Chapter 6 Questions and Wants

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It has been a hard transition from; I've never thought I would find someone to love me, to, a family to care for me. But here it is, all for the taking. I have the most handsome boy from school (not in my opinion; from rumors, I've heard…. Alright my own thoughts, but don't say anything.)) His family was willing to take me in; treat me like a son. if I willingly complete the bond. I have the chance, but why can't I make myself take it?

I mean it's everything I've dreamed of since I was moved in with the Dursley's. Even more so when I found out that I did have loving parents at one time. Why can't I actually follow my heart on this? Why must I be so stubborn on actually allowing myself to be happy for once? It's like something is blocking my own needs and wants, so I can be the hero that everyone needs. Wait…

I sprung from my bed, in fear, in realization of what could possibly have happened to me, I started madly pacing back and forth, unsure what to do with this newly presented information.

I felt, more than saw, Draco enter the room. He must have felt the rising anger, the confusion and how scared I was. I turned to the blonde that entered the room. I bet I looked like a crazy person by this point.

"Draco, is there anything that can change my thoughts or the way I feel? L-Like a potion or something." I was back to pacing; going to end up putting a hole in this beautiful floor.

I felt a hand grab my shoulder and pull me back into a well-built chest, I couldn't keep the blush that appeared on my cheeks, "Yes Harry there are potions like that, but I need for you to calm down little one. If you continue this madness you will set yourself back in your healing process after all the work that me and Sev have done to make sure there are no ill effects left over from the bastards you call family."

I just nodded and let myself be held for the moment, allowing his warm body to press into mine, "I'm sorry Draco, I just got worried. When I started thinking about all the wishes I made when I was little, and even when I was older; all of a sudden things changed and I didn't want them. It felt like I could not let myself be happy."

Draco picked me up and carried me to the bed, arranging us so that I was sitting on his lap cuddled into his chest, while he ran his magic fingers through my hair, calming me even more. "Little one, we will sort everything out, don't worry, Mother and Father will be willing to do anything they can to help you, and so will I. We will have the goblins look into if such a thing has been put into your system, if you don't feel like waiting just two more days, then I will have Sev see if there is any residual potions lingering in your system."

I was touched that Draco was so willing to help me. I am nothing more than a freak, yet here was my angel willing to do everything he could to help me. I just blushed and nodded relaxing even more into his body allowing myself a brief moment of content.

"I-I think I can wait two more days, it's just when my thoughts where swirling around like that, it caused me to panic that I'm not really who I think I am. That I am someone's puppet, that they are pulling my strings and I have to act accordingly; and once I thought it was a potion doing it, it sent me over the edge." I mumbled, pressing my face into his chest. Scared of what would happen, I inhaled his unique scent of Cinnamon and Apples mixed with just a hint of Lavender. It made me relax once again, along with the magic of his fingers combing through my hair.

I have no idea how long we sat like that. I was almost sent to sleep by how relaxed I could be around him, how I was no longer worrying about how my life could be in danger. It was that exact moment when an owl showed up, knocking on the window. I groaned and buried my face further into Draco's chest not wanting to be interrupted right now. Draco let out a chuckle, causing me to blush, I was acting like a little kid who's favorite toy was going to be taken away.

The bird knew no patience, and pecked at the window again. I reluctantly; thought I would never come to this point, got off of Draco's lap and walked to the window and opened it up for the demanding creature ready to dismiss the owl. I stopped when I realized that it was my snow white noble owl, her amber eyes glaring at me hooting at me angrily.

I just smiled and kind of laughed at my mother-like owl as she perched on my shoulder and nipped at my ear in a redemanding manner, "I'm sorry girl, if I had known something like this would happen I would have let you come with me to the Dursley's, but I didn't and I wanted you to be safe."

She cooed in what seemed to be understanding as she stuck her leg out that had a note attached. Oh, from Nev, I hope you had a better summer their girl. I know you wanted to come with me, but it was better off for you to go with Nev. I don't think I could handle if Uncle Vernon did something to you," I said to Hedwig, hand untying the parcel the other softly petting her breast. She just cooed and started to clean my hair as she always did when I was forgiven.

