear you if you talk. It'll help the baby recognize you at birth." She said softly.
"Wonder if they got my hearing." He said. As if on cue he felt a soft nudge to his cheek.
"Well I'll take that as a yes." She laughed.
He grinned and stood up on his feet. He led her out of her office and then downstairs.
Mouths dropped in shock as he pulled out her chair for her and then went and retrieved her plate of fruits and veggies.
"Logan, I am not crippled!" She said with a laugh.
"Well you ain't gotta lift a finger while I'm around." He said with a shrug.
Logan day back and watched Ororo talk with all of the students.
He didn't exactly know where this would take them; but he felt good. It was unconventional but he felt complete almost.
He knew things would be okay.