WOW! I love all your feedback and reviews, It is absolutely amazing! Thank you for all the support and continuous show of interest, I'm sorry this update took a little while, a crazy schedule mixed with my health kicking my ass slowed me down a bit. Just an FYI, Gemma does already know that Abel has been kidnapped and everything that is going on with that. I do hope you all enjoy it, and I apologize for any spelling or grammar errors that may have been over looked.
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"Everything alright?" Tara looked at Gemma as she was coming down the stairs with a box in her hand. "Yeah everything's okay Gemma" she smiled at the older woman, she'd always be nosy but right now that was welcomed by Tara. These past few weeks haven't been easy with all that's happened and it was nice to have someone to show her the ropes once more, they've started bonding again and that made Tara happy. She didn't want Gemma to hate her, it would make life a lot more difficult if she did.
She was snapped out her thoughts with Gemma's comment, "I saw his face, nice shot sweety" She winked at her, "He had it coming, he knows you're not Wendy and aren't going to let him pull that kind of shit. Don't know why he even tries" That made Tara chuckle, "I don't know either but I think he got the message to stop already" She handed the box she had been holding to Gemma and started moving around the rest that were by the stairs.
Gemma could tell something was a little off with Tara and she had a feeling she knew what it was. The way she tensed when Wendy was brought up, Gemma knew she was worried about things that would happen in the future, that junkie would eventually make and appearance again and try to stir shit up. Gemma would be waiting for that day, she wasn't going to let that crank whore ruin anything anymore, she may have had her times when she didn't like Tara, but that was simply because she had her sons heart, a heart that she had broken once before years ago, and she didn't want that again. Wendy, however, was a different story. She never did like her, always pushing shit with Jax, and then she goes and gets knocked up. As if that wasn't bad enough she then goes and almost kills the baby because shooting up was more important than the life she had inside her.
She was getting angry just thinking about it, what would've happened if she didn't find her in time? That poor baby boy almost didn't make it. Thankfully there was someone there who gave a shit about him, Tara.She could be mad at Tara for a lot of the crap that's happened but she would always be grateful that her grandsons life was saved because of her. She was lost in thought and barely heard that sob that came from next to her. She turned over and saw Tara with her head in her hands, elbows on her knees quietly letting out sobs.
"Tara what's wrong?" It broke her heart to see her like this, was it because of something with Wendy or what had just happened with Jax and her? Whatever it was, was hurting her and Gemma didn't like it, didn't like seeing Tara, who was always well composed and tough, breaking down right in front of her.
"What happens when she comes back Gemma? hmm? I lost Abel once, and I will get him back but I can't do anything when his mother comes back and wants him, Wendy and Jax have that connection through Abel, Gemma. I can't lose him again, I can't lose them Gemma." Her sobs got harder and louder, she started shaking, breathing getting harsher.
Gemma pulled her into a hug and just held her for a while, she knew that feeling. She experienced it with Jax when he and Tara got together, she was afraid that she'd lose her son and that was the worst feeling a mother could get. It gave her a forlorn feeling that Tara was feeling this way, but at the same time it made her happy that she was worried about losing Jax and the little boy she loved like he was her own, and he was hers. People could say whatever they would like but no one was taking Abel from Tara, especially some stupid junkie like Wendy. She just had to reassure Tara of that.
"Sweet heart, Abel is the only thing that will ever connect the two of them. And that's being nice about it, do you really think Jax would want anything to do with her when she almost killed his son before he was even born? There's only one person he's in love with and that's you. He never stopped, I had to deal with that broken heart of his, thinking fucking random bitches would fill the void he had when you left. The only person he wants Abel calling mom is you, and that's how it will be".
Tara looked at her with blurred vision due to the crying. "That's the thing Gemma, I left him once and it wrecked both of us, And shit from our past keeps coming back and knocking us on our asses, I don't want anything to mess this up. I love him with all my heart, and Abel has made his place in there too. I don't know what would happen if something were to take them away from me", Turning her head Tara whispered to herself, not wanting Gemma to hear, "It's not just us anymore" She knew she had to tell Jax she was pregnant but she couldn't bare the thought that he didn't want another kid, not with her. With that thought, she started crying again and she hated it, hated that she seemed so weak right now, People had limits though, and she reached hers.
