Author's notes- Oh boy here we go my first ever smut writing(and oddly enough my longest chapter so far) CONTENT WARNING this will "technically" be rape so if that type of thing bothers you I recommend skipping this chapter. Don't worry there will be more smut later down the line that's a bit more...innocent (if that makes sense)I should also say that this chapter takes heavy influence from Secret writter's "Warmness of the Soul" story(although the particular chapter with influence was apparently written by a friend)

Patience is said to be a powerful force. Patience keeps us from making hasty decisions, ones that could seriously impact our lives and the lives of those around us. Patience could be viewed as a inhibition, something that keeps us from acting on our most primal instincts, Something that keeps us civil.

Tali didn't give a damn about patience, inhibitions merely got in the way of what she wanted.

Sadly what she wanted was taking his sweet time in waking up, and the waiting was already beginning to torment her.

Keelah John you're killing me
Please wake up John, I need you
Hurry John. Hurry. Hurry. Hurry. Hurry. Hurry. Hurry. Hurry. Hurry.

She didn't want to do anything while the commander was sleeping, this was going to be the start of their love life and both parties involved needed to experience it, not just her but everything he did tested her resolve. Every sound that escaped his mouth made her want to lock her lips with his and never let go, and every slight shuffle he did made her want to strip the clothes from his body and take him immediately. She wanted to wait for Shepard but the battle between what little patience she had remaining and her extreme lust was a battle quickly reaching it's end.

Just a bit wont hurt right?
I just need a little contact
I'll stop myself before doing anything big

She nervously climbed on to the bed with the commander and positioned herself to be able to rest her head on his chest. It was the best feeling she had ever experienced in her life. Being this close to the commander,with only their clothing between them, was filling her with a warmth that she had never felt in her life. Feeling the steady rise and fall of his chest as he breathed filled her with a sense of comfort,knowing he was so close calmed her troubled mind.

Or at least it did for a time.

More. I need more.

She shifted her body so she could completely rest her body on top of his. She felt like a fool, how could she have consider merely resting her head on his chest as the best feeling of her life? What was a mere head's worth of contact with him worth compared to being able to have every fiber of his being touching her?Her breathing became more rapid, to the point of fogging her visor. The anticipation was beginning to kill her, the more she thought about the night the higher her temperature rose. She was sure this was going to be a night to remember, a night full of discovering new "best feelings of her life". She needed something more but what? How could she get more contact than what she was already receiving? Just as Tali was desperately racking her mind for a new way to hold off her desires the commander groaned and slightly shifted.

Tali gasped in excitement and smiled widely...before realizing the commander was still fast asleep. She had never had her dreams and hopes crushed as she did in that moment but just as she was about to stoop to new levels of sulking something hit her, or rather prodded her. Tali's mind stopped working briefly working before kicking into overdrive.

I-is that his...

She lifted her head ever so slightly from the commanders chest to get a better view. There in all of it's concealed glory was a rather noticeable bulge just behind her rear. Tali was at a lost for words, she turned to look at the commanders face, to find that sadly he was still deeply asleep.

Wake up John, Now.
I need you.

She looked back down, she just couldn't keep her eyes off of it. It was so close to her, so dangerously close. Tali could hardly see out of her visor at this point, she desperately wanted to just take the dreaded thing and throw it out the airlock but she couldn't. Not because of the possibility of getting sick, she couldn't care less about that at this point, but because she desired to reveal her face to the commander while he was up. She told herself it wouldn't be the same if he woke up to her face, she wanted it to be a symbol of much she was willing to grow for him. The Quarian girl she was in the past never would of dreamed of taking off a single piece of her suit, but the Quarian woman she was now would, she'd take off every single piece for him. She wanted him to know just how much he had changed her. Technically she wasn't a woman yet but that would be changing soon enough, or at least she hoped.

