Twisted inside chapter 20
When the healer had left leaving Ahsoka alone the togurtan padawan turned around and glared at Bogan. Her sulfuric yellow eyes bore into the ghostly personified darkside version of herself. "Why did you do that!?" Ahsoka demanded mechanical hands clinching in anger. Bogan smiled innocently "What ever do you mean dear?" she said feigning innocence. "Don't lie to me, you took over I know you did" Ahsoka said standing up and walking over to Bogan while pointing a finger at her.
"How do you know it was me dear? Perhaps it was in actuality you reacting in anger" Bogan suggested. Shaking her head and glaring at Bogan "No, I wouldn't say that I wouldn't threaten innocent people epically a Jedi" Ahsoka snapped. Bogan chuckled lightly as she crossed her ghostly arms over her chest. "Tell me dear, did your vision blur like it did when I took over before? Did you feel the indescribable burning sensation within your chest? And do you remember what you said, what you did?" Bogan asked. Before Ahsoka could respond Bogan spoke again "If I did take control then wouldn't your vision have blurred, wouldn't you have felt a burning in your chest? You wouldn't remember what I had said if I had taken over so tell me dear, do you really think it was me?" she asked.
Ahsoka was silent for several moments thinking of what happened moments before she had said that to the healer. Her eyes widened when she realized that she had felt no pain, had no blurry vision and she could remember exactly what she had said. When her gaze finally met Bogan's again the darker half had a wide smile plastered on her face. "No…I wouldn't…i-i…didn't mean to" Ahsoka said softly.
Bogan lightly caressed Ahsoka's cheek with her hand "But you did my dear, you were angry that the Jedi wouldn't let you contact your master. Do you really think that when the Jedi find out there is nothing they can do for you that they will simply let you go?" Bogan asked in a gentle voice. "The light, it runs from you because you are darkness personified into being. They won't let you go, they may even kill you when they find out, surely you have come to that conclusion my dear" Bogan said softly as she watched Ahsoka's face twist in pain and worry. Then as if to add icing on the cake she continued "your life as a Jedi is over."
A wave of emotional pain crashed over Ahsoka when what Bogan had said finally settled in. The Jedi Order…had been her home ever since she was a youngling, she couldn't remember anything of her home world, her birth parents or even if she had had any siblings. The Jedi Order was…had been her life up to this point, her friends, her family, was the Jedi Order. The weight of what Bogan said hit her hard and her chest began to burn as her emotions overwhelmed her.
Plo Koon, the Jedi that had found her and was like a father figure, Obi-wan like an uncle, Anakin like a big brother and Barriss like a sister. All of them, they were her family and she loved them like her family. Now since this…curse…since Bogan decided to make her its vessel was threatening to rip that from her, threatening to take the only family she ever knew from her. Pain turned in to anger and with the anger came a sense of betrayal. Whirling around she leapt at Bogan arms stretched out so she could strangle the life from the ghostly figure "You did this to me!" she snarled.
She simply jumped right through the ghostly figure but she was back on her feet and spun around, lips pulled back in a predatory fashion baring her carnivorous teeth. Her eyes sulfuric yellow, the darkside swirling around the young togurta female as she glared eyes flaring with hatred. Bogan turned around to face the irate Togurta "partly dear, I am only partly to blame" she replied. Though she was looking at her vessel with a calm gaze internally she was smiling. She rather enjoyed this side of Ahsoka rather than the pitiful and afraid side she had been with since they arrived at the temple.
She eyed Ahsoka for a moment and watched as her veins became more noticeable and a small smile that quickly faded as she felt her pulling more and more on the darkside. "So often I am blamed for everything that seems to go wrong in the galaxy. Like when a black hole devours a planet or a sun goes supernova and wipes out a heavily populated moon. I enjoy chaos and destruction yes but it is not just for chaos sake. You think I stand in your way now of your freedom when in fact, I am the only thing that can truly set you free" Bogan explained.
"Do you know why the dark has always toppled the light? Do you know why the power of the darkside is so much more powerful than that of the light? I will tell you. For millennia this so called Jedi Order who proclaim themselves servants of the light have deluded and poisoned the light with their doctrine and kept from using it in its purest form and that is why the Son was able to defeat not only the Daughter but also the Father. The reason the Sith, though I don't care for them either, have grown stronger is because they use my power to the fullest, they are not afraid of my purest form. The reason the Jedi have lost and will always loose is because of their rules, their…limitations they put on themselves. The same rules and ideas they have ingrained in you from your childhood. And now you blame me for locking you in here, you blame me for threatening to take the ones you care about from you because for so long you were told that the darkness was wrong."
Pointing out toward the turbolift "They are the ones keeping you here, they are the ones that limit you, not I. I offer you a way out, I offer you a chance to save your master, I offer you true freedom. You no longer have to be bound by a sense of right and wrong, no longer do you have to answer to the call of the Jedi because you are more powerful than they. They are standing in you way, they are keeping you locked away from you master and will continue to do so until they realize that you are too dangerous to be kept alive" pausing she began walking toward Ahsoka.
"Your master, you friend Anakin Skywalker his fate is drawling near and the pain and suffering that will be inflicted on him will come to pass unless you break free from these chains to stop it" Bogan said mere inched from Ahsoka's face. "Unless of course you want him to suffer, you want him to burn, scared and broken that is" she added. "I want him safe!" Ahsoka yelled.
Bogan smiled "then what's stopping you?" she mocked tilting her head slightly in question. A violent storm of darkside energy was building inside of the young padawan as her anger doubled, tripled until it exploded "The JEDI!" she screamed. A massive wave of pure darkside power exploded inside of the cell causing its walls to visibly bend outward and as they rocked back the walls shatter sending deadly shards every which way but those that came near the young padawan turned to dust and fell to the floor.
Breathing heavily Ahsoka glared at Bogan who was now sporting a smirk on her face. Gesturing around her Ahsoka looked around and at her cell that had been there moments ago now gone and shards of glass scattered all around. Her mouth fell open in shock but before she could utter a word the full power of the darkside bore down on her and began to fill the young padawan. Gasping at the feeling she put her hand out as if to steady herself on the wall but fell to her knees.
It wasn't pain she was feeling, it was power, so much power. Suddenly as if her eyes had been open Ahsoka saw the true horror that would befall her master. She watched the duel between her master and Mace Windu, witnessed the destruction the Jedi temple and the fight her master had where Obi-wan maimed him. She saw the bombing of the Jedi temple, her banishment from the Jedi Order, blamed for the bombing and standing trail. She saw the betrayal of her friend Barriss and her leaving the temple. She saw the rise of the Empire and her duel with her master. Lastly she uncovered the true identity of the Sith Lord Darth Sidious.
"Your master as you have probably figured out has been married to Senator Aimdala for some time and she is with twins" Bogan said slowly approaching Ahsoka "however now is not the time to discuss such things. If you wish to save your master then we must flee this place. Until you accept me entirely your body is still susceptible to a lightsaber" she said. Ahsoka struggled to stand up but managed to pull herself to her feet and follow Bogan to the turbolift. Waving her hand and using the force she override the lifts security lock and the door slid up and stepped inside, the door sealed shut behind her and began its climb to the Jedi temple above.
(Just to let you all know, I got a new job recently so my updates may be a little scares but I will try to update them when time permits)