A/N: so here we go. A chapter that may be a bit sad. I think maybe, I don't know. But I'll find out. Here goes.

Chapter 16: Terrible things.

"Come on Luddy, it's time to go home~" Feli sat on his lovers lap to wake him with shaking him. Ludwig slowly opened his eyes and smiled. "…Finally…" they had had to stay a total of three weeks (same as Flavio, don't fret) but finally today the doctor gave them the green light to take Austin home. The baby was wheeled in with the hospital crib and Ludwig greeted him sweetly in German, earning a happy gurgle.

Feliciano got up and went over to the crib, slowly and carefully lifting the baby into his arms. Ludwig smiled as Feli sat beside him carefully, cradling their son who gurgled and slightly waved his fist as if to say hi. They both awed and snuggled each other's side, getting close so that they could see their son and be conjoined physically. "Hallo babe" Ludwig smiled and gently brushed at his son's dark blonde tuft of hair, which lay back easily.

Feli giggled and admired the blue eyes before kissing his nose "Boo mio ragazzo~ you look so much like your mama~" he smiled brightly and spoke in a tone that made Austin look at him, mouth open and drooling. There were some things that made the baby watch them intently at times, as if he were already absorbing actions. Being a nation of sorts, it made sense that he would catch on quite quickly.

That's when there was a knock at their door before it opened without permission and Lovino came waddling in quickly "You are in deep Merda Felicaino Veneziano Vargas…" he glared but smiled "Well hello Ludwig~ how are you feeling~" Feli looked at him crazy but then understood. He hadn't called his brother or anything.

"….shoot." Ludwig was surprised but smiled back "I'm good, and yourself?" Lovino sighed "Exactly how I look, now can I please see my nephew. I can't believe he is almost a month old and hasn't even met me because of someone….." He paused to glare daggers at his brother and Ludwig would have intervened if he didn't favor his head.

"…mi dispace fratello…" Feli looked down at his son and noted he was paying close attention to the side of the blanket that hid his view of Lovino. "Lud? Can Fratello see Austin?" Feli asked sweetly and Ludwig nodded "Of course"

Lovino smiled and held out careful arms, which the baby was placed but Feli took a minute to let go. Lovino chuckled "Ciao bambino~ Io Sono Zio Lovino~ che Bello~~ ciao, ciao~ siiiii~" the baby looked at him and with each coo came a coo of his own. Austin was cooing in the same way as Lovino and Lovinos curl formed a heart, his smile warm and going from ear to ear.

Antonio ran in panting. He was holding about five bags and a box. "G-got it l-Lovi~" he said, out of breath still. "Sssshhh, we're trying to talk~" he said sweetly, eyes never leaving the baby. Antonio looked over and saw his lover holding the baby, and dear god it was perfect. Lovino had his arms that cradled the child resting on his bump and he was practically glowing in Antonio's eyes.

Feli chuckled "Ciao ni-chan~ what's all the stuff?" he pointed to the bags and box. Antonio shook his head to clear it so he could get back on track. "R-right~ Hola Feli, these are just some clothes for the baby and cookies for you two~ Lovi made a lot of cookies…" he thought of the 5 dozen almond coffee cookies and regular peanut butter he had woke up to at 4 this morning and got lost in how Lovino had managed all of that when he was barely able to walk.

But then again, if the southern Italian wanted something bad enough, it was happening. Feli clapped like a small child and giggled "Fratello makes great cookies~ may I see~ Ludwig, do you want one?" he was excited and was now completely focused on the box. Antonio laughed and handed it over. Feli took it and quickly retreated to the bed; opening the box and shoving a cookie into his mouth, making Ludwig take one too.

"Lovi, you should sit..." Antonio looked to him. Ludwig had noticed right off the bat that the Italian looked like he was going to pop any second, but he hadn't seen him in almost half a year. Lovino sighed and nodded, looking for a chair which Antonio slid up and right to where he could sit and not have to take another step. Feli swallowed "How far along are you Fratello?" he asked, grabbing another cookie.

Lovino still hadn't really took his eyes off of his nephew, who gurgled a bit and played with his own little fingers, often looking up to make certain Lovino was still there. "Just hit 26 weeks. Still have 10 to go…" he said softly, glancing up "And I can't wait…"

Lovino had stepped on the scale this morning, about 3 am since he couldn't sleep. He was still only 168. By now he was supposed to be 180 and in two months, he was supposed to be 185. He had gone cold inside. He was trying to eat more, even going for seconds. But because he skipped out on many meals his 4, 5, and 6th month, his stomach couldn't take much all too once, so eating his regular amount took time and patience.

