Something flared inside me; I wrapped my arms around Carlisle's neck and pulled him closer. Time held no meaning as we stood there embracing each other. He made me feel so much more than I remember feeling with Daniel. But at the thought of Daniel I pulled away.

It was just wrong for me to be feeling this way towards Carlisle, no matter how right it felt.

I lifted my hand to my tingling lips; I had to take a step back. "Carlisle…" I stopped; I didn't know what I was going to say.

"Annalise, it is alright. I understand I was out of line." He stepped to the side and with a curt nod went back inside. I just stood there in shock.

If I was honest with myself I could admit that I had started to feel something for Carlisle. But every time I thought more about it, I felt guilty as if I was betraying Daniel. His death wasn't long ago and I didn't want to feel guilty for having feelings for someone else.

I know I had to move forward, I couldn't focus on what in the past no matter how recent that part of my past was. I had Carlisle now. I wanted to be with Carlisle and with time I'm certain I could develop even deeper romantic feelings towards him. And just now he showed me that he wanted to be with me.

But I just had to push him away. I couldn't do that. It was then I decided that I would look forward. Carlisle was my future now. It might take me awhile but I would allow myself to feel what I wanted to. And I knew I had to do something about my feelings for Carlisle.

I turned around and headed inside. I didn't have to think about where he would've gone; he would be in the library. I walked down the hall and opened the door. He was standing at the window. The sunlight was streaming through the window, lights decorating the room where the sunlight hit his skin.

"Carlisle," I walked towards him, stopping when I was standing right by his side. "I'm sorry."

He put a finger to my lips. "It's alright. I understand I was out of line. You just don't feel that way about me. Like I said I understand." I shook my head.

"No Carlisle, that's it. You are not out of line. It's not you, it's me. I want to tell you how much I like you, but I just… I just don't know how I should be feeling right now. I just… it's Daniel. I know he's gone, and it's all because of me. Because of what I am, that's the reason he's dead. I still feel like I'm not honoring his memory."

Carlisle was nodding to what I was saying, and when I finished he smiled at me. "I must admit I am happy to know that it's not the idea of me liking you that made you reject me. I do not know what it is like to lose a spouse. I do know what it's like to lose those you love though. But I want you to know Annalise that you can talk to me about anything. Even about Daniel. I don't mind, I want you to be happy now in this new life."

"Thank you Carlisle." I stepped closer and wrapped my arms around him taking comfort in my only friend. "Well I am going to clean up and maybe read that new book you got me." I smiled over my shoulder at him as I left the library.

I closed the door behind me and walked to my room. I was immediately calmed, even though we've only been here a little under a month I felt a sense of home when I walked into my room. Not that it looked like my old house, it was just comforting. I was able to have my room painted my favorite shade of purple. And one whole wall was just for books. They weren't full yet. I didn't have any of my books from before by change but Carlisle was letting me buy books to fill the shelves at my own pace and I was quickly filling them out.

Plus after he returned from the city where he went to keep up appearances he would come back with new books for me to read. I walked past the shelves and my bed to the room attached. It was a bathroom, more modern than I was used to. There was a bathtub that I was very fond of.

I started to fill it with water and then went and got a new change of clothes. There was no point in sleeping clothes so I just picked another dress in a blue color that I was starting to like. I took it with me and stepped back into my bathroom.

Undressing quickly I slipped into the hot water. I found I didn't need to clean up really, but I hated being covered with the residue left over from hunting. I wasn't in there long; I had this game where I timed how long it took me to clean with my new speed. So far my best time was 45 seconds.

I was starting to accept what I've become. I still blamed myself for Daniel's death and I don't think that would ever change. But I was willing to move on; he would always be a part of me. I looked down at my hand the simple gold band was still there. I didn't want to remove it; it was a reminder of who I once was even if I wasn't that woman anymore.

I stepped out of the water and dried off. I dressed slowly, well slowly for me and pulled my long hair into a braid. I skipped out of the bathroom, putting shoes on as I walked and headed back into my room.

I grabbed the book off my end table and on a whim decided I was going to read in the library. I closed my door behind me and headed into the library, Carlisle was still there. Sitting in an armchair, reading by the light coming through the window he was absorbed in the new medical text he found.

Before he looked up at my entrance I was able to look at him. The way his brow furrowed while he read something new and the way a lock of hair fell into his line of sight and he brushed it away with a flick of his hand. The curve of his neck as he craned to read the tome and how his upper lip was slightly bigger than his lower one all made him the man I was so fond of.

I wouldn't change anything about him. But I shook my head to clear it and he looked up from the book acknowledging I was there.

"Annalise," He smiled, "What do you need?"

I shook my head again, "I don't need anything, and I was just going to join you. I was going to read in my room but I need company."

"Well you are quite welcome to join me." He gave me an indecipherable look and went back to reading.

I shook it off and went to sit in the chair next to him. I opened the book to where I stopped reading last time and getting carried away in the story I didn't stop reading until I finished the thick book and the sun was long gone.

Eh this chapter was really short, it was just this was the best part to end it. Hoped you all enjoyed it though. Please review it gives me a reason to continue this story. Motivation if you will. Anywho, I was thinking of doing a Chapter from Carlisle's point of view like I do with Love Lost like switch between Annalise and Carlisle. Meh, let me know what you think. (:

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