I know I know It's been over a year. I recently started writing some fanfics for other fandoms ( that I have yet to actually publish haha) But i thought I should finish this one up. NO promises but I will try to upload at least a chapter a month, Like i said before I'm not really into GMW so inspiration is low but I'll try to get it done. Feel free to leave me ideas.

Maya POV

The car ride home was eerily quiet. The boys refused to meet my eyes, and haven't uttered one word to me as we left the party.

"You guys" I said softly

"Don't Maya, not right now" Zay replied harshly, I winced slightly. Realistically they had no right to be this angry, yet I was guilty. The guilt was weighing me down, heavy on my mind more so then my heart. There wasn't a way to undo my action. I looked at the two boys who were sitting in the front seats of the car. Zay has light R&B playing and Farkle drove smoothly, following every rule in place, as only farkle knows how.

"Can we not do this?" I asked after a few more minutes past

"Out of all the people there Maya, Brandon? Fucking Brandon?" Farkle asked, as he turned to look at me quickly before focusing his eyesight back on the road

" I know,"

"Do you know? Because if you did I don't think you would've done it." Farkle said his voice betraying his calm expression.

"It was a slip up, we all have slip ups"

"What happened to not wanting him back?" Zay asked suddenly.

" I don't want him back. Let's not jump to conclusions. I just, I don't know. I missed him and he was apologizing and I was tipsy so I kissed him. It didn't mean anything."

"Maybe not to you." Zay said with a scof, I looked at him with a quizzical look.

"What are you getting at?" my guilt now transforming into frustration.

"What about Lucas?" He asked his brown eyes looking at me very seriously, which for Zay was hard to accomplish.

"Lucas? What does he have to do with anything?" I asked, now truly confused

"You're dating him" Zay said at the same time as Farkle said

"He's in love with you" I looked at them as if they grew another head before I started laughing, A slow 'I did not hear what I think I just heard' laugh.

"You're mad on Lucas's behalf?"

"Yes." Farkle replied curtly as Zay nodded furiously.

"Lucas does not care who I lock lips with" I said, relaxing in the car and leaning back in my seat.

"Of course he cares, Maya have you lost your mind? Are you really that clueless? " Zay asked swiftly

"No, he doesn't. He is not in love with me and we aren't actually dating" I informed them

" Maya, you're an actual moron if you don't believe that Lucas loves you." Farkle said shaking his head slightly as, Zay moved forward to change the song that was playing.

"Look I know you both have that stupid bet, but it's not serious. It's not real."

"But it is. To him it is. And you like him too" Farkle informed me

"Ha. I do not." I said rolling my eyes

"Yes, you do." They said in unison

"Stop that it's creepy"

"You do like him, Hart." Zay said as if it was the most obvious thing in the world.

"Can we drop it?" They sighed loudly

"You need to get over this denial." Zay said rolling his eyes before leaning into his chair and taking off his shoes, so he could sit cross legged in the car.

"Don't tell Lucas about Brandon, it'll upset him for no reason" Farkle told me. Perfect another secret to keep from a best friend. This one's on me I guess. I closed my eyes and thought about Brandon. I thought about how he smelt, how his lips felt against mine. How desperate and urgent his kisses were, how much I missed that feeling. The feeling of want and desire. The feeling of isolation in its sweetest form,wrapped up in the arms of someone you loved. I didn't love Brandon. Not anymore. But I sure as hell missed that feeling. I loved the way he said my name. I loved how soft his voice was when he spoke to me. I loved how he made me feel. I also know that I'm not the same person anymore. I was a mess when we were dating, This small fragile girl unknown of what I was capable of. I'm not her anymore. I don't need to feel the way he made me feel. But I missed it, the kissing, the smell of smoke, the wind from his motorcycle, the way he wrinkled his nose when he laughed. I don't think kissing him was a mistake. It really wasn't. My mind drifted from Brandon to Lucas. I know I love Lucas. Not in the way Zay and Farkle told me I was but in a 'I can't imagine my life without him' kind of way. Lucas and Riley, that's what it was supposed to be. They were supposed to be in love. I thought about Lucas harder, He was definitely handsome, and I was definitely attracted to him. He had dimples when he smiled, and I loved making him smile, I loved seeing him happy. I loved that he was just so fucking nice, he was smart, and he cared about people. He was always daring me to be a better person but always respected my boundaries. He always understood me or did everything in his power to make himself understand. He knew so much about me, things I couldn't even tell Riley. He had the most wonderful eyes, they were beautiful and mesmerising. always betraying how he felt in them, reminding me that i should trust him, His eyes were the window to his soul. HIs wonderful, beautiful soul. I allowed myself the luxury of letting me see him as something more. I thought about him pressed up against me, kissing me like Brandon was before, I thought about his smooth, strong hands run across my skin softly caressing his way around. I opened my eyes with a jerk.

