A/N: As promised. Second chapter here. I tried to upload it earlier but work has been awful today. Hopefully you'll like it too!
A/N2: I apologize, I was in a hurry last night and I re-uploaded the first chapter. Here's the good one!
"I want to be alone right now"
I had learned to speak against what I really wanted, to hide it well, it was never easy but those words I had to let them out with such a big effort that they came out harsh and I felt her jump a little and take her hand from me. I could feel a small amount of warmth on the spot her hand touched mine. But as soon as she stood up silence embraced me once again and something awakened in me for just an instant and I reached for her hand pulling her back down.
"Quinn, I'm…"
I shook my head before she finished, I didn't want her to apologize. She had done nothing wrong and I was not mad at her. I didn't want her to apologize because she had done something I didn't think possible; even if I didn't really understand the magnitude of what she was doing then.
I didn't say a word, I didn't make eye contact, I didn't even lift my head. I was afraid any movement would make my heart stop beating again. I held her hand tighter and, as if I was in a black and white movie, I could almost see how her touch brought colour back into my life and I couldn't keep my eyes off of our hands.
A small tear rolled out of my eye before I even knew it was there, but she saw it and when her hand touched my cheek to brush it away I couldn't help but to lean into her and pulled her hands so that she would wrap me in a tight hug. It was so sudden I heard her gasp and for a moment I was afraid she would turn around and leave, but she didn't, she held me and something happened to me, something happened inside of me and I couldn't hold back anymore. I started to cry as she held me, I wasn't really aware of why I was crying but I couldn't stop myself.
I still don't know how long we were there, it seemed like hours to me but it might have been only a couple of minutes. I just cried, and she just held me as if we were the closest of friends.
Once I could gain a little control again I sat up so that I could look her in the eyes, those brown gorgeous eyes that would become my safe world, and I was surprised to see her a little teary too. I could tell she had held back for me and I felt my heart beating stronger this time.
She looked at me asking if I was okay, I didn't know how I knew that's what she was trying to say to me, and she must have seen in my eyes that I was, at least in that moment, because she nodded and gave me a little smile.
I would find out later that soul mates don't need words to communicate, that a look or a touch can be enough to say even the longest of sentences and the deepest of feelings.
"We should go home now Quinn"
She said it softly and it set me off again, I could feel a new wave of tears building behind my eyes and I shut them to stop them from flowing. I had cried enough and I couldn't let myself cry anymore. And she noticed.
"What is it Quinn? Do you need a ride?"
I don't know why I laughed at that, she sounded so honest, so genuinely concerned and I couldn't help but laugh because, well… I didn't have anywhere to go and I just realized that, there was no way Finn would allow me to stay in his house anymore, staying at Puck's was just something I didn't even want to think about and going back to my dad's house was just out of the question.
As quickly as I laughed I started to cry again and I shook my head. I could tell she was confused and I managed to brokenly say.
"I… I don't think I have anywhere to stay anymore"
I didn't have anywhere to stay anymore, I was a pregnant teen ager with no home, with nothing, and it hit had just hit me, just how really alone I was. Tears silently slid down my cheeks and I let go of her hand because suddenly all my strength was gone. I let go and she didn't let my hand fall, just as she wouldn't let me fall countless times in the following years.
She kneeled in front of me and forced me to look at her.
"Yes you do"
She pulled me up and walked us to her car. I never noticed how strong she really was until that moment, when we were walking down the hall, her holding my hand. And I don't mean a physical strength, she had a strong heart, a strong soul and she was holding me up with it.
I knew it was a 15 minute ride from school to her house. She turned on the radio and I flinched at the sounds coming out of it, I turned it off quickly because I couldn't handle them. It was too much noise and I just needed a little peace.
She started to sing quietly first, almost beyond a whisper, but I heard her and I couldn't help but to raise my head hoping to hear her better. I could see a slight smile on her face at my actions and she started singing louder.
I don't really remember what she was singing, all I remember is how I could feel her voice filling every empty space inside of me. She sang all the way to her house.
Once we got there I hesitated to get out of the car, what if her dads told her I couldn't stay there? What if she changed her mind?
"Everything is okay Quinn. Let's go inside"
We walked in and straight to her room and when we were settled there she went down stairs to talk to her dads and came up with a pair of pants and a big t-shirt which belonged to one of them. She showed me the bathroom and I went in there to change.
I looked like a mess, my face was red and my eyes swollen. I looked broken but, I didn't feel so broken at that moment. I washed my face and came out, Rachel was already in her sleeping clothes and I hoped I could spend the night in her room.
"Should I… I mean, is there another room or…?"
She scoffed as if I had said something funny and I arched my eyebrow.
"Nonsense Quinn. You're staying here with me"
I smiled, an honest smile and walked to her bed. It was warm and soft, and I started to get sleepy instantly. She turned off the lights and I held her close to me.
It was silent and she started singing again. That was the last thing I heard that night.
Rachel never really liked silence, she always said that we had voices for a reason and we should use them as much as we could and I would tell her that we have ears too and we should use them more too. I'd say she had that voice for a reason and I would gladly listen to her if she wanted to use it. And I would still do.
