Hey guys! Sorry I haven't updated in a while, I've been super busy at work. This chapter's going to be in Lucy's POV and then it's going to alternate, from Natsu to Lucy, Natsu then Lucy and so forth.
At least while I've been busy I've been able to think through what I can do with this chapter, and I've thought ALOT.
So here you go!
I'm so embarrassed. They've probably looked through all of my stuff my now, read through my personal life, read about my father, saw the song I wrote for my mama... Now would be the perfect time to end it all, I mean what do I possibly have to live for? My abusive dad? Having no friends? Levy would be fine without me right? If I wasn't around she'd be loved by everyone.
*Sigh*
I look above me and see the rooftop. I stare in awe at how high the building actually was, if I were to jump from there I'd be killed on impact I think. If not I'd have serious internal bleeding, as well as external.
I took a step towards the building, not really knowing what I was doing. Climbed the steps leading up towards the roof, opened the door, and walked towards the edge. What was I doing? It was like I couldn't control myself. I could feel the wind whipping through my hair, gently brushing my skin as it edged me forward. I could see the whole of Magnolia from here; it was beautiful, the busy streets, the waves in the sea slowly crashing against each other, it was so full of life that I've only just realised was there. Is my life really so dull that I fail to notice the most important things that are blessed upon us?
"WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING!?"
I felt a pair of stong arms pull me backwards. We managed to trip, falling onto the concrete below, at least I thought I did. I slowly opened my eyes to see nothing but darkness looking back at me, the stranger had his arms wrapped around my waist, my hands were pressed on to his chest, and my face was buried in his neck. It was actually kind of nice, but I knew it wouldn't last long.
He pushed me off of him then knelt over me, he had worried eyes, or were they scared? I'm not sure, but what I do know is that I was terrified of him.
It was Natsu.
No no no no, what the hell is he doing here? Don't tell me it was him who was texting me? I can't believe he saw me trying to kill myself! This can't be happening, calm down Lucy calm down.
"What the hell do you think you're doing huh?! Why would you do something so stupid!" Natsu shouted.
From then on, something inside of me snapped. I had lost control, all my problems had been building up until finally I burst. I finally found the confidence to say something back. Even if it's just for now.
"What the hell do you know, if you were in my my position you'd do the same right? What do I possibly have to live for when no one gives a damn about me, I have no friends, my mother's dead, my father doesn't care. I've been alone my whole life! You've got it easy Dragneel, everybody likes you, you're the 'cool guy' you're good at everything, heck you could get anyone you want. So don't sit there and tell me I'm stupid when you don't know how the fuck it feels! I yell, slightly panting after.
All he could do was stare at my with wide eyes, he looked shocked. Not that I can blame him.I can't belive I just did that, yelling at the guy I like, the guy who hates me...
What happened next was all a blur. I didn't know if I was draming or not, I felt Natsu palce his arms around me, pulling me close and he put his head on my shoulder. He seemed to be shaking.
I felt something wet drip on to my neck. Drip drip drop. Was it raining? No.
He was crying.
I felt a rush of emotions flow through my entire body, sadness, sympathy, confusion.. I raise my arms and slowly copy his actions, putting them on his back not knowing if it was a good idea, not wanting him to realise what he was doing and stop. I loved it. I loved the was our bodies fit together perfectly, I loved the way he held me close to him like it was the only chance he had. I loved him.
I know I shouldn't, I know he treats me badly, but I've seen him. I've seen what he's truly like. He may not remember, but I sure do.
Flashback:
"Mama, why. Why did you leave me" I sobbed. I clutched my head in my hands as the rain washed the old tears away, leaving room for fresh tears to surface. I was only six years old, I shouldn't have to deal with this kind of pain.
"Excuse me, why are you crying?"
I look up to see a boy who looks no older than me. If I wasn't so sad I would have laughed at his pink spiky hair, I mean, that's a girly colour! He was wearing a red jacked with a beige coloured strip of material tied around his waist. Around his neck was a scaly looking scarf that covered his chin, barely hiding the cheesy grin he had on his face.
"My mama left me all alone and my daddy's saying it's my fault" I said as I sniffed and rubbed my eyes. His smile faded and a frown replaced it. The only thing he did was wrap his arms around me and pulled me close to him. It was warm and kind, kinda like how mama used to cuddle me before she died. I wished it wouldn't end, it was the only thing that had relaxed me since the accident.
We were sat there in the same position for what felt like eternity, but all good things must come to an end. He pulled away from me, I winced at the loss of touch however his hands remained on my shoulders.
"Don't worry I'm sure none of it was your fault, my mama died a couple of years ago too, and sometimes all you need is a good hug. I'm sure your mama is looking down on you right now and is sad because you're sad. So be happy for her alright? That's what got me through it all! He said as his smile appeared again.
I don't know what happened, but something inside of me clicked in to place. He was right, all my mama ever wanted was to see me happy, so I can't dissapoint her now. I looked up to Natsu as flashed him a genuine smile, making hs smile grow wider if it was even possible.
"By the way, my name's Natsu. Natsu Dragneel!"
"Lucy, Lucy Heartfillia"
Flashback end:
I know he's not a bad guy at heart, rather he's got lost along the way.
We stay in the same embrase that we shared as kids un til the sun for about 20 minutes. Until finally he pulls away. He rests his hands on my shoulders as he looked me in the eye. I said six words.
"Excuse me, why are you crying?"
So, that's it for now folks! How did you like it? I hope it was satisfactory. I'm so sorry, I've just had loads of distractions recently! I hope to update at least every two weeks, If I can, it seems like my attention span had gotten worse. It took me about four days to write this, pathetic I know T.T
Well, until next time!