Well not exactly hoped, hope was reserved for situations were you aren't sure of the outcome, and Tali was dead certain of the outcome tonight. She would have him, and she was going to have him now. With great effort and force of will she tore herself from the commander's body and began the delicate process of removing his clothes. She desperately wanted to just get his pants off but human clothing seemed to have other ideas for her. She first had to take of his shoes and when she did that she noticed some strange cloth underneath that was concealing the commander's feet. With a shrug she ignored them before moving,ever eagerly, towards his pants. The strange metal device in the middle of his pants stood no chance against her burning desire and they were also soon cast away. She began to move towards the commanders shirt before realizing that it would be awfully difficult to take off considering that the commanders hand's were currently bound to the bed. Leaving a single inch of the commanders flesh hidden was simply not an option however and Tali grasped his shirt by the collar.

Hope he isn't overly fond of this shirt.

With every ounce of force she could muster she tugged and quickly reduced his shirt to ruins. All that was left now was the underwear, one single piece of cloth separating her from a full look at the commanders body. Frankly it didn't stand a chance and like every piece of clothing before it it was promptly disposed of. At long last it was visible, and Tali was rather pleased to examine it...thoroughly. It was just as large and imposing as the rest of the Commander, if she were to guess it was just above eight inches in length. It was indeed quite the sight but Tali didn't strip the commander down to satisfy her sense of sight.

She wanted, no needed, to touch it and when the commander did finally decide to awake she would move onto the other senses, but that would have to wait until then, for now touching it would have to do. She nervously inched her three digits towards it and was just about to grasp it when she stopped.

No this...this isn't right.

She pulled her hand back, before quickly throwing her body on top of the commander's once again, this time with her entrance hovering just over his now exposed member.

Much Better.

She lowered her lower half until they were at last touching and moaned in satisfaction. Her suit was blocking the joy of full contact but that wouldn't stop her from enjoying what she could, and there was plenty for her to savor. The suit may be able to block the sense of touch to a certain degree, but it didn't keep her from knowing when something was touching her, couldn't stop her from knowing just how close he was. The suit had a certain amount of temperature control but it couldn't stop her from feeling the heat that emitted from the commander's member. The suit was effective at absorbing liquids to a certain degree but it wasn't effective enough as Tali's wetness had already begun to dribble onto the commander, and she was just beginning.

She began to slowly sway her hips back in forth, savoring the sensation of feeling the commander's member rubbing against her entrance. Gradually her speed would increase, as would the volume of her moans and gasps. She took great care to make sure she didn't vocalize her pleasure too intensely, sadly the cabin was not sound proof and she'd rather not have any annoyances come along and ruin this moment for her. She had work extremely hard to put all of this together, to have this moment together alone with the commander. If someone, anyone, were to come and take this away from her she didn't know what she would do, just that it would be rather violent.

So she did her best to remain quite, it was a difficult undertaking but she would endure it for the commander. She would stifle every satisfied moan, every needy gasp, even the occasional groan.

Wait groaning?

John Shepard liked to believe he was a capable soldier, able to deduce his current situation and quickly take control of it. That did not seem to be happening for him now.

The first thing that hit him was the extreme confusion. He was still slightly out of it but he could feel that he was on top of a mattress, his mattress to be more specific. How he had ended up here was beyond him, last he remembered he was in the conference room of the ship, finishing a meeting with the crew and linking minds with Liara. The thought of linking minds brought forth unwelcome memories and a even more unwelcome pain in his forehead. He quickly rubbed the top of his head with his right hand to help alleviate the growing discomfort, or at least attempted to. For some reason his hand refused to move a inch.

What the hell?

The commander tried moving his hand again but still nothing, suddenly he noticed a binding keeping his wrist firmly tied to his bedpost. A quick glance to the left confirmed his theory that both of his hands were in this state.

Okay I'm fairly confident I didn't decide to take a nap after binding both of my hands to my bed.

He then noticed that for some reason his room seemed alot colder than usual and quickly deduced why.

And I know I don't like to sleep nude so what the hell is going on here?

Suddenly he noticed an extremely different feeling, assaulting a very different part of his body. He lifted his head with a groan to examine exactly what was going on. What he saw was a pair of shining orbs hidden behind a visor staring directly into his eyes, mere centimeters away from his face.

"Good morning John"a voice emitted from behind the visor "I've been waiting for this."

