Pain. Regrets. Sadness. Betrayal. Loss. Confusion. Anger. Hate. Stigma.
All those emotions that my bleeding heart is feeling. Slowing destroying me. Burning me. I started feeling like l am being swallowed, drown by an ocean. Darkness is all I see. Coldness is all I feel. Emptiness is my conscience. Bitter sweet is my being.
A throbbing head, a painfully squeezed heart, a numbness body, cold blood, a scar eye was all that was given to me by the end of my journey.
I had always known that life was never easy and foremost cruel. But now l understand why words and actions are a world of difference. Even the most prepared being with the most prepared shield will not be able to withstand the experience. The shock…. The surprise maybe? That it would really happened one day. Or the realization aftermath. It is always unbelievable to believe that it really did happened.
Somewhere in the cold space, in the darkness, a young man floated in what looked like a void between space and time. With very little force a chuckle left his soft lips ruined with blood, he was badly beaten. Even so he did not seem to mind as a thought passed him.
Hah, pathetic…. Me ending like this. Back then l would never have guessed that this will become my demise. Empty. Is all that l feel within me. So that how it feels to kill the person who took your world away from you. That person we call 'brother'.
Sleepy, l feel. It useless to resist. All l need now is to see since there is nothing less for me and the world is safe now.
In a darkness, darker than dark itself a young man closed his eyes for eternity.
Goodbye life and welcome my salvation to the demise of my disillusioned.