Santana's P.O.V
Fuck me. Just...seriously. A human. A fucking human. Ugh! Since that kiss...I haven't spoken to Quinn because I just don't know what to say. I want her, I do but it can't happen. She's a human and I'm a half breed. Life is too unpredictable right now and I just can't risk it. I don't want her to think I don't want to be with her but I don't want to face her. I don't want to talk about it and I definitely don't want to hurt her.
I knew there was something about her. I knew it when I first saw her. I didn't know what it was though. I shouldn't have kissed her. I don't know what I was thinking but we were so close and she kept licking her lips while she was zoning out. She was just...I couldn't help it.
If the world was different...if this war was over or never even started I would have fucked Quinn's brains out yesterday and would probably be fucking her now. She'd be my girlfriend then wife and mother of my children but things just aren't the way I want them and I can't do it. I've been staring at my ceiling for the last hour and a half. I want to talk to Quinn, I want to talk to her about anything but she isn't even here. When I came back yesterday, she had left to Puck's already. Tina said Quinn said she wants to give me some space...I don't need space. I don't want space but...I have to do what I have to do even if it breaks my heart. I sigh and fold my hands behind my head as someone knocks on my door.
"Come in." I say and the door opens. Brittany comes in and sits on my bed.
"Let's talk." She says and I sigh.
"About what?" I say and she rolls her eyes.
"You know exactly what I want to talk about. I left you alone yesterday but today, we talk. Tell me what's going on?"
"Brittany, I really just don't want to talk about this."
"Fine but you need to talk to Quinn. She was really confused and sad and... you just need to fix it. And soon."
"Fix what? Brittany I can't fix anything." I say and she lays on her stomach and looks at me.
"Why can't you? Quinn wants you, you want her so be together."
"It's not that simple B. I just...I can't. There's too much going on right now for me to be in a relationship. I mean all of you have been in relationships for fucking centuries. My longest relationship was three months. I don't even know how to be in a relationship."
"It's not hard San. Just keep doing what you've been doing. Talk to her, listen to her, joke with her, protect her. It's all the things you've been doing but now you get to have sexy times and kiss her."
"As nice as that sounds, I doubt it'll be that easy."
"Love is easy...most of the time anyway. Just talk to her, you can work something out." I sigh and shake my head. It doesn't matter what I say because Brittany will just keep saying the same thing. I know she just wants me to be happy but sometimes life just doesn't work like that.
Quinn's P.O.V.
"You look like a wounded puppy." Puck says as he sits next to me and hands me a beer. I take it from him and shake my head.
"What are you talking about?" He rolls his eyes and opens both our beers.
"You've been sad since you got here. I thought we we're gonna have fun and do something stupid but all you've done is sleep and sit here looking sad. What's your deal?" He asks then takes a sip of his beer.
"You probably don't want to hear about it."
"I asked about it, didn't I?" He says and I nod.
"Did you know vampires have...mates I guess, too?" Puck shakes his head.
"I only know how to kill the bastards."
"Well they do and... I'm Santana's." I say and he nods slowly and sips his beer again.
"So, what's the problem?"
"We found that out yesterday and she didn't say anything. She just...ran. She ran away and I haven't spoken to her since."
"Seriously? That's fucked up." He says and I nod.
"So... you think she doesn't want you?"
"Well yeah. I would think that would be good news to someone." He nods.
"So, you have feelings for her?" I nod and take a sip of my beer.
"Is it love?" I nod again and he scratches his head.
"Maybe she's scared."
"Scared of what?"
"I don't know, hurting you? You might get your period and she tries to eat you and not in the good way." I glare at him and he shrugs his shoulders.
"Just saying."
"That's gross and Santana doesn't even like the taste of blood."
"What? How the hell are you a vampire who doesn't like blood?" He says confused.
"It doesn't taste good to her so she only drinks it because she needs too and she mixes it with other things to mask the taste."
"That's weird as hell."
"Not as weird as you eating raw meat for breakfast."
"Humans eat raw meat." I shake my head.
"Not three raw steaks Puck." I say and he shrugs.
"Gotta feed the wolf." I chuckle lightly.
"So were you born a wolf?" I ask.
"Yeah, an alpha."
"I know you're an alpha, you don't have to keep reminding me." I playfully roll my eyes and he nudges my shoulder.
"I can't believe you're a fucking human. Time traveling and hanging with vampires."
"Technically I didn't time travel, I was just sleep for years." I and he shrugs.
"Same thing to me. So she hasn't like called or anything?" Puck asks and I shake my head.
"That's because I didn't think you'd answer." I look towards the hall that leads into the living room and Santana is standing there against the wall.
"One of your puppies let me in." Santana says to Puck and he rolls his eyes.
"They're pups, not puppies." He stands and then looks at me.
"I'll be upstairs if you need me." He leaves and I take a few gulps of my beer. Now I have to face the rejection in person? Great.
"Hi." She says and I glance at her.
"Hey." I say softly and I hear her sigh.
"So um how's it been over here with Puck and his dogs?"
"They aren't dogs and it's been okay." I say and she nods.
"Good. How's the arm?" She says and I roll my eyes.
"Santana I haven't seen you in a day, not a month. It's the same."
"I told you to drink that potion. You probably would have been healed by now." She says and I shrug.
"Is that all you came for?" I ask and she sighs.
"Straight to the point with you I guess. I owe you an explanation."
"You got that right."
"Look...yesterday...when I left. It wasn't because of you or anything you did. I just...needed some time to think." She pauses and runs her hand through her hair.
"You're my soul mate and I'm happy about that. You're...perfect and I want to be with you."
"Then why did you run from me?" I ask.
"Because we can't be together." What?
"If you want to be with me and I want to be with you, what's stopping us from being together?" I ask and she takes a deep breath. This makes no sense. After what she just said I thought we'd be together but no.
"I can't do it. I can't..." I stand up from the couch and walk towards her, stopping right in front of her.
"Why can't you do this? You don't even want to give this a chance?" She turns her head away from me and looks at the floor.
"You're human. If we get together you could go fight and get killed."
"So could you." I say and she clenches her jaw.
"Even if this war doesn't kill you I'll still have to watch you die. We can be together, get married and have kids but at the end of the day, by the time you're at the end of your life span, I probably won't even look thirty."
"Then turn me." She looks at me with a shocked and confused expression.
"What? No. Even if I did that you'd be a full vamp and I'd die before you. I don't want you to be a vampire and I can't watch you grow old and die."
"So you just don't want to do this at all?" I ask and she shakes her head.
"I don't know. I just...if you could give me some time to really think about it." Ugh... I guess I understand what she's saying but that doesn't mean I like it. The least I can do is give her some time to think about it. I nod my head and she bites her lip.
"Thanks. So I... are you coming back home?"
"Not today." I say and she nods sadly.
"Alright. I just...came to talk to you. I'm gonna go." I sigh and nod as I move back from her. She gets up off the wall and hugs me hesitantly.
"Talk to you later." She says in my ear and I nod.
"Yeah. Be safe." She nods then leaves. I go sit back on the couch and finish my beer.
"You okay?" Puck says as he comes back in the room.
"Sure." I say as he sits next to me.
"It couldn't have gone to good if you're still here."
"She said she needs more time to think."
"Well help influence her decision." I look at him with a raised eyebrow and he keeps talking.
"Fucking walk around half naked all the time. Touch her for no reason...um find a way to grind on her, something."
"So you want me to tease her?"
"Yeah and the worse that could happen is that you get fucked and I don't mean that in the bad way." I chuckle and shake my head. Puck is always thinking with his other head but he may have a point. Maybe a very good point...