Kendall's P.O.V.
He wasn't saying a word, but as soon as I parked and James let him get out of my car, he grabbed my hand and squeezed onto it for dear life. That told me a few things. He was upset, but felt comfort from me so maybe he wasn't too upset. But it also told me, maybe he was holding something in. Like a fit of anger and rage he has never felt before. It didn't help that ever since we got in my car, and I sped off, he's been clutching onto the necklace he bought Sam. That worried me. But not enough to say anything to him. Not until we walked into the apartment. He kicked off his flip flops, let my hand go and threw the necklace to the coffee table. He started walking to the hallway, to our bedroom and I sighed, putting my hands on my hips. James got beside me and i saw him open his mouth to talk, but didn't have time to stop him. "Loges..."
"I'm fine. I just want to be alone for a minute." He disappeared into the darkness and not a few seconds later the bedroom door slammed loud. I gritted my teeth hard and glanced over to James who was smiling shaking his head.
"We should be lucky Logan didn't one, drink that bottle, and two...bash it upside Carlos's head." I shook my head making him chuckle and shrug his shoulders. "I'm gonna fire up Call of duty. You down?" I sighed kicking my shoes off, and walked into the kitchen, flicking on the light.
"I have to do some last minute paperwork for my orientation." I quickly opened the fridge and bent down a little, looking at what's inside. I saw the brand new 6 pack i just bought yesterday but suddenly didn't feel so comfortable drinking. Instead i grabbed a Coke can and snapped it open letting the fridge shut by itself.
"I still can't believe Logan convinced you to go back to school." As i took a sip of my drink i watched James walk in, looking down at his phone. I swallowed the cold refreshing liquid fast and shoved my free hand into my pocket.
"He didn't convince me. He encouraged me. I mean...i can't keep working at the bar my whole life. I need a degree to get any where in my life and be a great man for Logan so...easy choice."
"Ugh...dude if i ever sound as romantic and goody as you, shoot me." I chuckled as he pulled himself up onto the counter staring right at me. "Carlos just text me and..." Before he could finish, my front door burst open and two deep strong voices came wafting in with the hot summer heat. We both turned to it and I watched Matt and David walk in, both smiling.
"What up dudes? Heard i missed a hell of a party. Mostly cause i wasn't invited to it." I laughed at David who walked right to me and stood beside me while Matt got next to James. "Man that sucks though...Logan is doing so good."
"He didn't drink any. Matt stopped him before anything happened." I nodded to Matt as I said it who smiled huge and crossed his arms over his chest. I opened my mouth to ask James what Carlos and him were talking about, but was stopped by seeing a small body walking towards us, pulling on a black hoodie. I stood up straight and lowered my soda can as Logan got to the edge of the kitchen and finished pulling on his hoodie. Which happened to be mine. He smirked looking around and faintly blushed as he walked in, putting his head down.
"I swear I've had a dream like this before." James laughed loudly kicking at Logan softly as he walked by. Logan pulled the fridge open and bent slightly sighing out. "What can i get everyone? Since Kendall is being a rude host." I smirked seeing Logan grab a soda and stand back up straight staring around our friends. "Matt? David..."
"Dude what about Carlos?" Logan frowned as he gently handed the soda to James and looked at David, right beside me.
"Carlos probably has plenty of drinks at his own house. I don't think it would make sense to offer him one of mine." I frowned immediately as he reached back in the fridge and pulled out two beers and one soda. He spun fast and handed the beers to David and Matt and kept the soda for himself. He sighed out as he shoved my arm up and leaned into me wrapping around me. He shoved his unopened can into my chest, forcing me to put mine on the counter and open his up. He sighed out resting his head on my left peck and shrugged. "I'm over it. Carlos and Sam are...I wish them literally nothing but happiness." I glanced around at the three around me and stopped on Matt who was giving us an odd look. I gently rubbed Logan's back and opened my mouth, hoping i could change the subject but Matt's strong loud voice beat me too it.
"Fuck that." James and David both burst out laughing which made Logan shove off me fast and push Matt. "That dude has become a pussy whipped little bitch who forgot who his best friends are all because of a piece of ass."
"That piece of ass is also one of my best friends. People grow up and they grow apart. We move on." I pulled Logan back into me and raised my eyebrows at Matt who was sipping form his beer shaking his head. "Why don't we...I don't know. Make dinner and play some stupid x-box game okay?" Everyone went quiet and I looked down to Logan who was looking up at me. he looked away fast and glared around at everyone else pushing off me again. "Okay?" I nodded quick making James also nod and slide off the counter shoving at Matt and grabbing David, all of them walking out, talking already about what game they would play. Logan turned to face me and quickly took James spot pulling himself up on the counter. I pushed off the counter i was leaning against and smiled small.
"I..."
"Have you finished that paperwork for orientation?" I froze making him smirk as he started to swing his legs against the counter. "That's what I thought. You really should finish that up." He slid off the counter and walked into me putting one hand on my right hip while his other hand shoved into my jeans, and boxers. I gasped out quietly and glanced over my shoulder, looking out over the bar to the living room seeing our two friends, and my brother all sitting on the leather couch, look gin at the huge flat screen. My dick was squeezed gently making me look back at him. he was grinning wide. "Can't wait tell they leave, so i can have this..." He squeezed again, and slowly started to stroke me, as his lips attached to my neck. He only kissed twice before his hands were off me, and he backed up, back to the stove. "All to myself."
"Don't do that Logan." He frowned crossing his arms over his chest and looked down. "You can fool Matt and David and James and everyone else but i know...I know Carlos is one of your best friends. And so is Sam. What they've done is fucked up. And it makes me so fucking made babe. And i hate seeing you like this."
