AN: I hope you guys enjoyed the last chapter! Here is Ahsoka's story now!
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Ahsoka and her friend Barriss Offee had just finished their kata routine in the gym aboard the Resolute about the time Rex starting running Torrent Company through training exercises. The two young women sat perched on a few of the crates they used for obstacle courses, sipping their water. They watching in companionable silence as the men were put through their paces. However, Barriss noticed that her friend's gaze lingered on the captain running the exercises then the maneuvers she claim to be watching.
"When did you know you were in love with him?"
Ahsoka looked sideways at her companion for a second before her gaze wandered back to her boyfriend.
"I guess in my heart I've always known. I just had to convince my head my heart wasn't lying."
Barriss smirked at the sappy comment but didn't reply as Ahsoka went back to staring at her love.
When Ahsoka first met the Captain he had wasted no time in putting her in her place. He was stoic and gruff and a bit too tense for her liking. She knew he had been a part of the war longer than she and had much more experience, and she was eager to learn, she just wished he'd lighten up a little. But by the end of the mission she understood a glimmer of why the captain valued experience over rank; she had no idea what she was doing. And the faint upturn of his lips when he congratulated her gave her hope that there was more to the captain then the gruff exterior.
She saw his concern as he watched the numerous injured troopers being moved off the field and to the med bay. She watched as he silently mourned the dead, reading over the list of names and numbers at the end of every mission, and a few times Ahsoka would reach out towards him when he wasn't looking, when the weight of it pressed down on him. It hurt her to see him like that, and every night before she went to bed she would lightly brush her presence against the boys under her commander, always lingering slightly longer with the captain's presence. And sometimes she thought she saw a faint upturn of his lips the next morning as if he knew what she was doing.
Ahsoka thought she had enough combat and lightsaber training when her and her troops were faced with the infamous droid general Grievous. She quickly learned she was far more inexperienced and unprepared when she was quickly subdued and thrown back. When young Ahsoka came to and saw Grievous stalking towards the unconscious Captain Rex, her heart leapt into her throat and a wave of protectiveness overcame her as she barely managed to block the general's stolen blue blade with her own green one. Ahsoka's resolve was stealed; come what may, Ahsoka knew she would be in trouble when Anakin found out, she would keep Grievous's attention on her and not her troops… or the captain.
When Ahsoka struggled to come to grips with Anakin being severely injured and dying and her duty as a Jedi, Rex, without extra words or gestures, gave her strength to do what was right. His words were professional and curt, but Ahsoka could hear the undercurrent of comfort he was trying to convey to her, and she silently thanked him. After they got Master Skywalker help and Ahsoka knew he was going to recover, she wanted to seek Rex out and thank him, but for some irrational reason she was afraid too, and instead she shoved it all away.
As the Blue Shadow Virus slowly killed her troops, Ahsoka wished they hadn't kept the blast door open for her. She couldn't look them in the eyes, knowing they were dying, and she felt it was her fault. It was hard to look at the troops, but even harder to look at Rex, knowing if they weren't saved, he would die. Her heart panged in sadness and it took Ahsoka by surprise. It always hurt when more troops under her command died, but even the thought of losing Captain Rex made Ahsoka's heart hurt 10 times more. At the time she blamed the stress of the mission, reality of dying, and the virus affecting her emotions.
Ahsoka would never admit it to anyone, but when she made the call to Anakin to tell him of her and Barriss's decision, for a split second, Ahsoka wished she was talking to Rex. His courage and stoic confidence would be her pillar of strength, but she pushed such unprofessional thoughts from her mind and pushed the button Ahsoka and Barriss both knew would probably be the end of them. As the two padawans were unearthed from the rubble, Ahsoka almost threw her arms around the captain as he assisted them from the tank but settled for smiling at him.
During her recovery after the events of Geneosis, Ahsoka was aware that the 501st and 212th were hunting down Grievous. It wasn't until later, when she was talking with Kix, Jesse, and Hardcase that Ahsoka found out that Rex had been shot in the chest. Kix saw the commander's face pale when the event was mentioned and the worry in her voice when she asked if he was okay, even though she had seen him in the halls moments earlier. He didn't say anything when Ahsoka quickly departed from the mess hall to find him herself, but he did smirk ever so slightly.
Mortis tore away Ahsoka's confidence and optimism and left her feeling vulnerable and lost. Anakin wouldn't talk to her and even Master Kenobi wouldn't fully look her in the eyes and they seemed saddened when they did. She couldn't understand it, and when Ahsoka finally snapped and demanded to know what really happened. Rex found her hiding in her chambers two days later. Rex didn't say anything, which Ahsoka was thankful for, but stood there, a silent pillar of strength. When Ahsoka did speak, her voice was weak and cracked, but she felt compelled to tell him, and she told him how she died. He held her as she sobbed, and for once she didn't care about the Jedi rule of attachment or controlling her emotions.
Hanging in a cage, overlooking the city, Ahsoka meditated and tried to seek out the Force presences of her friends. Her people were enslaved and dying, but she knew her friends were in similar positions, and she couldn't help but worry. Ahsoka knew from experience that Rex was strong but he still didn't have the mental training the Jedi did, and she couldn't help worrying about him a little more than the others. When it was all said and done Ahsoka felt some of the tension leave her when she saw Rex relatively unharmed, although she still couldn't get over the non-military garb he was wearing.
Ahsoka actually thought Rex looked good in the non-traditional armor he donned for their covert operations on Onderon, but there was no way she would ever voice that opinion. Onderon was a turning point for Ahsoka, she thought she still had feelings for Lux, but was disappointed when she realized Lux loved Steela. She knew Anakin could tell she fighting an internal battle but he simply reminded her of the code. It wasn't long after that Ahsoka realized there was someone else who was always there for her, and always would be.
While trying to defend her innocence, Ahsoka wanted nothing more than to reassure her brothers that she wasn't the one who killed those troopers or someone who would bomb her own people. When she was finally acquitted of all wrong and reinstated back into the Order, her first stop was the barracks, and much to her pleasure, her brothers were eagerly awaiting her return. Every trooper hugged her or slapped her on the back, thankful that their sister was back with them, and never once believing the lies they heard. Her final stop was Rex, where she couldn't resist throwing her arms around his neck and holding on tight. She hadn't needed to see his face beneath his helmet while he was chaser her, to know that he was just as hurt by her situation as she was. And Ahsoka knew this was the man who would always stand beside her and protect her. "Thanks for always believing in me Rexster." She whispered
When the Jedi Order finally removed the rule of attachment, Ahsoka inwardly cheered; she was done trying to hide her feelings towards Rex and celebrated the fact that they could be an official couple. She embraced her emotions and treasured her time with her boyfriend, the kisses and hand holding that had once been secret and forbidden. She knew there was nobody else she wanted to spend the rest of her life with.
Ahsoka leapt off the crate and Barriss followed her out of the gym.
"I've always loved him, it just took my head took more convincing then my heart."
AN: I hope it was sappy and mushy enough for everyone! I have more story ideas and hope to have more chapters up soon! I will be travelling this week so hopefully the car ride will give me more time to write.
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