I know just 'Author's Notes' aren't allowed or they didn't use to be. Please excuse this. I want to continue this story. However, it's been 6 years since I've written. I'm not looking for pity but I would like to explain a little bit why I dropped off the face of the Earth and why it has been difficult for me to start writing again. I was committed to a facility for trying to commit suicide and was there for almost a month because I was high risk. For about three months after being released I had to attend dialectical behavioral therapy from 9am-2pm, Monday through Thursday. So, I was in a very dark place. I still struggle with depression now and while I know I need the Zoloft, I feel the medicine has dampened my creativity. I also essentially rewrote the way my brain worked through therapy. I am however, in a much better place. I'm not happy by any means but I am content and stable.

To get back to the story, this story was my baby but I do not feel my writing style will be the same if I start back up again and I know my mind isn't the same anymore. When I started Broken Hart, I could see the entire story in my head and just pumped out word after word. Now when I look back at my notes and chapters I see how disorganized my though process was. I just typed how thoughts actually ran through my head. My sense of humor is still pretty absurd though.

I want to start up this story again. I really do. But it will be difficult. I'm not sure if I should just pick up where I left off or if I should start over. But I want to finish this story. I am actually currently typing a character list with detailed stats, bios, etc. And forming a concrete plot line. (something I didn't do before? Why did I make my life hard?)

I have no muse to inspire me. So I would like to ask you, my readers from the beginning (and the abrupt end) to help. It's selfish of me, I know. I'm pretty much dangling new content on a string. So tell me your thoughts. Start over? Pick it up? Were there things you were confused about? What can I improve on? Would you like to be someone who just constantly floods my emails with threatening "Finish it or else" messages? I am hiring assassins to take me out if I don't get my shit together.

I'm back and I am trying.

Sincerely,

Kinetic Kat