Dreams

Dean awoke again in the early morning hours. He looked at his phone and saw that it was seven. He let out a groan and got out of bed. He stretched and headed his way to the bathroom. He got cleaned up and changed. He's next move was to go to the kitchen and see a coffee pot about coffee. He stepped in and seen the coffee pot waiting on him with fresh coffee in it. He smiled to himself as he poured a cup of fresh java.

"Didn't expect you up so early." Sam said from behind him

He turned and raised the coffee mug. "You know me Sam early to bed early to rise."

His younger brother rolled his eyes. "Yeah well you should have been asleep until about noon actually. Those pills usually keep you under for at least seven hours."

Dean shrugged. "Guess my body is used to getting little sleep. I'm not even groggy." He moved past his brother and into the library. New books were laid out this time and Cas glaring at one like it personally insulted him as he dragged his hand through his hair. "Dude don't stare at that so hard." He sat down across from him. "You'll damage your eyes, or maybe you'll got bald from grabbing your hair like that."

Cas removed his hand from his hair and looked up at Dean. "You're up already?"

Dean nodded. "Yup. Three hours of sleep that's all I needed."

He frowned. "That cannot be healthy, Dean."

He shrugged. "I've ran on less sleep." He cracked open a book. "Let's find me a cure before I start sleep walking."

The three men poured through all the books they had, combed the internet, and looked through the books again. They took several rest breaks. Cas ran out and got them food on several occasions and yet they found no answer. It was nearing midnight now.

Dean groaned and tossed the book he was reading. "Ugh we've been at this all day and we don't know any more than what we already did know."

Sam sighed and he rubbed his face. "I've been hacking cameras looking for Dr. Smith for the last hour. I haven't found her yet."

Castiel looked over at his board that he had created in his search for Kelly. His bore a worried expression.

Dean swallowed hard. Cas needed to be out on the hunt for Kelly, not here in the bunker on a wild goose chase. "Cas you know. I think that maybe finding Kelly is more important."

Cas turned and looked to him. "We can fix you're problem faster though. I don't have a clue about where she is anyways. You're my main concern at the moment."

He smiled to himself. "Okay buddy, if you want to help us that's fine too."

Sam looked at his brother than back to the angel. "I think we need a break from this. I'll try Rowena again in the morning." He looked down at one of his books and frowned. "You think with all these books one of these has the answer."

Dean shook his head. "We're probably overlooking it."

"Could be then again she could have created this curse and a cure isn't in our books." Sam got up from the table. "I can't make heads or tails out of what I'm reading so I'm hitting the hay. Good night guys."

"Good night." Both said as he left the room.

Dean sat for a second he didn't feel tired at all. He let out an annoyed sigh. "I'm not tired. I'm going to try the milk and sleeping pill thing again." He got up and brewed himself some warm milk and Cas brought him the sleeping pills. Dean took them. "Okay I'm going to try to get some sleep."

"Want me to tuck you in?" Cas asked

Dean shook his head. "Nah man, it's kind of embarrassing to have you tuck me in."

He tilted his head. "Why? I'm just trying to help you."

He smiled. "Please tell me you didn't tell Sam about that."

"No didn't feel that was important for Sam to know but you think it is I can tell him."

"No!" He shouted then realized Cas almost looked hurt. "No just he'll tease me about it endlessly so let's leave that out."

"What if that is what is helping you sleep?"

Dean laughed. "Warm milk, a sleeping pill and being tucked in. Lot of work to get one man to bed."

Cas rolled his eyes. "I'm just trying to help Dean."

"I know Cas. Good night." He said and picked up his laptop and headed to his room. He laid on the bed waiting for sleep to take him. He figured while he waited for something to kick in he would watch some Netflix.

Hours ticket by and Dean Winchester was no more tired than what he was when he started. Pills weren't kicking in the warmth from the milk had long left him and he was almost done with Sherlock. He shook his head binge watching a show probably wasn't helping him either. He put the laptop a side and closed his eyes. Think pleasant thoughts. He told himself. Them going to a beach, sun bathing, checking out ladies in bikinis, checking out Cas in his swim trunks. He shook his head; he was trying to sleep not trying to figure out his feelings for his angel friend. Now wasn't the time. He laid there thinking up anything to help him sleep. He rolled over and clutched his pillow and tried to day dream about him cuddling Cas. He wondered if the angel was a good at cuddling and let out a frustrated sigh. He picked up his phone he had logged off his computer about an half hour ago and it was now 3:30 in the morning. "Ugh." He groaned and rolled back over. Sleep just didn't seem to be happening. How was that possible? Those sleep aides should have knocked him out. Aggravated he decided to get out of bed.