He had waddled to the shower and took a nice hot shower to clear his head and help with the pain in his back and neck. While washing his hair he thought and came up with a bright idea. He needed to make cookies. Lots and lots of cookies and there were several reasons. They were small and delicious; he could snack on them all day. They were also very fattening, and though that thought arose fear in him, one of the babies had awoken as well and gave a soft kick to his side, as if greeting him.

He looked down and rubbed that side of his tummy, smiling. "well ciao bambina~" he had learned after staring at the last ultrasound pictures which side each gender usually favored. For the girl, it was the left. The boy stuck to the right, coincidently the same side that held a bruise and would make Lovinos stomach turn from movement.

He smiled, forgetting about his fear and got out, grabbing two towels, wrapping one around his head and drying his body with the other. He put a robe on and waddled downstairs. He made 30 coffee almond cookies and 30 peanut butter cinnamon cookies. After he was putting the last batch on the cooling wrack, he heard a foot step and looked up to see Toni

"…..ciao~" was all he could get out, reminding himself that he was still in just a robe with a towel wrapped around his head.

To put it lightly, Antonio had caught him at a bit of a disadvantage. He blushed; the babies kicking a bit which made him instinctively rub the side that was offended.

Antonio smiled brightly, rubbing his still tired eyes. Waking the Spaniard was damn near impossible but once he was up, he was ready for anything. Lovino looked away, still blushing "…I- ….I was craving…" he looked away, hiccupping slightly.

Toni shook his head, smile still occupying his face. "I see~ el ninos must be very hungry lovi~" he said happily. He approached Lovino, kissing his head and then getting down on his knees and planting kisses all over the huge tummy of the Italian.

Lovino huffed, not dare letting the Spaniard know that he was enjoying this. After a minute, the Italian had a thought hit him "…where has Feli been..?" he looked down and Antonio just shrugged.

Lovino sighed. That worried him. He picked up the phone and tried calling them. They didn't answer. He glared at the phone while it recited Feliciano's stupid voicemail another four times. He cussed and threw his iPhone against the nearest wall, making Toni run up and take his arms gently, shaking his head "Calm amo-" "WHAT IF HE'S HURT?"

Antonio sighed "I'm sure he's just asleep~….it is still 4 am…" Lovino hadn't considered this. He blew his hair out of his face since Antonio had his arms pinned in a hug. "…..well….ill find him…"

They went back to bed at some point, proceeding to cuddle naked. There was a knock on the door at about 10 o'clock. Lovino was feeding Marvin and yelled "I'll get it!" he waddled to the door and opened it to see his main man, a private investigator of sorts. He simply told Lovino what he had found as far as new medical history on said Ludwig Beilschmit (he was a hacker, if you didn't figure that out) and was able to even tell Lovino the hospital and room number.

Lovino paid him and closed the door, eye twitching. He met Antonio, who was in the garden preparing the tools for harvest when he noticed Lovino's eye twitching. He looked him over "…mi amor…que pasa…?" he asked, softly as he could.

"…they had the kid…about 3 weeks ago…" he said. He wasn't all that mad. He was hurt. He was hurt that his brother neglected to tell him. He thought they were closer than that. He couldn't stop his sniffling. He looked at Antonio, tears escaping. "W-What the h-hell? Ya know?" his voice was partially squeaky and tears streamed down his cheeks.

Antonio signed and smiled "si…portugal seems to hate me too…lets go pay our visit, then we can focus on our family…si?"

Lovino nodded and wiped his eyes. "lets go…"

And here they were, lovino sighed and looked up at Feli. "….well….I guess we'll go….I'm tired and we need to cook. So….."

Feli nodded thoughtfully "it's good to see you fratello….I'll come visit real soon. I promise ~" he smiled and got up to take the baby.

Lovino handed him over reached over for Antonio to help him up. Antonio helped him and noticed how light he was. He shook his head to push the thought away. He watched them say goodbye.

He was still kind of disappointed in Feli for worrying Lovi but he kept his mouth shut. They walked out and Ludwig looked at Feli smiling. "Let's go home"