Hello Brother of all but blood;

I hope that your summer has been, pleasant, and those muggles aren't being too rough. I wish I could have done something to help you, but you refused, on the account of the headmaster to stay here at Longbottom manner.

Anyway, there seems to be a change that has occurred since Hedwig has been restless the last few days, but in a good way. So, I sent her off to you in hopes that you are in a safer environment, than that of your relatives. With her I also sent you birthday present, and before you start saying you don't deserve something like this you do! You've given me plenty of things over the last two years, but you won't accept any of mine, so this was my chance to give you something in return.

I guess I'll give you some news from me, on my 17th birthday I also received a most welcome gift of having old creature blood that was thought to be extinct in my bloodline. It has now been over 100 years since the last known Longbottom Lord/Heir has had it, and to say in the least my Grandmother was happy to see something good come from me.

I am a Light Elf, with the affinity for earth. I guess that is why I'm so good with herbology). The more common name for my kind is Wood elf, as for the tribe I descended from, they lived in more forested areas, working with mother nature to carve out their tribes living by growing crops.

I also have a mate! I've been mind-speaking with him. I don't know who it is yet, but I'm hoping that they go to Hogwarts.

Anyways enough from me, I hope to hear from you soon Harry, and that you will tell me what has happened over the summer; and if I need to press charges against those muggles. Remember I will! Because you do not deserve what they do to you.

From your brother,

Nev

I smiled when I was done with Nev's letter. Knowing that I had a brother out there that really cared for me. Unlike Ron, who was just using me for my fame. I took the Package Nev shrunk and put in the envelope, I turned to Draco who just smiled and waved his wand to enlarge it. I carefully put away the wrappings, inside there was a leather-bound notebook, I opened it and inside was written, this is a two way book, what you write in here will show up in my own Notebook, and what I write to you will show up in yours. I just smiled. This would make staying in contact with Nev a lot easier now, another thing in the package was a DADA book, describing all sort of warding technique, and the last thing was a simple ring with an emerald set in the center and a small note attached. This has been turned to a portkey, and when you say the activation word, it will take you to Longbottom manner. I rolled my eyes Nev was always worried about what trouble I could get into.

He has been by my side since third year helping me a bunch, it wasn't until fourth that we grew very close and started talking more. He was the only one there for me at that point. Holding me during my break downs, and helping me build myself up that year. Without Nev there that year, I was sure that I would have died, be it from the challenges, or killing myself.

I felt strong arms wrap around my small waist and a chin rest on top of my head. I just smiled and leaned back into the larger body, no longer fighting with what was going to happen. "It's from Neville, I sent Hedwig to him before I left Hogwarts. He was just updating me on what is happening and how his summer is going."

Draco hummed in acknowledgement, his arms tightening around my waist. I could feel jealousy through the bond.

"He is like a brother to me, and has had my back all these years, looking after me. D-Do you think we could pay a visit to him tomorrow? I would like for him to see that I'm fine and safe, and talk to him about what has happened."

Draco kissed the top of my head. "I guess we can arrange that, if he is that important in your life. Just send him a letter, just a brief one, informing him."

I nodded and pulled from his arms to the small sitting area in my room and penned a letter back to Nev.

"Hedwig, do you think you can take this back to Nev for me?" Hedwig ruffled her feathers at me as if insulted, "I know you're a strong flier, I was merely making sure that you wanted to do this after staying there." She just hooted at me softly nipping my finger, before taking the letter from my hand and took off back to Longbottom manner.

I just smiled and shook my head, I turned to Draco remembering what I wanted to ask him, "D-Draco, d-do you have any books on bonding?" I blushed, "I-I wanted to look into our creature bond. Before I make a decision."

Draco just smiled at me. "yes little one, I do have bonding books you could read. You don't have to make a decision yet, if you don't want to, but I will get those books for you from the Library for you to read."

With that Draco kissed the top of my head once more and left me in peace in my room.