This ones longer than the other two but it was fun writing it. I'm a Jax and Tara shipper all the way and although I love their love and easiness, I like the angsty and harder parts of them too because that's what makes them, them. Thank you to all the readers and reviewers you motivate me! This one is for Samantha Renk, hopefully it was long enough to hold you over a little bit longer! ;)

Words Left Unsaid~

"You think pushing me away would keep me safe? That I'd be fine? Physically, maybe but mentally I'd be in a dangerous place. And that's worse than being in physical danger, don't YOU see that?! You may think I don't belong here and that this isn't my place, but that is not your goddamn place to choose for me. I'm a grown woman who knows what I want and who I want it with."

Breathe Tara, breathe, she mentally reminded herself. "That person happens to be you, you're the only man I've ever loved and that's never going to change because of anything but you, you're the only one who can change that and turn that love into hate and spite. I don't want that at all Jackson, I want you I want us". She stopped for a minute, her voice wavering.

"But I am not going to put up with your shit! I don't know who you think you were talking to back there but it sure as hell wasn't me. I'm not going to be treated like that, I'm your old lady not a dog who's there to take every command you say. You need something from me? you ask, you don't tell me what to do." Her voice was a little harsher than she wanted to be, but if it meant him understanding where she was coming from well then so be it. she looked up to see his face, he looked a little shocked by what she said and how she said it.

"Tara.." he sighed "You're not seeing the whole picture here, look.."

"No Jax, I'm seeing everything quite clear, it's you thats not looking good enough. I am NOT going anywhere, I'm not running and I'm not abandoning you or Abel."

"Tara I can't have you constantly in danger or doing things you shouldn't be doing for me and Abel when he isn't even your s.."

She cut him off, "Damnit he's my son too! I held his heart in my hands, literally. I feed him, I look after him, I love him. I may have not given birth to him but I'm the one raising him with you. So stop with the damn 'He's my son'. He's our son".

she wasn't done saying everything she needed to, but she'd let that soak in a little bit before she continued. She was trying to read his face, get a feel of what he was thinking, which usually wasn't difficult because he never tried to hide his feeling from her never put on a facade, but right now she couldn't place his feelings. So she just sat there letting him adjust to what she just said. One thing Tara knew about Jax was that you couldn't dump everything on him at once, you had to say it in pieces and that was her plan. She gave him another minute before she took a breath and continued.

"I don't plan on letting anyone else be called mom by him, and I don't plan on letting whores fuck you. I don't share Jax, I didn't when we were teenagers and I won't do it now. So if you're planning on doing that for good measures to make sure I'm 'safe' just stop right there. I'm telling you right now, if you fuck anyone else besides me I will castrate you myself." She looked over and saw his face, a little bit horrified mixed with his famous Teller smirk. She felt a little more at ease saying what else she was going to say.

"I know how your brain works, things get tough and you want to drown yourself in pussy, weed, and booze. Have all the weed and booze you need, but you better think twice about even contemplating pussy that isn't mine. You can't fuck your problems away, the only thing it would do is start a new set of problems which we don't need right now, right now we need to be doing whatever the hell it takes to get back our son". Looking over at him she had a dead serious look on her face and said "I'm not going anywhere and it'd be easier if you quit fighting me about it and just accepted it. I'm here to stay, you're not getting rid of me that easily baby".

Jax looked up to meet her eyes, he saw the determination in them which caused him to give her a sad smile.

"Tara, I love you I love you so much it hurts. When you left eleven years ago it completely fucked with my head, pussy and weed is what got me through the day. I wasn't lying when I said your face is the only one I saw, I tried so damn hard to forget you to convince myself I didn't need you that it wasn't love it was just teenage bullshit. You know where that got me? nowhere, absolutely nowhere because I couldn't do it."

His voice raw with emotion, he swallowed loudly. "The only person I ever loved had just walked away from me and that shattered me. I told myself that I'd be okay, we'd both move on and live the new hand we got dealt. Then you came back and shook my whole world, the minute I saw you, all the walls fell down and memories came rushing in. I mean, what do you do when the only person you ever loved and thought you would never see again is standing right in front of you but you promised yourself you'd never go back down that road?"

His voice was gentle, as if he was talking to someone so fragile any word could possibly shatter her completely. He seemed to have forgotten this was Tara he was talking to, the love of his life, someone who took no shit from anyone, and who could see straight through him and into his soul. The one that he never needed to tiptoe around, but that was what he was doing unknowingly.

Tara could tell there was something he wasn't saying, and she'd be damned if she was the only one spilling out her emotions.

"There's something you're not telling me Jax, get it out." He let out a little chuckle at her words, of course she would see what he wasn't saying.

"Tara, when you came back I told myself that you and me were history, a part of my life that had been done. I realized why you left, I really did. You came back a new person, you save lives, you changed, I didn't. I'm still that outlaw, I hurt people, and I can't have you around all this shit, you deserve someone who isn't going to possibly land in jail or even land you in jail for something you're not a part of. I can't, I won't let that happen".

He looked over at Tara, and she was sitting there looking at him, not saying anything just looking. He didn't know if that was a good or bad thing so he decided to finish up what he was saying.

"Tara, I know I've been an ass but it's the only way I can get it through your head that you can't be here. Asking you wouldn't help because I know how you are and you wouldn't listen. You're a hard headed pain in the ass just like me. Maybe we're meant to be together, no I know we are but sometimes you have to let the thing you love most go, because it's what's best for them".

"Jax, I'm not some fragile glass doll, I'm an old lady I can handle my own. If you think being a dick to keep me 'safe' is going to go over well with me, think again. I grew up with your mother around, loved you with her crazy ass meddling all the time, I don't need a knight in shining armor…"

At that moment Jax knew just what to use against her, after all, she'd given him the loaded gun to do so.

He cocked his head to the side and grinned, but it wasn't a typical grin, no this one had malice behind it. The words that came out next, were worse than what he had said to her in the basement, he may as well have slapped her.

"Really Tara, you don't need a knight in shining armor? you? Let's think back to Kohn for a minute. What do you think would've happened if you couldn't get a hold of me? hmm?" She looked at him with absolute disbelief, was he really bringing this back up?

"That's a low blow Jax and you know it!"

"Maybe it was, but he came after you because he knew hurting you would hurt me. key word there Tara, is me. If our love wasn't so fucked up and I didn't have a background he wouldn't have been after you. I'm responsible for that shit, you need to get out of here now before anything else happens to you".

Silence filled the room, Jax got out what he needed to say, what he wanted her to understand, he just hoped she'd listen and realize she needed to get out while she still can. What he didn't expect was what she did a second later..

****Alright my wonderful readers, thats the end of this chapter. What did Tara do? let me know what you think, in the review section! Excited to read these when I get the chance. I won't keep you hanging for too long, so don't worry. ((Kisses))****