Shepard was more than slightly surprised to find Tali straddling his bare form,rubbing herself against him, and quickly tried to form a coherent sentence to voice said confusion.

"Wha-Tali?" This was proving to be a difficult task, hundreds of questions struggled for dominance in Shepard's mind.

What Is going on? Why am I nude? Why are you here? Why are you here DRY HUMPING ME?!

"Tali what the hell is going on? What are you doing?" Shepard had given up on trying to find one question to start off with and simply began letting them all flood out "Why are my hands tied? What did you do?" He just let the questions gush from his mouth, desperate to find some answers to the absolutely bizarre situation he was in.

A small chuckle came from the Quarian resting on top of him.

She thinks this is funny?

Anger was quickly building up in the commander, anger he was more than happy to voice "Tali I don't know what the hell is going on but I assure you it is no laughing matter"He said with as much spite as he could. Tali didn't speak but rather simply sat up straight. Further angered by the lack of response the commander continued his rant "I don't know what the hell you were thinking but I order you to unite my hands now!" Still no words from Tali, instead she began to move her hands up towards her face-plate and all of the anger in Shepard was replaced with curiosity and...while he'd hate to admit it worry. "Tali? What are you doing? still no response and her hands had already reached the sides of her helmet."Say something!" Suddenly Shepard heard a slight hiss and panic truly began to set in. He had learnt why Quarians lived in those suits and no matter how he may feel about the Quarian in-front of him at this moment he sure as hell didn't want her to risk death. "Tali wait! don't ta-" in the middle of his request to stop her from taking of her visor he noticed the deed was already done. Words could not be formed anymore, he was far to busy studying every detail of her face, the grayish tint of her skin, the thin raven hair that draped behind her, but most captivating were her eyes. He knew there must have been some luminous property to her eyes, that much was visible with the visor on, but when they were uncovered they had a certain...allure to them, something that made him lose his sense of reason.

She...She's beautiful

He desperately tried to shake these thoughts from his head, no matter how perfect she may be it did not excuse this situation. He fully intended on letting her know this "T-Tali this doesn't change anything, you need to untie me no-" any further protest was quickly cut off as Tali suddenly lunged at the commander. Her mouth found his and quickly latched on, with no intent on letting go. Shortly afterwords the commander felt something invading his mouth, something filled with an excessive amount of energy. He tried his hardest to pull his head back but suddenly felt a small nip at the edge of his tongue and was quickly pulled back in. With no escape route clearly visible the commander simply let his tongue hang limp in his mouth, allowing Tali to have free reign. Nothing inside of the commanders mouth was spared from Tali's needy exploration, her tongue caressed and prodded every single piece of flesh it could find and every single drip of saliva he could spare was eagerly stolen by Tali. After what felt like an hour Tali finally released the iron hold she had on his mouth, most likely from a need of oxygen, and hovered just over the commanders face. Without ever breaking eye contact she finally spoke

"So many questions" Her hot breath tickled Shepard's face as she spoke "Just give me Time and I'll answer them all" She gave another quick, but still passionate kiss before speaking "First you asked What's going on, well that's simple" another kiss interrupted her sentence "I'm proving my love" She moved her head slightly down and kissed his neck. "Why are your hands tied? Because no one is going to take this moment away from us, not even you"She kissed his neck again before moving her head slightly down. Shepard watched in disbelieve as Tali trailed lower until she was just over his chest and stuck out her tongue. She pressed her tongue against his skin and began to move slowly down. Shepard had a vague idea where this was leading but couldn't believe it. Tali, the sweet naive Quarian engineer he had saved on the citadel was...was taking him, having her way with him. Desperately he spoke, hoping that he was wrong, that there was some form of misunderstanding "T-Tali wait, what are you doing?" Tali had stopped her slow descent to answer "You're mine John, every single part of you is mine" she continued further down until she had reached his naval "I'm going to taste you John" Shepard watched in shock as Tali slid down further yet, now with her mouth hovering just over his member. "Every part" she whispered and the hot breath from her mouth sent a shiver coursing through the commanders body. A small smile broke put on Tali's face as she noticed the effect her actions were having on the commander "Enjoying yourself John?" She lowered her lips and planted a small kiss on the tip of his member causing Shepard to grimace. Using the commanders reaction as an answer she continued to speak "You have no idea how much it pleases me to know I bring you pleasure John and I'm enjoying this immensely as well but" she slowly licked the side of his member, coating it with a thin layer of her saliva "This is only the beginning" she slowly trailed her tongue across the rest of his member, only stopping when it was fully covered with saliva. She licked her lips and grinned "this is just the start of a long night together." seeing no reason to further delay she slowly placed her lips on the tip of his member and slowly lowered herself down,taking in as much as it as she could. She felt Shepard's entire body tense from the sensation and took pride in the fact that she must have been doing something right.

