"Where were you Love! We missed you at class!" Sirius yelled as he stepped out the room, Kagome stood at the doorway unsure of what she should do after what had just happened. "Don't tell me you were really skipping," James teased, "you bad, bad girl." Her lip twitched up just a bit at the two males. They were quite exhausting to deal with but at least they were fun.
"Without me, " Sirius gasped in fake horror, "I'm wounded love! " James shoved the other playfully, "forget about him, what about me!" He dramatized, "and here I thought we were so close." Kagome allowed herself to smile, briefly forgetting the disturbing scene of someone else's death. "Knock it off you two morons! Who said I liked either one of ya! "
"Ouch! " Sirius howled as he fell on top of the Potter boy in joint laughter, Kagome's eyebrow raised in amusement, 'do these idiots ever stop laughing, ' she thought. 'Oh Merlin me, I don't think I'll survive this year with these guys! '
Just as she walked in front of the doorway, thinking everyone had just already left, a taller figure bumped into her. "In terribly sorry, " he said, picking up a multiple of fallen books from the ground. "No, its all alright it was my fault, I'm the one who should've paid attention to who would be at thedoorway. "
She looked at him closer, squinting her eyes to examine the boy, "aren't you the boy from earlier." They looked so similar, it had to be him. The thought of seeing him again made her heart speed up with anxiety that washed over her with a crushing force. Her breathing began to increase at a rapid pace and she tried her best to keep her breathing rate at a limit.
He finally looked up to her, "yeah I am," he said taking the big round glasses off his face and putting them in a stray pant pocket. "Thank you for that, I would love to repay you." Kagome smiled at him politely despite the burning and banging throb in her head. "No, you really don't have to I was happy to help, " she tried to wave off but he seemed a bit persistent. "Please I insist."
He grabbed both of her hands into his own, "please as to show my gratitude, would you do me the honors of bearing my child," Kagome blushed a bright red, highly confused about the situation "Ehh!"
"Would you leave the poor gal alone Miroku," a voice sighed from the doorway. He walked up to his friend putting one hand on his friends shoulder and the other kept on holding a book open, "well hello again." Kagome nodded her greetings, a smile on her face.
"Well who's this love, " she heard Sirius ask her as he put an arm around her shoulders, James came from beside her. "Wait! Two boys, one with glasses and the other - just other... Sirius, she's cheating on us!"
"What!" Kagome shouted confused by the whole ordeal. What is going on? "After all we've been through for the past - two days! " All Kagome could do was look at James as if he was a mad man. Cheating? So um... okay...
"Relax it's only a joke love, " Sirius explained, Kagome gave a cautious wide eyed nod to this, mildly shocked. James also nodded with her, "right, like you could replace me, i wouldn't let you even if you wanted to. I'm the only pain in your arse!" He commented, then looked at Sirius, "oh and that guy too." Sirius responded by putting his arm a tighter way to himself. "Maybe she could replace you," he started, "but I'm prefect!" He shouted. Kagome groaned.
These boys are just too much for her.
"I see you have your hands full and I'm afraid we do have to get to our next class," Remus interrupted, pulling a reluctant Miroku with him, "I hope to see you around." He seemed in a little of a rush, like staying in one place was just slightly irritating for him, "he's on his mood swing, " whispered Miroku to the trio. It was so soft that Kagome could barely hear it but when she looked at Remus she swears it looked as if he heard his raven friend comment.
Miroku let himself be dragged off. Not even a millisecond after the duo began to move did a thought come to Kagome that she simply had to ask. "Wait! Miroku! This is a Slytherin and Griffindor class how did no one notice you there?" She wanted to know. Miroku grinned dreamily, "now isn't that a wonderful tale, for me at least." Kagome used only her expression to tell him to explain, "all I had to do was climb under the robe of some lovely maiden."
Kagome blushed as Miroku now moved merrily along, a rise in his spirit from the memory of his experience. "Well that's an interesting fellow," James commented at their departure the remaining group now taking their own leave, "sort of reminds me of Sirius."
Sirius eyes went wide at the accusation, "I'm not that perverted!" The shaggy haired noble began to defend himself. "Oh don't act like you weren't lookin up her gown last night," James ratted out. Sirius blushed at being called out of his crime as he suttered to find a good comeback.
Kagome blushed also, unsure if where her blush was angry or embarrassed. The embarrassment Sirius felt was then soon replaced with his bold, cocky attitude. "Yeah I saw it, I'm pretty darn happy about it too!"
She nearly growled as Sirius had just admitted to peeping at her undergarments. Her fingers tingles with the familiar feel of magic igniting through her body. Her lips moved to a snarl ready to move an on slaughter of spells to the unsuspecting boy when a voice called out to her. "Where were you?" The out of breath Molly gasped out, reaching for Kagome. "I was looking all over for you, " the slightly heavy girl huffed. "Do you know how worried you made me!"