"Like what?" He looked back up and smiled small shrugging. "Rubbing on your dick and kissing your neck?"
"Hiding behind that fake painful smile and pretending like you're happy for them." His smile fell and he looked away quick to our pantry. "Besides the fact that they have completely replaced you and James...they have talked about you to other people like you mean absolutely nothing to them. All the while you have given love and energy into something that you only seem to care about." I quickly walked into him trapping him against my body, and the counter. "And on top of that, you were very willingly ready to throw away your sobriety because of all of the shit they've done to you. Now..." I bent slightly at my knees to look in his eyes and forced him to look at me. "Tell me you're not hiding anything."
"How could they do that to me?" He looked down quick and i moved faster. I wrapped around his lower back fast and pulled him into me, hugging tight. His face fit perfectly into the crevasses of my neck and he sighed gently. "Why do i keep trying to make something work with my friends when they don't try back?" I rested my chin on his head and he squeezed me breathing on my neck hard. I could hear it in his voice. He was trying so hard not to cry, and that made me feel worse. "One part of my brain tells me to forget about them, and move on. And the other part says...Carlos has been one of your best friends for as long as you can remember. I can't just forget about him. It's hard for me."
"Can i do anything to help?" He laughed into my skin, making me shiver and smile small.
"Yes. You can finish your orientation paperwork and give me the recipe for your buffalo sauce. I promise..." He pulled away slightly and looked up at me. "When i start to feel down, i promise i will come to you. But for now, i just want to have a good meal and a good time whit my best friends. And you of course." I nodded slightly raising a hand and holding the side of his face, gently. I wanted to tell him, i didn't think it was healthy, with how he was going to handle this, but stayed silent. He smiled big and leaned up and into me, kissing me softly and then turning away. He sighed out softly and quickly opened the fridge, yelling for help from David. I walked out of the kitchen, just as David walked in and clapped my shoulder.
I sat at our small round dining room table, and mindbogglingly typed on my slim Mac book, and filled out the ridiculous amounts of paperwork Logan kept shoving in front of me. I was pretty pumped when i found out i could go to school, seeing as i barely graduated high school and have had nearly 5 years off from school. But when i was accepted, and told i had to take these stupid tests to see where my abilities were at, it wasn't as bad as i thought. I have to take, like the lowest of remedial classes but honestly didn't care. Logan promised he would help me with whatever, without actually doing my work and promised no one cared what level i was at. That helped me a lot. However, even before school started, i was stuck doing minuscule paperwork and it was driving em insane.
By the time i got done with my work, everyone was sitting out in the living room, laughing and having a grand ol' time watching each other play Grand Theft Auto. I softly and quietly closed my laptop and had to smile. Logan was sitting in between Matt and James, legs pulled up to his chest, hugging around them as he laughed loudly at David who was yelling at the screen. I sat back in my chair and grabbed my beer bottle that was almost gone. I quickly tipped it back into my mouth, and finished it off, just as i felt a vibration from my phone. I swallowed the liquid fast and set the empty bottle on the table, pulling my phone out. All i saw on my screen was James name and looked up frowning. James was sitting back on the couch, looking right at me. He nodded once making me look down and open my phone. Immediately my messages came up and i opened up the one from James. 'Carlos text me a little earlier and asked me to say sorry to Logan that shit got out of control. He...get this...doesn't want Logan to come around when Sam and his friends are around because they are homophobes and for some reason hate Logan.' I looked up fast at James who nodded shifting his eyes to Logan who was standing up, and rushing to David, yanking the controller out of his hand. He was giggling like a little kid and making my heart flutter. But feeling my phone vibrate again made me look down quick and swallow hard. 'I asked him why he was so willingly going along with those douche bags and he told me its' because if Sam doesn't kiss those girls, and their boyfriends asses, she's out of the sorority, and looses her scholarship.' I looked up again seeing Logan with his tongue sticking out as eh violently pressed on the remote elbowing David away who was trying to give him pointers, while tickling him. I wanted to scoop him up, and kiss him and hold him and shield him from every shitty thing in the world. But as he yelled at the screen, because he was just arrested by the cops and making Matt jump up and laugh right in his face, i realized maybe he didn't really need to know this. Not now anyway. Because as he shoved at both Matt and David and huffed back to James who was chuckling at him patting the spot on the couch by him. Logan jumped on it fast, and shoved his hand into a chip bowl yelling at David to sit down, so he could see the screen. He called him a bad name, making all of them laugh, including me. I caught Logan's attention as he threw some chips into his mouth and he waved me over to the couch.
"Come play babe!" I nodded slowly as i stood up and tossed my empty beer bottle into our recycling bin and shoved my phone into my jean pocket. Logan scooted closer to the end of the couch where i was walking too, and as soon as i sat down, he dove in, under my arm again giggling at Matt and David yelling at each other. I casually glanced over to James who was giving me a blank look. I shook my head softly and he nodded once also sliding his phone into his jeans clearing his throat softly. "David made me loose last time i tried to play. Pretty unfair, huh?" I glanced down seeing Logan looking up at me as his hand rested on my chest. I chuckled and nodded making him laugh and lean into me. he kissed my lips softly and then pushed harder into me grabbing another handful of chips throwing a Doritos triangle at David. Everyone kind of laughed around us and i did too, but i didn't feel right. Because i didn't feel like this year, his second year, and my first year of college, was going to be that different from his first. And it scared me.
Sorry i haven't been on in like...a year almost! Been crazy! But i'm going to be updating some stories and writing a few one shots here and there. I know a lot of people are not reviewing on BTR stories anymore and that's okay! I Love the few of you that still are and am going to keep writing no matter what! It may take me a while, but i'm doing it! Thanks!