Chapter 25
Sam blinked.
And blinked.
And blinked.
She couldn't seem to process this.
"You're joking." Sam said stoically.
"I wish I was." Quinn said holding Sam's hands.
Sam turned to stare at the sky her eyes burning with tears she was desperately trying not to spill.
"Sam?" Quinn asked tentatively squeezing both of Sam's hands in one of his own and grabbing her shoulder with the other one.
"Is it true?" Sam asked her voice threatening to break.
"Well Jake isn't one hundred percent sure it's not so I couldn't tell you. But I mean it's also true that if she was it could not be Jake's." Quinn said softly.
"But he can't full out say no right?" Sam said so low Quinn could barely hear her.
"Looks that way." Quinn said seriously.
And even though Sam had promised never to cry for him again, she did.
The tears just spilled down with ferocity. Her body shaked with the intensity of her grief.
Quinn scooted closer to her and pulled her into a hug and even though deep in her mind she knew this was wrong or at least a bad idea Sam allowed it because right then all she need was someone to hold her.
"Lie to me and tell me everything is going to be okay." Sam said in between sobs.
Quinn held her and lied while Sam cried. Quinn even dared to kiss the top of her head which made Sam cry harder.
"Sam its okay. Everything is going to be fine." Quinn said feeling really bad. Blaming himself for the broken girl he currently held in his arms. Sam stopped crying but instead of pulling back from Quinn's embrace she made herself even more comfortable. Quinn noticed and held her closer.
They stayed like that till the sun went down and even then neither showed any indication of moving.
"Quinn." Sam said her voice still a little shaky and dry.
"Yea?" Quinn asked his voice sounding distant, like if he was deep in thought.
"Thanks. For everything." Sam said as she got up and looked into his eyes.
"No need to thank me." Quinn said putting his hand over hers and smiling. That caught Sam off guard and her hand whipped to where there hands where. Quinn was about to apologize and take his hand off when Sam did something that surprised both of them, she put her other hand on top of his and squeezed.
"Samantha?" Quinn asked his voice shaky with confusion and surprise.
"Don't. Please just don't say anything." Sam said looking down to their hands. Quinn's hand felt warm, comforting. Like his embrace had. Though it didn't make Sam feel even half as Jakes touch or hug made her feel, it didn't necessarily feel bad, or wrong.
"Sam you're just. Your just confused and hurt and don't know how to react and." Quinn said more to himself than to Sam. This was wrong. But it felt right.
"I know." Sam said starting to trace random lines and circles on Quinn's arm with her fingertips making Quinn tremble. It was getting harder for him not to cross the line.
"Then don't do anything you might regret." Quinn said again more to himself. Jake loves her. Your brother dude! Stop! Quinn yelled at himself.
"Quinn I don't want to think it's to confusing. This leaves me with only feeling. And that's too painful Quinn." Sam said taking her arm back and hugging her knees.
"I feel dumb. Betrayed. Hurt. Ugly. Played. Useless." Sam whispered. Quinn's reaction was to get closer to Sam and put his arm around her.
"Sam you're not dumb or useless. And you're definitely not ugly. Jake is just confused. He doesn't know what to do right now, but he loves you. A lot." Quinn said and something in his chest ached painfully at that fact.
"It doesn't feel that way." Sam said with anger as she got up and walked towards the truck. "It's late I have to go home." Quinn followed her and got in the truck. Before starting it he turned to look at Sam and found she was looking at him.
"Sam I really am sorry about everything. I just thought you had to know cus' well it wasn't fair for you not too." Quinn said practically stumbling over his words.
And then Sam let her body and heart take over and did something she probably would have never done had she been thinking.
She leaned in and kissed Quinn.
"Thanks." Sam said looking straight into Quinn's eyes which at the moment looked so much like Jakes that a fire exploded within her. Anger and pain was invading her body.
She leaned in and kissed Quinn with a little bit more force but Quinn wasn't responding. Maybe he doesn't want to? Sam thought. Embarrassment was now mixing in with her anger and pain.
"Sam." Quinn was still in shock and trying to figure all this out. "Sam you love Jake and Jake loves you. He's my brother. This is wrong." Quinn was still trying to concentrate but he kept thinking of how soft Sam's lips felt.
"So. What he did was wrong too." Sam said looking out the window.
"Yes but.." Quinn started but was cut off.
"But what?" Sam stared hard into Quinn's eyes.
This is so wrong. Quinn thought as he leaned in and kissed Sam. Sam responded immediately and kissed Quinn back with fiery passion that the anger and hurt was causing within her. Quinn returned the urgency.
Sam's hand grabbed on to Quinn's' hair and Quinn grabbed on to Sam's hair.
It was wrong.
They both knew it.
But at the moment, it was worth the guilt.