That's a relief because I have no idea what I'm doing, Tali nervously thought to herself. She wanted this night to be something to remember for Shepard, or more precisely, wanted it burned into his mind never to be forgotten. Her inexperience in this type of thing made her worry that she wouldn't be able to please him, that he wouldn't be captivated by her. She willed herself on however, she would not lose Shepard. She simply did whatever her heart screamed at her to do at that moment abandoning all of the "what ifs" that normally troubled herself and right now her heart was telling her to suck him dry. She was more than happy to comply and began to swirl her tongue around him as she bobbed her head. Shepard could be heard grunting and breathing heavily the whole time, a sign that he was enjoying himself. Tali's heart swelled knowing that Shepard was enjoying this but something still bothered her. She wanted to please him, to put his desires before hers, but it was becoming increasingly difficult. His taste was simply intoxicating and Tali struggled to not lose herself in it.

What the hell has gotten into her? Shepard thought and even tried to say but the words died in his mouth as he shuddered in pleasure from Tali's continued assault. He was no stranger to this type of thing but something was different about her. He couldn't really explain it but it was like she wasn't even really focusing on getting him to release as women in the past had done. No instead it felt like she was...actually trying to enjoy the flavor, savoring his member like it was some delicacy. He felt his release approaching all the same however and choked out a warning for Tali "T-Tali I'm about to c-" suddenly Tali's eyes widened and her motions stopped. Shepard hated to admit it but the fact that she stopped greatly annoyed him and he tried his best to suggest it without flat out saying he was enjoying himself "Tali? is something wrong?" Tali raised her head and stared into his eyes again as she spoke "Wrong hole."

What? "I-I'm not sure I follow" Shepard stuttered out. Suddenly small hissing noises could be heard while Tali pulled at pieces of her suit. "Believe me John I wanted to taste you but" slowly but surely her suit was stripped "I want to feel you inside me even more" She slid the main section of her suit which covered her upper body slowly down and revealed her full bare self to Shepard. Shepard couldn't help but stare, everything about her petite form captivated him. The grey smooth skin devoid of any body hair,her small and perky breast, and most of all her opening which hovered just over his member. "I can't take it anymore I need you to take me, to be my first" Tali whined desperately.

First? This is how she wants her first time to be like? "Tali wait" Shepard said in a calm,steady voice that he had not had since he had woken up. "This...this isn't right"He sighed as he saw Tali looking at him with a "I don't really care" look and to be fair she had already established that she wasn't above forcing this upon him, but for it to be her first time...it just didn't sit right with Shepard. "No not the whole sedating me thing, that goes without saying of course" he spoke in softer tone hoping that he may be able to get out of this situation somehow "I meant...You're first time should...should be something special, not well" he glanced around a bit "this"

Tali smiled and even giggled a little "John you really do care about me don't you?"

To be honest I'd just rather not be raped "Of course I do Tali. I don't want you to throw away something so precious" Shepard had experience in getting out of tight situations by using honeyed words before and this time would be no different "Just...just give me some time and I'll...I'll give you a proper first time" now to add some good old fashion Shepard humor "candles and all."

Tali practically emitted happiness as she spoke "I love you John and I really appreciate you putting in so much thought into whats best for me" She began to stumble over her words slightly "a-and you mean it don't you, a-about the first time" she blushed "You'll really...You'll really do that for me?"

