A/N: This will be the last chapter before I do a major time jump of about 6 months. After that I will have one major chapter or two shorter chapters and from there I will either have an epilogue or set it up for a possible sequel if that's what you guys want. If you want me to go through with an Epilogue instead of a sequel then the Epilogue will jump ahead a few years.

Chapter Fourteen: Hard to Understand

"I can never understand it. I can never understand death. I just don't get it."

"I know honey," Haley says while trying to console her wife.

Ellie had passed away a few days earlier and they had spread her ashes a few hours ago. Now Haley and Peyton were on their bed in their pajamas not really wanting to do anything except be locked out from the world.

"I knew she was sick. She told us, but I just never thought that this would happen."

"Peyton, I think she knew that her time was coming. Maybe that's why she decided to walk back into your life, one thing that would let her mind rest her knowing that you're okay."

Peyton turns over and buries her head into the crook of Haley's neck.

"I lose too many people Haley. I can't lose anybody else."

Haley's heart breaks at hearing her wife's crying. She knew nothing could be said at this point so she just settled with running her hands up and down her wife's back while the tears ran.

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"Have you ever lost someone?" Rachel asks Nathan as they take a walk around town.

"I lost my grandpa when I was younger, but I was young I never really got it then and I don't think I get it now. I feel bad for Peyton because she lost her mom and her birth mother in the first eighteen years of her life and then her dad's not around. I don't know how she does it to be quite honest."

Rachel grabs her boyfriend's hand.

"I think it has something to do with Haley. I think it has a lot to do with Haley actually."

"Haley's usually calm in those situations, if you think about it, except the school shooting."

Nathan nods his head.

"Can you believe that that happened over a few weeks ago? We were lucky that we weren't even there. Thank god for all of us skipping that day and hanging out at Peyton's."

"Then Jimmy was stopped or rather he stopped himself, turned himself in."

"I love you Rachel," Nathan says as he stops walking.

Rachel turns to him in surprise.

"I just needed to say it in case something happens to me. I love you."

"I love you, too."

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"They still aren't answering their phone," Brooke says with a pout as she rests her hands on her stomach.

"Brooke, they have to deal with this on their own especially Peyton."

"I know that Luke, but I was with Peyton the day her mom died. I just figured I would be there for this one."

"That's Haley's job Brooke."

"I know this Lucas. I just feel a little left out, but I'm sure it will go away soon."

Lucas takes a seat next to his girlfriend.

"How are you doing with the pregnancy?"

Brooke smiles at her boyfriend.

"I'm doing okay. Despite everything that's happened I'm excited about it."

"Me too," Lucas says before kissing Brooke on the lips.

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"Peyton, what are we doing?" Haley says a little out of breath.

"I thought that was obvious," Peyton says as her hand travels up her wife's shirt to palm a bare breast. Haley moans and Peyton smiles.

"It's just, I don't think you're head is in it is all."

Peyton stops her ministrations.

"Haley, I love you and you are my wife. I can't dwell on her death. I just want to move on and I want to make love to my wife if she will let me."

Haley looks into her wife's loving eyes and smiles. Haley sits up and grabs the end of Peyton's shirt and lifts it over her head. Peyton does the same with Haley. Their lips interlock.

Since their reconciliation they haven't done anything other than a few kisses here or there. Today was different and no matter the circumstances Haley and Peyton were excited.

Haley found herself lying on her back with her clothes off and Peyton hovering over her.

"I love you Haley."

Haley brings her hand up and uses her finger to wipe the tears from her wife's cheek.

"I love you too, Peyton."

Peyton licks her lips before settling herself between her wife's legs. Her lips make contact with Haley's and it doesn't take long before tongues are battling together and a rocking motion starts to the married couple.

Peyton licks, bites and sucks the side of her wife's neck as Haley's hand finds her way between the two sweaty bodies and into her wife's wetness.

"Oh god," Peyton moans in Haley's ear.

"You like that huh?" Haley says as her fingers circle her wife's clit at a steady pace.

"Baby, oh god."

Peyton's hand finds their way in between her and Haley's bodies, but she doesn't want to tease her wife. She slowly enters two fingers into her wife causing Haley to gasp and smile as Peyton pumps her fingers in and out.

"God I missed this," Haley says as her fingers find their way inside her wife.

"I'm cumming, oh god I'm cumming."

"P-Peyton, oh-um."

Peyton rolls off of her wife and settles beside her with a satisfied smile on her face. Haley pulls the covers over their bodies and turns her head to Peyton.

"That was way better than before."

"I have skills," Peyton says with a yawn.

Haley kisses her wife's forehead.

"Sleep."

"M'kay."

A/N: So, Epilogue or a Sequel, you choose.