Hey! Sorry I haven't updated in a while, my phone broke for a while, so I was trying to fix that, I've just started college so I was settling in there, plus I've been living on my own for three weeks and there's just so much to do!
I feel terrible though, I'm house sitting for someone while they're on holiday and the cat died... I went to check on it and it was just laid there, oh my god I cried my eyes out. I really don't know how to break it to the owners. It was an old cat though, they said it was about 20.
Any who, I was going to write about dresses in this chapter, but I really don't have that long to write. I have work to do. *cry cry* so I'm just going to do the story line, sorry guys!
BTW. Sorry, but this is going to be a short and rushed chapter, I have no time!
The fresh, crisp air of the night blew through my hair as I looked over the school. I needed to be away from all the music, the comments, the people. Don't get me wrong I loved the atmosphere, but I'm just not used to it. People getting along with each other so well, people getting along with me..
It will all change tomorrow. The teasing, the laughing, watching the person I love being happy with someone else. Everything. Maybe I shouldn't have come tonight, I don't want to get used to something that's never going to change.
I sigh as I watch the night slowly drift away, the faint light of the moon shining down on me, emphasizing my assets. God do my boobs look huge.
Uhm.. Okay? Why did I just think that. I admit they're bigger than average (Not that anyone knows that, I mean, I hide them away all the time) but seriously, it's not like I'm proud of them. Jeez. Get your thoughts together Lucy!
"Ugh! He said that he'd pick me up, but what does he do? Make his own way here! He is so unreliable, when I see him I'm going to give him a piece of my mind. UGHH, I had to walk here!"
Lissana? Yep, that's definitely her. Only she can moan like that. I better go before I attract attention to myself.
I leave through the double doors that lead into the dance hall from the court yard and make my way to a corner of the room. I scan the area for Levy and spot her on the dance floor with someone. I smile to myself as I see her smile from across the room. She's finally happy, when I'm not in the picture...
She deserves better than me. I'm just someone who's dragging her down.. *sigh* I take my songbook from my bag and start thinking of new ideas for songs to try and take my mind off things, I have two finished already.
I don't know how much time passed by, but the next thing I know a bright light blinded me, unable to think clearly I dropped my song book and covered my eyes, I feel people start to grab me, pull me towards a location that I wasn't sure of.
A few seconds passed, the burning deceased from my eyes, my vision returned, and I was in front of everyone at the dance. I panicked, what the hell should I do in this sort of situation? What if they found out it was me? I'm dead, I shouldn't have come to the dance in the first place, no one wanted me here.
"So, what are you going to sing for karaoke"
What.
WHAT.
Karaoke? This is even worse! The only person I've sang in front of is Levy and even that was when I didn't realize I was doing it.
"I'm not, I'm sorry but I can't."
"Sorry, that's not an option. The forfeit is to show your face and do something really embarrassing."
Shit. What am I going to do? Both options are bad! I see Levy looking at me and I can tell she's worried. I take a deep breath and chose which option is worse. Definitely option 2.
"Okay I'll do it"
"Good! Glad to hear it. It has to be up beat, okay?"
"O-okay.."
"Do you have any requests?"
"Actually it's a song I wrote myself.. I'll go put the CD in.."
"I pop the CD in to the player and try to lose myself to the music. And it works, I lose sight of the people, I only see myself, alone on the stage. Like always. It's time to shine.
Could you check my pulse for me
To see if I'm alive
Cause every time that I am near you
Is the only time I feel alright
If there were any way
I could think to turn back time
I'd stay here with you
Sometimes I sit and wonder
Sometimes I feel like letting go
All I know is no one should have to be alone
I don't want to be alone
I don't want to die alone
I could fall apart here and now
I don't want to die alone
I want to be with you, you, you
I only want to be with you, you, you
Tell me what's the point of life
Is it material?
Had everything I could ever want and probably more
When I lay in bed at night
All I do is think of you
So when all this is gone what do I have to come home to?
This life goes by so fast
Pretty soon I'll grow old
What would I have but some stories now that I have told
No one to share them with
And when it's all done
What am I left with?
Tell me what's left
I don't want to be alone
I don't want to die alone
I could fall apart here and now
I don't want to die alone
I've done it, everyone was cheering anday growing their arms around.
If only they knew who I was... No one would be cheering then.
Sorry it was such a shit chapter guys, I don't like songfics, but I got asked to do it. Don't worry, there's only going to be 2 songs including this one.
Ooh natsu's going to ask Lucy to dance in the next chapter! Look forward to it :3
it was brought to my attention that there was no reason for Lucy to be bullied and that she should of done something for everyone to dislike her. I will be explaining it in my next chapter after she's danced with Natsu.
Bye bye!