Hook line and sinker "Of course Tali just take off these bindings and we can forget about all this, no hard feelings."

Tali continued to smile and her voice was just as overjoyed as she spoke.

"I refuse."

huh? Suddenly with the force that could only come from one depraved from touch for their whole life, Tali pushed herself all of the way down until her hips meet with Shepard's. A hiss of pain could be heard from Tali and she did not move,she merely sat on his lap with him buried inside her. Either from worry that Tali was extremely hurt or from impatience Shepard spoke "Tali you...are you hurt?" Still no words from Tali she merely sat there eyes wide and mouth agape. Her eyes seemed to dim slightly and her gaze seemed to focus on nothing in particular before she spoke again "Amazing" She started to slowly move her hips up and down, fully relishing the feeling of him inside her. Talking became increasingly difficult for Tali but she manged to string together a few sentences between moans of ecstasy"It's...it's amazing, this feeling, this is what I've longed for". Her movement increased in force and speed as she sought out even more pleasure "Far...far better than my countless dreams, fantasies can't even compare John."

Countless dreams? what the hell? "Tali...how long have you thought about" Tali's inner walls battered against his sense of reason and he gritted his teeth to hold on to any decency he had "about this?" Without ever slowing down Tali panted out her response "ever since I meet you in that alley John, keelah I've wanted this for so long" She smiled as she spoke "Ever since you've saved my life, ever since you treated me so kindly, ever since you treated me as a equal"Her eyes glazed over slightly as she continued to list reasons why she thought of this so much "Ever since you looked at me, ever since you allowed me to be by your side, Ever since you allowed me to share the same oxygen as you."

Fairly disturbed by Tali's sudden outburst Shepard struggled to retain his relativity calm exterior "Tha-that's really flattering Tali but" he again winced as Tali used her seemingly endless stamina to continue to assault him "I- I don't think I feel the same way" suddenly her monitions stopped and her head hung low, unable to determine what expression she was making Shepard assumed she was simply taken aback and used the opportunity to try and talk some sense into her "Tali you may not want to hear this but this, this isn't love" He really didn't want to say what it truly was but felt he had no choice "this is rape Tali, and I can assure you I don't want this" he braced himself for whatever outburst Tali was sure to unleash upon him at any moment. Would she become enraged and attack him? Would she bawl her eyes out? He wasn't sure but he'd do his best to prepare himself, mentally and physically. Then he heard something emitting from Tali, not a weak sob or low growl but rather a single word. "Liar" and suddenly her hips resumed their frantic up and down motion. Tali was practically delirious as she spoke "You love me, you have to love me" she leaned down and suddenly grabbed onto the sides of Shepard's head and forced him to stare into his eyes "You don't get to say no to my feelings" her head hovered just over Shepard's as she continued to to stare into his eyes while speaking "I've lost too much in this life, I will not lose you" she leaned further and whispered directly into his ear "I've been honest with you so how about you stop lying" Shepard winced at the feeling of Tali's hot breath entering directly into his ear as she continued to speak. "You know this isn't rape, you enjoy this don't you? I make you happy don't I?" Shepard tried to force out a sentence, some form of denial "Th-that's not true" Tali calmy spoke and easily shattered Shepard's facade of unwillingness.

"Then why have you been trying to restrain your voice?"Shepard tried to come up with some form of excuse but before he could even begin a sentence Tali continued "I've been holding back my voice this whole time, keelah I wanted to scream at the top of my lungs when you finally entered me, but these walls are no where near sound proof." she casually licked his ear slightly "and you know that" Shepard knew she was right, ever since he saw her face his mind raced with the possibilities of what was about to happen. He hated to admit that he was eager for her to continue her assault. He laid there, defeated as Tali continued to talk "You could have called for help at anytime, but you didn't."

Shut up.

"You wanted this Shepard, ever since you first saw me right?"

Rage began to build inside Shepard and he used this rage to amplify the force of which he used to pull at his restraints. Tali, too preoccupied with her delirious ranting, failed to notice that the makeshift bindings were nearing their breaking point. "You went out of your way talking to other women and melding minds to make me jealous right? to force me to do this right?"