Kagome brows scrunched together in confusion, her lips tightening to a light frown. "Worried?" She drifted a stray hair to the back of her ear, "why would you be worried about me?" Molly seemed to glow red, the color moving as if to say 'hey dummy isn't it obvious! ' Kagome wanted to laugh at realizing Sango would do the very same thing.
"Why would I be worried!" She screeched, "why would I be worried! The real question is why wouldn't I be worried! First you sneak off in the middle of the night, then I find you and your asleep with a boy, a Black no less! " She ignored Sirius offended gasp. Luckily, James knew to keep quiet, for once.
"Then I see you doing that-" she hissed, she didn't know why Molly was trying to hide it. She can do a bit of wandless magic, so what? It doesn't matter. What does matter though was her keeping Molly calm as so she won't scream her ears off! "Molly-" she said, trying to keep the red head from her ranting, she failed. "Molly!"
"What!" The ginger screamed back, her face red as a tomato. Kagome took a deep breath her head moving a slight up and down while doing so, "calm down." She contemplated on putting a hand on the other girls shoulder but then decided that the action will deprive her of her own comfort zone, "people are staring." The red cautiously looked around and when she saw the people staring, "now what do you think your looking at, get to class!"
She looked at Kagome with a new sense of calm. "I'm just worried about you, about this." The tone of her voice was also calm, it was unwavering and if Molly had said different Kagome would categorize it as something dangerous too.
"What the bloody hell are you two talking about!" Of course you could count the Potter or the Black to break the mood. Still... She didn't want to hear this, any of this. "Nothing." She decided to brush off and then she brushed them off too, running as fast as she can. Who cares if they worry anyways. She doesn't. She never asked them to worry. In fact she barely knew the lot of them. So why would she care if they worry about her for, that's the thing she wouldn't, but maybe she did feel something. Maybe it was because no one cared, no one was worried. Not in a long time.
She ran and ran and ran until it felt like that was the only thing she was ever able to do. She loved running. It made her feel free whenever she felt the wind run through her usual greasy, under washed hair or like she was a completely new person with no troubles weighing her down. Then she would stop, in need to catch some air and the clothes weighing down her body would be a reminder that she was chained to the Earth.
Like she was stuck in glue and couldn't peel off. Like she was trapped. Like a bird in a cage.
And she was alone. Not only in this deserted hallway but inside. Like she did something so horrible, so unforgivable, that she was exiled to be alone forever.
There right next to her. It was a restroom. She didn't want anyone to see her like this.
It was dark were all the lights? It's dusty in here too, like no ones been in here for a long time, but that couldn't be it. Hogwarts has been here for many years, what reason would there be as to not enter a simple room.
She walked cautiously to the sink. Tapping a finger onto one of the abandoned sinks, putting the rest on hesitantly and having the other hand joining with its half. The chills of abandonment seeping through her skin almost made her eyes roll back in her head.
She was used to the cold but she never liked it. She was always only warm enough to be considered normal body temperature but she could never get any warmer than that. Like her body was much like an insulator. Though she did cold, her body could do cold. She gets cold quick and almost all the time but shes learned to get used to it.
A hand that trembled very slightly moved to clean the windows face. No one has been here for so long that even the windows coated itself in loneliness. Who's that? That person in the mirror. She's never had the chance to look in the mirror much but now that she's really paying attention she realizes that this isn't her. It can't be.
In her reflection- no, the image of the person in the mirror, there was a girl. Pale skin from its lack of sunlight, a long face, tired dull grey eyes. They looked tired, so very tired. Like her mother. How dreadful.
It was automatic.
The twitch in her hand. Her fingers fisted in the mirror surface, scrunched tightly at her palm. The sudden urge to just break the imposter staring back at her. Her fist moved back. They were going to make a loud crash. A bang. Imprint itself in the shadow of another's loneliness. She was moving it now. Fast enough to where she'll see the familiar red liquid that will flow down her hand, wash over and paint it with its color.
What was wrong with her? She was fine just yesterday, having fun throwing pillows and now look at her. Was it what she saw in the mirror? Was what she saw just having this much effect on her? No, it can't be. She's stronger than this, she has to be.
Things haven't been going right though. They've been getting better but everything is still all wrong. She didn't know how to explain it but everything was all wrong from her shambles of a house to James careless grin. Things were not supposed to turn out this way. She wasn't supposed to be here. She's always known this. It was a feeling that would get stronger at a very specific point of the year.
There was one time. One moment where everything felt like everything was the way it was supposed to be. She remembered it clearly. She was with Sango, they were on a picnic.
"Do you ever wonder if everyone on this world had met one another before?"
It was a strange question. One that had made Kagome look at Sango with her eyebrows crinkled and her eyes narrowed in a soundless question. Sango briefly faced Kagome and took notice of the face she was receiving. They hadn't known each other long, just a month at most but they had just became those kind of friends that once you meet you just instantly become close.
