Chapter 36
Jake Ely got off his horse and took a deep breath before walking over to River Bend Ranch's kitchen door. He could hear dishes clattering.
Sam was washing dishes trying to calm down when she heard a horse coming over the bridge. Her heart skipped a beat when she saw who was walking up to her front door.
She heard a knock at the door. Her gram, who was clearing the table, went to answer it.
"Oh hello Jake. What a pleasant surprise. Haven't seen you around here for a while." She said making Jake feel guiltier than he did already.
"Uh is Sam around?" He asked rubbing his neck with his hand.
"Sure she's right here come on in." Gram said as she moved a little to let Jake into the house.
Jake stared at Samantha who was trying her hardest to not turn around. She was scraping the already spotless dish diligently.
"Well I'll let you two talk." Gram said retreating into the living room. Neither Sam nor Jake spoke. They heard Gram going up the stairs.
"Sam?" Jake said cautiously.
"What?" Sam said coldly, not turning to look at him.
"Sam, I'm sorry." Jake said apologetically.
"For what?" Sam said even colder, still continuing to wash dishes.
"For everything." Jake said. He took a deep breath and continued, "For leaving without saying anything. For not offering any explanations. For avoiding you. For hiding Dana and what happened. For, well for just everything."
Sam rinsed her hands as she finished the last plate.
"Thirsty?" Sam said looking at Jake for the first time. Jake looked dumbfounded.
"Huh. Uhm No." He finally stumbled. "Sam?" Jake asked taking a step closer towards her.
"What were you expecting Jake?" Sam said staring straight at Jake with unwavering eyes, voice steady. "That you were just going to come here say sorry and I was going to say everything's okay and that I forgive you? Before I can even consider forgiving you, you owe me a lot of explanations so sit down and listen." Sam said crossing her arms. Jake sat.
"You still haven't told me how you even ended up with a maybe pregnant ex-girlfriend? Is she even an ex-girlfriend? And what if she really is pregnant? What are you going to do then? You also haven't told me why you were hiding? Did you think the problem was just going to go away if you didn't talk about it? I need explanations NOT apologies. So when you're ready to be honest you let me know for now at least I really don't care for apologies." Sam finished though she never once raised her voice or tear up. Jake sat quietly looking into Sam's eyes.
"So since you obviously don't have the answers right now I think its best you leave. " Sam said as nonchalant and cold as she could. She could see Jake's hurt expression.
Jake just nodded and got up he started for the door when Sam spoke.
"Oh and by the way I appreciate that you came and apologized and I know you're sorry. It's just sometimes sorry isn't good enough." She said softly.
With that Jake left, though it didn't go as planned there was hope.