Twisted inside 17
It wasn't long before Ahsoka woke up again or she though that perhaps not much time has passed. She couldn't really be sure however due to there being no crono in her cell. She woke up with a loud gasp and her eyes wide with fear, her hands shot up toward her body where she expected to find her skin charred and badly burnt over her but to her relief she was ok. She sat back and slid against the nearest wall breathing quickly as her mind struggled to processes what had happened earlier. She remembered fire, fire everywhere, she remembered pain so much pain all over her body. She remembered not being able to breath and the air smelling like ash and burnt flesh. Her throat is was so dry, dry like the sand dunes on Tattooine.
Standing up slowly she went straight to the sink turning it on and cupped her hands letting the water fill them. She drank, drank and drank trying to quench her extreme thirst, trying to get the taste the foul taste of ash out of her mouth. After drinking until she chocked up water she sunk back to the floor trembling wrapping her arms around her "ohhh….anakin" she said with a shaky and weak voice.
She reached up and covered her montrals with her hands; she could hear him screaming in pain. If what she felt, the pain she felt ravage her body was going to be inflected on Anakin….she just couldn't bare the thought of that. Her master was a strong man, the strongest she had ever seen in her life but that…that was something that would break even the strongest of people.
She looked up after a moment for her darker half but found that she was alone in her cell. At least the darker half had come through with her promise though as painful as the experience was for her she now knew that Anakin was in great danger. Now she just had to warn him but she couldn't do that from in this cell. Maybe maybe someone could come and visit her it didn't matter who all she needed was for them to tell Anakin that he was in danger.
As she sat there she thought back to what the darker half told her, about the light and the darkside emboldening people allowing them to use the force. Surely that couldn't be true she thought if that was true then what would happen to the lightside since the Daughter died on Mortis? Would that mean the Jedi would no longer be able to use the lightside of the force if so then this was defiantly not good at all. Seeing how she was now the embodiment of the darkside did that mean that the Sith would grow stronger? Did that mean that the Separatists would win the war because there was no embodiment of the light to oppose the dark?
She thought it strange, her the embodiment of the darkness, of chaos and destruction so she wondered why she didn't feel very evil. Not that she wanted to of course, she didn't want to be evil or corrupted by the darkside but it seemed she was stuck with it. Her darker half or what she guesses was seemed rather calm and gentle toward her. Ahsoka almost rolled her eyes at the thought of the darkside being so well kind was the only word she could think of, in its own sick kinda way.
She was glad her chest wasn't hurting like it normally did when she tried to fight the darkness. It seemed that her darker half was content with the little bit of space Ahsoka had opened up to her, for now of course. She was sure later the darker half would return wanting more room, more freedom in her body. She stood up and slowly began to walk around the room thinking, she really didn't have anything else to do in here besides think. She wondered how the Clone Wars were going and what had happened since she had missed so much of it, how many of her friends had either died or gotten hurt. She wondered how Anakin had dealt with her being gone for so long, probably not to well she assumed. She wondered where he was at now, was he on a mission or was he on Coruasant.
She had missed so much in those two years, two years she spent in a comma because of whatever had happened on Mortis. She still couldn't remember anything past when the Son had bitten her. It was all just blank in her mind, she couldn't remember what had happened to her that caused her to have these prosthetic mechanical hands and spine. Whatever it had been it must have been bad but then that also made her wonder why she had appeared where she did and not back on the ship with Anakin and Obi-wan. She racked her brain for answers to questions that filled her mind but the memories of what happened just wouldn't surface. Maybe it was because the dark half had been in control during all of that because anytime that happened she could never remember what had happened afterwards. She looked up at one of the walls that were smeared in her blood that had the ancient name of the darkside written on it which made her wonder if the dark half would tell her what had happened during those two years. Of course she would have to wait until she decided to visit her again then again her visit before hadn't been very pleasant.