" Riley really likes him." I said softly

"I'm her best friend and Riley really likes him." I said with a sigh

"Maybe it's time for her to move on, they went on one date" Zay said with a shrug

"That doesn't matter. One date, no date. She likes him. She likes him a lot. I'm not saying I like him like that or that I want anything from him, I'm just saying that I'm her best friend and i'm not allowed to cross that line with him. It's different with girls. We don't share guys or go after ex's like boys do with girls. It won't matter how i feel or how he feels because Riley liked him first. Riley went out with him first. Riley comes first. So I need you both to drop it. "

"That's not really fair" Zay said after they both took a few minutes to take in what I said

"Life isn't fair." Farkle said giving me a small sad smile before turning into my street to drop me off.

RILEY POV

Waves of anger kept hitting me. I wasn't paying attention to the movie and I vaguely notice that Lucas wasn't really paying attention to it either. Though I was almost positive if he looked at me with pity one more time I was going to fucking lose it. All I wanted to was go wrap myself up in a blanket and hide in my room forever. I felt a new emotion bubble up to the surface. Embarrassment. Embarrassed at all the small subtle smiles I gave him. Embarrassed for the way I talked about him to Maya and my friends. Embarrassed at the way I defended him. Embarrassed that he made me look like a fucking fool in front of everyone. I needed to leave, I couldn't breath. I couldn't have him sit next to me. I needed ha space as he would put it. I got up

"Riley?"

"Bathroom." I muttered coldy and walked out of the movie to the nearest bathroom I could find. I took a few deep breaths before looking in the mirror and letting the tears fall. I'm not sure why I was crying. But I was. In a movie theatre bathroom because of a boy. I should've known. I really should've known. The multitude of opportunities he had to ask me out again. I looked at myself in the mirror and I felt my self esteem drop. My hair was a mousy brown, I was tall and lanky and I hated that I was doing this to myself. I hate that rejection was making me question how I felt about myself. I took a few deep breaths and leaned down to wash my face and reapply my lip gloss. He lead me on for months, He made me believe he liked me. He let the jokes about us being a couple happen, he let people swoon over us, he let me swoon over us. I don't like negative emotions. I hate hate and jealousy and anger but thats all I felt. The worst part is that I think I know the reason why. That's what hurts the most. That's what I don't know if I can forgive. I really hope that my bad thought wasn't true. I really hope Maya has nothing to do with this.

Lucas POV

I watched Riley cautiously. She kept her hands balled up in fists and though we were sitting next to each other she made an effort to sit as far away from me as she could.I hated this. I did not want to hurt her, I don't want to hurt her, I care about her, a lot. Just not in the way she wants me to. She looked like she was sick she got up and told me she was going to the bathroom and left in a hurry. I waited a few minutes before looking up to the screen. I wasn't sure what we were watching, I was more concerned about Riley then the man crying on the screen I felt this strong urge to apologize. To run after Riley and say "i'm sorry, please don't be upset, please don't hate me." But this wasn't something I needed to apologize for. I was allowed to feel how I wanted to feel. I got up after looking down at my watch, Riley was gone for twenty minutes. I left the theatre to go find her. I stood outside the women's bathroom and knocked softly

"Riley? You in there?" I watched a red head walk past me

"Excuse me ma'am, my friend has been in there for a while now can you make sure she's alright? Her name is Riley." She nodded a yes before walking in, I heard her call out Riley's name a few times.

"No one's in there" she told me as she walked out

"Oh um thank you for checking." I walked around the theatre a couple times looking for Riley, I walked back in to our movie to see the seats we were sitting in to remain empty. That's when I got a text I take my phone out to see it was from Riley.

I couldn't do it. Had to leave. Sry.

I started at the text and read it a few times. This is not how I thought the night would go. This is not how it was supposed to go. I could feel her slipping from me.

Riley, Please. Let's talk about it.

I waited a few minutes before calling her she sent me to voicemail 3 times before she replied to my text

No.

No? I sighed. Maybe she needed space. I walked out the theatre before calling Farkle.

"Hey Man, are you uhm still at the party?" I could hear the road, he was in his car

"Uh no I'm just driving Zay home."

"Oh you guys left real early?"

"Yeah it wasn't that great, No one was really in the mood to party" Zay replied

"How was the movie?" Farkle asked

"Awful, um do you wanna pick me up? I'm still at the theatre, Riley left and the whole night has been a shitshow."

"Uh sure, I can be there in ten."

"Cool I'll see you soon" With that I hung up, and stood outside the theatre looking out to the busy street. I just changed everything.

There y'all go! Chapter 8 is up haha! Let me know what you think. The next chapter we're jumping a week into the future because I don't like how slow this fanfic is going. As always review!

lots of love

- V