"Shut up" suddenly the restraints around Shepard's wrists snapped and his hand's lunged for Tali. Tali let out a small yelp of panic before realizing just where his hands rested. His hand's had grasped tightly on to Tali's hips with force that made Tali wince. She dared to look into his eyes as she spoke "J-John?". Suddenly his hands pulled her down, forcing his member even deeper then it had ever reached before. Tali attempted to scream in pleasure but her mouth was soon covered by Shepard's who pulled her into a deep kiss. Tali moaned into his mouth as she felt herself being stretched out by the ruthless assault of Shepard's member. Suddenly Shepard released the hold he had on her mouth and spoke "Enough talking, you've made your point" he moved on his hands away from her waist and began to fondle her right breast. "Yeah I want this" he pushed his hips up at the same time his hand pulled Tali down "happy now?" Tali was more than happy, she was simply ecstatic "keelah John YES! this is all I've ever wanted!" her arms flew around Shepard in an attempt to pull him even closer "Take me, I'm yours so please take me!"

Shepard looked deep into her eyes as he continued to pound away at her tight opening. He knew this wrong, wrong on so many levels but he just didn't care anymore. He only cared about the quarian woman infront of him in this moment, only cared about making her know that he wasn't just going to be her toy. He moved the hand that was caressing her breast to the back of her head and pulled her in for another kiss, one she eagerly accepted. How could he help himself? Everything about her was intoxicating, the way she eagerly sought out his tongue as their mouths connected, the way her inner walls clung to his member as if trying to prevent him from leaving, the way she he maintained that loving gaze in her eyes through out the whole time, everything about her captivated him. How could he help himself from loving this.

Suddenly He felt his release approaching and with some effort pulled his mouth away from Tali's to warn her. "Tali I'm about to" Suddenly Her eyes shot wide open again but instead of pulling away as she did the last time she quickly pulled herself even closer and locked her legs behind Shepard, eliminating any chance of escape. "Do it! Cum inside me John!" Unable to hold back any longer Shepard gritted his teeth as he shot his load directly into Tali's womb. He suddenly felt Tali's whole body tense up in his arms and more alarmingly he suddenly felt Tali's teeth on his neck as she screamed directly into him. After a few moments her body eased up and Shepard removed himself from her and collapsed on his bed. Tali followed soon after and quickly cuddled up as close as possible to him. Through heavy breaths Tali managed a sentence "Thank you John." Shepard looked at her in confusion"for what?" She nuzzled her head into his chest "for a proper first time" A small chuckle emitted from Shepard "Of course, now if you don't mind I'd like some sleep. for some reason all of my energy seems to have left me" Tali giggled before she began to talk, strangely enough nervously "J-John? if...if it's not to much of a bother could I...could I stay here?" Shepard sighed before answering "You really are something else Tali, asking if it's alright to sleep in my bed after what we just did" Tali didn't ease up at all "does...does that mean?" Shepard chuckled "yes Tali you can stay, now try to get some sleep." Tali was overjoyed as she spoke "Thank You John! You have no idea how much this means to me, to be able to spend the night next to, breathing in youur scent, feeling-" Shepard cut her off before she could go on another rant "Tali. Sleep please" He heard a small huff of dissapointment come from her before she finally obyed his orders and soon he heard snoring coming from her.

Cute snore. With Tali fast asleep beside him the commander focused on all of the questions this night at brought up

What does this mean for us?
What will our life be like from now on?

Shepard felt his eyes begin to become heavy and planned on falling asleep soon but as he glanced down casually another question burned to the forefront of his mind

Why'd she leave my socks on?

Feeling to tired to bother trying to find the answers to all of these questions he shut his eyes and quickly fell asleep with Tali right beside him. He may not have been sure what all of this meant, but he was sure of one thing.

He couldn't help himself from loving it, From loving her.

Ending note- My first smut and not only is it rape but I also forced a JoJo's Bizarre adventure reference in there

Sorry mom.