"You know like reincarnation and rebirth and stuff like that." Kagome looked up at the sky. It was starting to get dark. "No," she answered, "I guess I just never really cared." She laid herself flat across the blanket next to Sango. What was she supposed to say to a question like that?
"Well I have," Sango responded, a small smirk was shown as she had turned her head. "It explains all those weird deja vu's I'm always having with you and all those weird dreams I'm always having."
Kagome frowned thinking of her own dreams. "Wierd, how?" These dreams couldn't be as bad as her nightmares, but if they are then she'll try to help her through them, even if she doesn't know how. Wait, why does she care? Why would she care if a girl she barely knew had grueling nightmares. She didn't, but she did. Merlin knows why but she cared about this girl and hated the thought of her mind being plagued by fears.
"Well," Sango answers, her lips are kind of puckered in thought as she tries to find a way to word herself without sounding completely crazy, "sometimes I dream that I'm kind of like a superhero." And this is the part where Kagome cracks up on.
The word 'superhero' makes her nearly double over in laughter that she feels like she's about to die. "It's not funny!" Sango complains, "I'm being serious! " Her voice sounds a bit high pitch reminding Kagome of what she would think a talking squirrel would sound like and that only made her laugh harder.
"Seriously, " Sango complained her eyes glaring and her chest moving just a little faster now, she wasn't amused. "In my dream in from like this whole big family of like really old superheroes that all wore the same costume and lived in like this kind of gated community." Her hands moved rapidly as she explained. Kagome was quiet now but a smirk was still evident on her face at the ridiculousness of it all. Heroes don't exist and they don't all wear the same costume either. Example: Batman and Superman. Though most had this thing for spandex.
"We fought these monsters," Sango continued "they were real ugly, if I could draw I'd show you." Sango grimaced as she thought of the creatures she had seen in her dream and then she frowned as she remembered another that had very much frightened her. "I also remember being with my family at this really big place and then there was my little brother and so much blood and pain. It almost felt real, " she was barely above a whisper now and Kagome had to frown, 'reincarnation, ' she thought, 'would you really have wanted to live in a life like that?'
Despite never being so close to anyone except her brother, Kagome took the chance to give her newly found friend a sort of sideways hug. The intimicy with someone other than her twin was new but it was okay, she was okay.
Sango just sort of laughed.
I guess she found it all too amusing that they were hugging after she had just confessed thoughts that may get her locked into an asylum to a girl she barely knew. "Well speaking of birthdays-" she spoke but Kagome interrupted her, " but we weren't even talking about birthdays." "Well we are now."
Kagome found it baffling how someone could do a whole 360 in just a few seconds and shook her head. "When's your birthday?" Came Sango curiously. To be completely honest, though Kagome would never admit it; Kagome was slightly embarrassed by the question. No one cared enough to ask before."Uh..." she cleared her voiced with a few deep coughs, "it's today actually."
"What!" The other girl gasped or did she squeal? Anyways her body lunged forward so fast into a proper sitting position that she was dizzy. "Why didn't you tell me!" She exclaimed. Apparently this was some big shit.
"I didn't know I had to," Kagome looked away. If you look into her eyes you'll turn to stone or is that Medusa? "Of course you had to you... you... you arse!" Her face was bright red and she looked as if she was about to pull all her hair out, "I could've bought a present to the very least!" Kagome merely rolled her eyes, "you don't have to." She really didn't, like seriously, none of her so called family ever did.
"Yes, I do!" She insisted for a second she looked as if she were going to panic but then in an instant her face lit up like the Christmas light that Kagome had once seen around Lily Evans home. Her fingers went behind her neck and Kagome wondered what she was doing foe a second but then when she saw Sango hands move forward she was able to see the chain of the necklace hiding under her blouse. "Here," Sango held it out, "my dad bought it at some antique shop. It's pretty but not really my style, you can have it."
Kagome started sitting up, much reluctantly, she grabbed a hold of the necklace, examining it. She was right, it was pretty. Silver, with two majestic dogs swirled in a circle that king of looked like a Yin and Yang. "That's yours now alright," Sango smiled, "just promise me you'll have it everyday."
And she did have it everyday. She didn't wear it everyday, in fact she had to make sure that her father would never find out about it because he destroys everything.
That was a moment that felt right though, like it was meant to happen that way, Kagome would never forget.
"You shouldn't have done that." A voice said behind her.
She opened her eyes, when had she closed then? She realized now that her fist was lodged within the now cracked and shattered mirror. How could she have forgotten? She pulled her hand out. Of course it was bleeding, and rather badly she must say. There were glass pieces forced in her skin, her flesh was red and maybe she had broken her hand. She almost wanted to laugh.
What's wrong with her?
She turned around, assuming the source of that voice had come from behind her. Her eyes widen and a small gasp left her, shocked at the sight. Her mind was now numb, numb like the bloody and bruised hand at her side.
This was it! This was her face!