It clicked to Gemma what was really going on, Tara wasn't worried about Wendy or anyone else, she was worried about shit coming between her and Jax. When she left him the first time it had broken her heart as much as it did Jax's, Gemma saw that now, they were both terrified of losing each other again. Crazy exes, dangerous lives, unforgettable pasts, Jax and Tara were ready for all that to come and tear them apart which is why they've been so distant lately. She was also pretty sure Tara was pregnant, but she didn't want to bring that up right now, first she had to get it through her head that nothing would happen if they didn't let it.
"Tara listen to me, Jax isn't going anywhere, he may not admit it but he's proud of the way you handled shit back there. He likes that you're determined to stay right here and not run away and shut down. He's scared too, he's scared of losing you or something happening, He got a second chance with the only woman he's ever loved, he doesn't want to fuck this all up, so he does what he does best. He thinks giving you reasons to leave will protect you..and him, what Jax doesn't realize is you two without the other is bad for all of us, not just you."
They were still hugging at this point, and Tara pulled back enough to sit down on the wheelchair that was right there and look up at Gemma.
She didn't know what to say. Gemma was right, and they were just going to have to let the days take them where they may and pray that the survived everything that was sure to hit them with the upcoming issues of getting Abel back, and still dealing with these ATF agents that were constantly on their asses. Wendy and the rest of the bullshit could wait 'til later to be discussed and dealt with, Abel was her priority right now, well Abel and figuring out how to mention the fact that they'd be having another baby.
"How far along are you?" Gemma asked, she didn't want to bring it up at the moment, she wanted Tara to tell her on her own turf but she couldn't wait anymore, This was good news to her and she just wanted to know. The shocked look on Tara's face told her that she didn't think anyone knew. "I had a feeling, and you're more emotional than you usually are so come on let it out, how far along are you?" "I'm about ten weeks." That was a surprise to Gemma, she hadn't thought that she was that far along, which means she was pregnant before Abel was kidnapped and that she's known for a while. "Jax doesn't know does he?"
Tara took a deep breath, "No, I could never find a good time to tell him and then Abel was taken and I didn't need anymore stress on him so I figured I'd wait, ya know?" Gemma shot her a look, "It is Jax's right?". "Who else would it be Gemma? Guys in this town won't look at me because they know I'm with him, so even if I wanted to sleep around I wouldn't be able to", she giggled a little, they both knew it was true. "What do I do Gemma? How do I tell him? There's too much going on right now but I can't keep it from him much longer."
"Don't tell him here, wait 'til we get to the clubhouse. Take him to the dorm and talk to him, don't beat around the bush. Just know when you tell him, he's going to get even more crazy about not having you go to Belfast with them, It's not just you he has to protect anymore it's that baby you got inside of you. You're going to have to keep the old lady attitude when you're talking," She winked at her, "Use your fists if you have to." She lightened the mood, didn't want it to be too gloomy and focused and what was to come, but what was happening right now.
"Come on" she grabbed Tara's hand and led her up the stairs, "Let's get this done and head out. I want to celebrate being a grandma again and not having to be a parent this time too!" They headed up stairs and went through the kitchen to the front yard to find the guys all standing by their Harleys talking. Jax looked up and saw his mom and Tara heading towards them. He noticed Tara's eyes were red like she had been crying again, he looked at his mom with the unspoken question in his eyes, What happened?. She just shrugged, she rather didn't know or she wasn't telling him.
He wrapped his arms around Tara when she walked into his open arms, and nuzzled her neck. "Everything okay babe?" He was worried she was going to say something he didn't want to hear but he needed to know what was wrong with her. "Nothing baby, I'm fine, We heading out soon?" "Yeah we were just waiting for you two to get done and come out." Looking up at him she smiled, giving him a kiss, "Well, we're all done and ready to go" Jax could tell there was something she wasn't telling him but he'd wait until they were at the clubhouse to ask her about it. He got on his bike and started it up, Tara got on behind him, wrapping her arms around his waist and holding him, she laid her cheek on his back.
