A/N: Hello Dears! It took me forever, but I'm back on track with my little fanfic. Hope you forgive me the delay!
As usually, nothing recognizable from Star Wars belongs to me, I merely came up with the plot...

Chapter 003 – Most Wanted

Count the days, Rey, coz you've got only a handful left…She didn't fully understand where this voice in her head was coming from. Was this the Force, her conscience, or was she simply going crazy?

How many hours have passed since she'd ran back to the cheap hotel room, hands trembling and short of breath? She couldn't tell.

Funny, how your hands only started to tremble after you slit that guy's throat….

Rey covered her ears with her hands, as if she could silence the ugly whisper. Childish gesture. Pointless, really. She knew very well the voice was coming from within her. And not much, if anything, could put it to sleep.

She'd been pacing the tiny room for skies know how long now, debating with herself about whether she should find Poe and tell him what she had done, but every time she'd opened the door of her room, she'd immediately closed it. No, she couldn't risk going outside and potentially getting identified by whoever was policing the Five Point Station.

Even though Rey hadn't seen any cameras anywhere in the alleyway where she had killed those two thugs, she was deeply convinced there must have been some. It would be simply too much of luck for her crime to go unnoticed.

And, even if it had gone unnoticed, why was she still there, hidden away in the hotel, instead of turning herself in? Why hand't she done the right thing still? Rey couldn't quite believe how easy it had been to end not one, but two lives. Yes, Luke had been right about her. She gave in all too easily to the Dark Side. Almost eagerly.

They would have killed me…Wouldn't they? It was self-defense.

Rey sank down onto the bed, suddenly too exhausted to take even a step more. The truth was harsh, but there was no point in lying to herself. She might have been acting in self-defense, yes. But she could have stunned them, beaten them up. This could have ended in so many other ways. Instead, she'd murdered them. And not because she'd felt threatened, no.

She'd felt angry, insanely angry for having been interrupted a private moment with the enemy. Her reaction put all Resistance in jeopardy.

I will tell Poe, she decided. They had to leave Five Points System and find another hideout, somewhere in the Outer Rim, perhaps even in the Unknown Regions, somewhere beyond the First Order's reach. Somewhere plain, with no distinctive features so that, even if she will see Ben again, he won't be able to figure out her whereabouts at all.

She was just about to get up and go look for Poe, when she felt the familiar sensation of all the noises being sucked out of the room. She held her breath.

"You can't stay away, can you," a familiar, husky voice right next to her. Amused.

"Don't flatter yourself," she rolled her eyes and got up from the bed to face him. Yet, she didn't look him in the eye, she crossed her arms and kept her gaze fixed on the wall a little left to his arm. It felt almost silly to her, but she didn't trust herself. If she looked at him, would he see fear in her eyes, would he somehow read her mind and realize something was terribly wrong with her?

Turns out she didn't even need to look at him, he saw right through her anyway.

"You're distraught," he said, matter-of-factly. Rey shrugged her shoulders, there was no point in explaining what had happened. Also, she didn't exactly like the idea of admitting any kind of weakness to Ben.

"When we spoke before, something…someone distracted you," Ben said, "Did they harm you, is this why you are so…shaken?"

"Do I look harmed?" Rey frowned. She took a step to the side, hoping to get away from Ben a little more. Not that there was much further to go in this room. She did not expect him to stop her, so when he grabbed her wrist, she froze in shock. It was still such an incredible, inexplicable thing to be able to actually touch through the Force, despite the immeasurable distance. She didn't think she would be ever to get over the strangeness of this sensation.

"You're shaking," he said, as their eyes met finally. Rey didn't know what to say, how to say it, but, yes, Ben was right, she was shaking.

There was the strangest energy passing through them and, even though there were no visions of the future in her head, Rey realised that Ben can see the scene from the alleyway. How was it possible that he could see right through her so literally, and right to the exact thing she didn't want him to see?

He let go of her wrist and held her hand instead. Rey let their fingers intertwine. There was some comfort injust simply holding his hand.

"Rey," Ben said, gently tugging at her hand and pulling her towards himself, "There is no way of knowing whether they would have killed you or not. You will never know that, so you might just as well stop torturing yourself."

"Is this what you tell yourself when you kill?" Rey asked, but made no attempt to pull away from him.

When they were just inches apart he stopped, and something inside Rey almost screamed in anger. She wanted this, there was no point denying it, not really. She wanted to feel his arms around her. It didn't even terrify her anymore. Perhaps it should.

"No, Rey," he answered. His voice was very quiet, almost a whisper. "When I kill, I know exactly what the outcome would have been in any possible way."

"So you just chose not to think about it?"

"Oh, on the contrary, I think about it all the time." He said and, finally, pulled her into his arms. Rey leaned in and let out a relieved breath. Her hands rested on his chest. She could feel the toned muscles through the thin black fabric of his uniform and her mind drifted to that night when she saw him shirtless. What if she wanted that again? Would the Force keep them connected if she tried to unzip the shirt?

"I think someone is going to interrupt us," Ben said looking towards the door. Rey glanced over her shoulder, annoyed.

"How can you even hear it?" she asked.

"I told you, Rey, you need a teacher." Ben answered with a smirk and, as if on cue, someone knocked on the hotel room door.

"Just don't kill him," Ben said, still smirking, and before Rey could retort, he disappeared. She closed her eyes and counted to ten, hoping that whoever was on the other side of the door would go away, but she already knew this wouldn't happen.

She felt a ping of jealousy that Ben had felt someone approaching even though he wasn't physically in the room with her. Or was he? It was so hard to define what was going on with them. Especially, when his presence was so distracting.

Oh, get a grip! She felt like slapping herself. She took a long breath and focused on her surroundings, her eyes still closed. The person on the other side of the door, their energy felt familiar. Friendly.

Poe!

She quickly reached the door and opened. Poe walked in without waiting for Rey to invite him in. He looked alarmed.

"We need to go!" he said, "Get your things, we're leaving in 15 minutes!"

"Why? What's happened? Have they seen me?! It was self-defence!" Rey felt the panic getting back at her, her hands were shaking as she started gathering her few things.

"What are you talking about?" Poe asked.

"Those guys…They attacked me…I-I mean; isn't that the reason we're leaving?" Rey halted to a stop and stared at Poe, who gawked at her as if she spoke Mandalorian to him.

"I don't know what you're talking about. Didn't you watch the latest holovid-news?" he asked and switched on the holovid projector. After a few seconds of self-adjusting, the holovid showed Rey's face along with the typescript spinning above her blueish head.

10 million credits, Wanted for crimes against The First Order.

Rey started at her likeness in a daze. It was obviously, without a doubt her face, except it seemed uncanny. It was oddly prettier, as if retrieved from somebody's memory. A very flattering memory.

She threw the backpack she was holding against the floor in a sudden rush of understanding and anger.

"Son of a bitch!"

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