The question in her mind now was how long would she have to wait before she visited her again. Then an idea came to her mind, the force she could feel it faintly even within this room. Maybe she could some how summon her darker half, like she summoned the lightside of the force to aid her in battle maybe it would work the same. The only difference though is that she would have to summon the darkside to her, shivering slightly at the thought of willingly calling upon the darkside she closed her eyes and took a deep breath. 'I need answers and if she has them then I have to find out' she told herself. Slowly she called out to the darkside summoning it to her and to her surprise she found that it rushed to meet her call. Carefully she touched the darkside however faintly she could feel it and it seemed to wrap around her with ease as if she had done this a thousand times before. "Bogan" she said softly using its ancient name in hope of summoning her darker half and after a moment she heard slow clapping behind her.
Ahsoka spun around quickly and watched as her dark half appeared in front of her applauding her. "Well done my dear though I must say I am surprised you called upon me" the dark half said with a pleased smile on her face. Ahsoka looked at the darker half in surprise, she didn't think that would actually work but clearly it had. "Don't act so surprised dear did you think I would not come when you called" the darker half said with a small laugh. "Actually I didn't think that would work at all" Ahsoka replied. "I wouldn't miss you willingly call upon me for the world my dear" the darker half replied. Ahsoka looked away ashamed that she had done it, if Plo Koon or Anakin had seen her do that they would certainly be very disappointed in her.
"There is no reason to be ashamed my dear" the darker half soothed walking up to Ahsoka and placed a hand on her shoulder. Ahsoka looked up into the yellow irises of the darker half her face still one of immense shame "I need answers" she said. The darker half nodded "I assumed you would and I am more than happy to share with you what I know" the darker half replied wrapping her arm around Ahsoka's shoulder and leading her back over to the bed. "Sit and ask" the darker half said to which Ahsoka did sit down on the bed and took a moment to formulate the questions in her head. "What happened on Mortis…how did I get these?" Ahsoka asked lifting up her two mechanical hands.
The darker half almost looked sad, if that was even possible which Ahsoka thought was highly unlikely. "After the Daughter was killed and the lightside was drove from her body it weakened Morits's foundation. Then the Father died weakening it further and when the Son was stabbed with the dagger I was drive from him I went to you. Mortis was a place the Father built to hold both the lightside and I captive and our power kept it together. With two gone Mortis could not sustain itself and began to crumple, you fell through the crack in the surface and as you fell I bound myself to you. I was able to protect your mortal body from most of the fall such as your internal organs. Your brain and ribs where the main places I reinforced but since I was not fully accepted by you I was unable to protect you entirely. You hit the ground and your spine broke, arms and legs as well but I kept you alive. I kept your body together then put you in a deep sleep to allow your body to heal" the darker half explained.
Ahsoka turned her head to one side in confusion "You healed me?" she asked. The darker half shook her head "No but I preserve you kept you alive until that doctor could get you stable then I simply waited" the darker half replied. Ahsoka nodded skeptical of what she was saying but she had no proof that she was lying to her so she would just have to take her word for it. "When I was trying to get back to Coruasant why didn't you talk to me the way you are now why were you just a voice in my head and sounded like the Son?" Ahsoka asked. "You and I are bound to one another but then our connection was not strong enough for me to appear to you like this. The only reason I can do so now is because our bond has strengthened. As for your second question I can take many forms and sound like anybody I choose though I find it easier to mimic the person I am bound with" the darker half explained.
Again Ahsoka nodded but found it unnerving that the bond she shared with her darker half had grown strong without her knowing. Then she decided to ask the question that was the most pressing matter "What you showed me earlier…what I felt…is that really what is going to happen to Anakin?" she asked slowly. "If things continue the way they are then unfortunately my dear yes. Anakin Skywalker will suffer severely but then again that doesn't have to happen either" the darker half replied. Ahsoka looked up at her "But what you showed me…it's the future how can it be avoided?" Ahsoka asked. Sitting down beside Ahsoka and looking at her in the face "There are many futures my dear, many possibilities and many outcomes. One simple act can change the course of the future for the better or worse. I can see them all and the one the galaxy is headed down now is tragic indeed" she answered. "Together you and I can change that" The darker half continued with a growing smile on her face "We can save Skyguy if you want, keep this tragedy from happening" she said using Anakin's nickname. Ahsoka looked down at the floor for several minutes "…How?" she asked to which the darker half's smile spread wider.