The familiar sound of all the Harleys rumbling to life made her smile, she wouldn't want to be anywhere else but here. She tightened her grip on him and said "I love you" in his ear and they started to ride onto the road. Jax let one handle go to put his hand over Tara's, "I love you too babe". He placed his hand back on the handlebar and focused on the road and thoughts of the woman he loved as they rode back.
When they arrived at TM the only people there were a few of the workers, Opie and Lyla, who were sitting at the picnic tables talking about something seemingly unimportant.
Jax waited for Tara to climb off before he did. She waited for him to put his bike in its place, when he did he threw his arm over her shoulder and pulled her into him as they walked towards Opie and Lyla. When she saw them Lyla got up and gave Tara a quick hug and said her greetings to Jax before sitting back down on Opie's lap. "Hey brotha how'd it go at her old mans house? and what the hell happened to your face?" Jax smirked, he knew he still had a red mark from where Tara had slapped him and a little bruise from where she punched him, "It went okay, she got him all set up. And let's just say my old lady's not afraid to check me when she has to" He winked and pulled Tara onto his lap as he sat down on the opposite side of his best friend.
It was Opie's turn to smile and look at Tara knowingly, "Tara the bad ass making an appearance again. I like it." "Shut up Opie, you know I don't take his shit" she said playfully. It was good to relax and not worry about what was to come with the trip to Belfast, and telling Jax about the baby. She looked over at Lyla with the question lingering in both of their eyes, they were silently asking the other, does he know?. In unison they shook their heads slightly, "Hey baby Lyla and me are going to go grab a drink, we'll be right back" she lifted herself off of him and gave him a kiss, Lyla did the same with Opie and joined Tara on the walk to the bar.
"I didn't know how to tell him Tara, they have a lot going on right now and it just isn't a good time. I don't even know if right now is a good time to be having a baby." Lyla had a gloomy look, like she didn't want to be saying this but she had to, because it was simply the truth. Opie had a lot on his mind and the last thing he needed to hear was that she was pregnant, that's what she was thinking anyways. "Do you think he needs this on his plate now too? I don't know Tara, honestly I think I'm just worried about what his reaction is going to be".
Tara knew exactly how she was feeling because that had been her concern too. She wasn't nervous about actually telling Jax that she was pregnant but she was worried about how he would react. "Lyla I won't lie, the chances of him being happy right off the bat are low, just like Jax. They're occupied with everything going on and us being pregnant is going to add to the stress. That being said, we need to just tell them, let the shock wear off and then go from there." Grabbing Lyla's hand she gave it a squeeze, "Come on let's get back out there." "Yeah, you're right. Come on" she gave her a smile, feeling a little more relaxed after their talk".
When they first met it was on rocky terms but as time went on Tara realized Lyla wasn't as bad as she initially thought. She also liked having someone around to talk with when the guys were on a run or she couldn't talk to Jax about something. Lyla also kept Opie grounded, she hasn't really seen him smile or engage with anyone since Donna died, but when Lyla came around she saw some of that spark come back to his eyes, and she was happy it did. Opie deserved to be happy and Lyla seemed to make him quite happy.
The two woman had just walked out the clubhouse, when Tara suddenly stopped in her tracks. She saw nothing but red at that moment. Lyla jerked back since her arm was in Tara's. "What they hell Tara, you okay?" She followed her line of vision and froze.
There she was leaning against the table between Jax and Opie, looking like her usual slutty self. Tara didn't know whether to be mad at the guys for being anywhere near Ima or at the bitch herself, she made it perfectly clear to her, and every other crow-eater, porn bitch that Jax was off limits. As for Opie, everyone in town pretty much knew about him and Lyla being together, including Ima. This bitch just wouldn't get the message until her face was smashed in which was something Tara, at this point, had no problem doing.
Before Tara knew what was happening she felt herself being dragged back into the clubhouse by Lyla. Once they were in there she turned around to see a very pissed off Lyla walking back and forth. "Are you fucking kidding me? Please tell me this is a joke Tara. what the fuck, I thought Opie would be more committed to us than this." Tara knew she was running on fumes and hormones which was a dangerous combination for anyone in the line of fire. "Lyla, he is. They're not doing anything wrong, no matter what we want to think." And right about now Tara was thinking a thousand different things, including the fact that if Jax does try to push her away again it'll be by banging that two cent whore.
Both women walked over to the bar and sat down, they were eying the liquor wishing they could take a shot or two.
"It's not that I don't trust Opie, I do, but I don't trust her Tara. I know how Ima is when she wants something. I've seen her around Jax, the way she talks, walks, flips her hair, it's all the classic Ima moves to get someone into bed. I wouldn't doubt her trying to fuck Opie though,and if that happens I'll lose it." She looked over at Tara, who was sitting there with a blank face, that worried her a little so she asked, "Are you okay?" When Lyla shook Tara's shoulder, it seemed to have snapped her out of whatever thoughts she was having at that moment. "That bitch needs to learn that when I mark my territory it means she needs to stay the hell away from it, I'm done playing these games."
She turned to face Lyla and said, "If guys in this town won't come anywhere near me because they know I belong to Jax then it's about damn time for these skanks to learn that, that works both ways and that Jax is off limits, taken, and they need to back the fuck away. Especially that porn slut." Lyla didn't know what Tara exactly meant by that but she was eager to find out. "They need to learn that Opie's off limits too, I'm in. What's the plan?"
Tara got up off the barstool, "Come on, time to claim what's ours" she winked at Lyla and headed towards the picnic tables with her friend.
When they reached the tables she took a seat, on Jax's lap and gave him a passionate kiss. On any other occasion he would've assumed it was just Tara kissing him, but he knew better, she was staking her claim. He'd be lying it he said it didn't turn him on, jealous Tara was a side he enjoyed for the most part, as long as it didn't get to crazy and it usually didn't, but there was always a couple of ladies who didn't get the hint. Ima may have ended up being one of those cases, they'd just have to see how it played out.
After a while of kissing, Tara pulled back and smiled. "Hey baby." He caught the smirk she had on and smiled, "Hey babe, me and Ope were just talking about everything that's going to be happening." It was then Ima decided to chirp in, "Yeah, they were talking about what was happening with me, in bed, sooner or later." She gave a shit eating grin to both Lyla, who had also taken a seat on on her mans lap, and Tara. "Sorry girls, I guess they got bored with you and needed some fun again. Don't worry, it won't be anything too crazy I mean anything with me is a mind blowing experience. I'll send them back happy and satisfied."
Jax and Opie both had their eyes bulging practically out of their heads. It was all bullshit, that's not what they were talking about, not even close. They had been talking about the Ireland trip and how to keep their old ladies safe while still doing whatever it took to get Abel back, but Lyla and Tara were unpredictable sometimes so whether they would believe that or not was up to God at this point. For the sake of everyone's safety, specifically Ima's, the men prayed that their women would believe what they were about to say. Sharing a look between each other, Jax decided he would go first.
He looked at Tara, who was sitting a little too calmly on his lap, and began, "Babe, I swear that is not what we were talking about. We were just saying what was going to happen in Ireland and with you and Lyla. Ima and her pussy skills weren't mentioned at all." When she didn't move or say anything, Jax became more worried. Tara had never been one to leave a situation unfinished, and when she did it was more dangerous because it meant she was stewing and would be back with a blow ten times worse. "Babe" he wiggled her hips against him a little, "Babe, you alright?" She turned her head to face him, with a look he knew all too well. Tara was pissed, more than pissed, and was ready to attack. But that isn't what she did.
Getting up off of Jax, Tara faced Ima,"You're so pathetic. All you're good for is your pussy, and after a while that won't be worth shit, then what will you have? Nothing, you'll just be a has been, used up whore that isn't worth anything. Lying about getting laid by these two won't get you anywhere either. They both know the minute their dicks touch you, they'll be getting chopped off and losing us. Trust me honey, you're not worth the pain of that." Ima was gaping at Tara, while Lyla was laughing with her face in Opies neck. When she composed herself, she got up and stood next to Tara.
"You're not going to tell her anything Lyla? What the fuck?!" Ima was pissed and humiliated.
Lyla just laughed some more and looked back to Ima, "What exactly do you want me to say? You just tried to tell me Opie was fucking you, when you know I'm with him. Sorry that I'm not jumping in to save your nasty ass from a hole you dug yourself into." Seriously, Lyla thought to herself, what the hell is wrong with this bitch? "Here I'll help you a bit, how about you walk away and leave. Save yourself an ass kicking from two people, and savour that pretty little face of yours a while longer." Both women were done with her shit, these were their men and nothing would be changing that anytime soon. Ima looked at both girls, not knowing which one she wanted to piss off more she decided to piss off both of them at the same time.
She leaned up off the table seat she had been leaning on, walked over and sat on Opie's lap, then reached across the table grabbed Jax by his kutt and fused her mouth to his. She was pissing off Lyla and Tara while doing what she's been dying to do, why not kill two birds with one stone right?
Across the parking lot, Gemma was in her office watching everything play out. keeping an eye out to make sure neither of the girls did anything to harm the babies. She had hope that, that wouldn't happen but all that hope flew out the window when that skank decided to kiss Jax, while sitting on Opie's lap. She saw as Opie, like the good boyfriend who wanted to live to see tomorrow pushed Ima away and slid off the table seats. Jax was trying to pull away but Ima was pulling his face towards hers, he did manage to get her off of him a second later and yelled "What the fuck is wrong with you Ima". Gemma was glad to see Jax wasn't happy about the kiss and that he pulled away, she didn't want to see what would've happened had he not.
She heard Ima start to laugh and say, "Oh come on boys don't act like you didn't like it just because these two" she pointed to Lyla and Tara, "are here". Opie was the one to speak up this time, "Ima we don't want you and we never will, deal with it, we're happy with who we have and we're not fucking it up". Jax added, "And believe me, we get exactly what we want and need from and with our women, so move along". Ima had said something that she couldn't hear because it was said in a whisper, what ever it was had to have been bad though. She didn't know who pounced first, Lyla or Tara, all she knew was that both of them were on Ima in a second flat.
Jax and Opie couldn't believe Ima had just said that they both have already fucked her and it was the best time of their lives, they were in too much shock to see the girls lunge at Ima and knock her on her ass. "Oh shit" they yelled in unison and bolted to get them off Ima, it took some serious force to pry them off of her but when they finally did Ima jumped up cupping her nose and started to back out cursing at them. She got to her car and raced out of the TM parking lot, almost crashing into a car coming in honking at her loudly.
The guys set the two women on the picnic table and stepped back to take a look at them and make sure everything was alright and they weren't hurt.
"What the hell is wrong with the two of you? You can't just go beating the shit out of people" Opie said with a hint of amusement. Jax, on the other hand, didn't find it funny at all. Tara could have gotten hurt or stirred up more shit that they didn't need, Abel was their focus right now and that's how it needed to stay. "Babe what the hell was that all about? I know she was pissing you off but you can't just go knocking everyone that says something like that on their asses". "Are you kidding me Jax?" She scoffed, "I was not going to sit there and listen to her shit, I'm tired of it. Your heart may have always been mine but your body was theirs for years, now everything is mine again and they need to learn to stay the hell away". She walked over and kissed him, "I'm yours, you're mine. It works both ways, and I don't have a problem making sure these whores know that".
Jax looked at his old lady, he was still upset about the situation but he was also proud. He pulled her closer and held her like that, his face nuzzled in her neck. Meanwhile, Opie and Lyla were all over each other too, of course.
"You two sure know how to cause a scene", the voice they all knew caused them to look over and see Gemma walking towards them, smirking. "You really should be more careful though, these two idiots would die if anything happened to those babies". The look Jax and Opie gave her, told her that the girls hadn't told them about the pregnancies yet. That made her wish she hadn't said anything at all, because it would most likely be another scene about to happen between the couples.
Lyla and Tara had gotten out of their mens embraces and stepped back a few feet, looking at Gemma with disbelief. The guys turned around to look at them and Jax was the first to speak, "What does she mean? What babies?"
"Well…."
Just a little bit of a cliffhanger, nothing too much, I hope. Sound off in the reviews and let me know what you thought! This chapter was much longer than I intended for it to be, but I went ahead and just did it for you, it can hold you over until the next update ;) My goal is to get to 60 reviews, so let's try and achieve it. Anxious to see what everyone has to say about this update.