He walked out of his room and stood there. He honestly didn't want to do more research it was beginning to hurt his head and he couldn't just lay there and stare at the ceiling all night. He heard the hush sounds of a TV. He realized Cas never slept. What exactly did the angel do all night anyways? He headed to Cas's room and knocked on the door. If he wasn't sleeping he might as well hang out.

The angel opened up the door. He had taken off the 'holy tax accountant' outfit and was wearing a plain shirt and sweat pants. He looked comfy as hell as far as Dean was concerned. "Dean? Why are you up?" He's face was a mask of confusion and he looked over to his TV. "Was I too loud? I didn't think you could hear me from you're room."

Dean shook his head. "Can I come in? I can't sleep."

He raised an eyebrow. "Even after the sleep aide? You need me to tuck you in?"

He laughed. "I don't think that's going to help. I'm not even tired." The angel let him in and Dean sat down on the couch.

They had one time went out and gotten a smart TV for Cas's room so he could watch TV and have Netflix and Hulu without hogging their TVs or laptops. The TV was mounted up on the wall. Dean looked up at it to see Cas had paused some anime.

"What were you watching?"

"One Piece. It's about pirates." He sat beside him. "You're really not tired."

"Not at all dude. I did everything I could think of to get me to sleep to and nothing helped."

The angel chewed on his lip then gave him a sideways look. "I could always use my powers and 'knock you out'."

"But that's not sleep. I usually feel pretty damn bad after you do that."

"Well it's a thought."

Dena looked back at the TV. "Is this what you do when we are asleep watch TV?"

"Sometimes I read." He sighed. "Being a creature that doesn't need sleep living with humans can be… a little lonely."

Lonely? Dean had never considered it. They were asleep and Cas was up wondering around the Bunker alone. "Well at the rate I'm going you won't have to worry about that for a while."

His lips made a thin line. "Dean humans need sleep. I'd rather not see you get sick."

Dean looked at him and patted him on the shoulder. "I'm worried about it too." He looked at Cas's unused bed. He got up and laid down on it. "Okay knock me out. Maybe if I get a few zs in it'll keep the crazy at bay."

"Technically you'll have to go longer without sleep before you go crazy." He got up and walked over to him. "Hope you find rest."

Last thing Dean seen was him placing his hand on his fore head. Darkness flooded his vision like usual when an angel does the knock out move. Dean hoped he would at least be out for a few hours or the sleeping pill would kick in then he would get some rest.

Dean was well aware he was dreaming. This wasn't like a dream he had ever had before. It was completely lucid. He had control of every action and move. He looked around and he was in a forest. He reminded him of Purgatory. He felt a sinking feeling in his stomach. He tried to whisk himself out of there but it didn't seem to work. Well he was aware he was dreaming but he couldn't stop it. Shit. He took a few steps forward. He was near a river he stared at it. He waited for a monster to arrive he knew it was coming.

"Dean."

He turned to see Cas standing there. Filthy, with a beard looking disheveled even for Cas. "Cas?"

The angel looked at the river then back at him. "You're in danger. I'm drawing the monsters to you." He walked over to the river and splashed water on his face.

Dean was too busy thinking how he looked weird with the beard before he answered. "It's a dream we are fine."

"Dream?" Cas asked. He looked back at him

Suddenly there was a flash and scream. It happened so fast Dean wasn't sure what happened. Next thing he knew there were vampires all around them and they had Cas. Knife to his throat the angel looked disinterested over the whole ordeal.

"Cas!" Dean screamed he went to move but he couldn't. "Come on I know this is a dream I should be able to change it!" He yelled in frustration. He looked up at Cas he's blue eyes looked dull and lifeless.

"Everything I do is wrong." He whispered to Dean.

Before Dean could say anything the vampire slit his throat and dropped the angel to the ground. Dean screamed and ran to his side and the vampires suddenly vanished. Dean pressed his hands to Cas's throat. He could feel the blood ooze out of his wound and through his hands. "Cas oh God no please no!" The angel took his arm and gave him a small smile. Dean felt everything fall apart he couldn't lose him not like this. He started to cry it hurt so bad. "Cas!" He cried out. He felt something shake him.

"Dean." The voice sounded so distant.

Dean looked around he felt someone shake him again.

"Dean calm down."

He closed his eyes and when he opened them again he was in the bunker. Confusion flashed over him and he looked around realizing he was in Cas's room. Said angel was beside him his hands on his arm. "Cas!" He exclaimed and flung his arms around his neck.

Cas patted his back. "Dean you were screaming out in your sleep."

Dean shook his head. "Nightmare. Horrible nightmare." He buried his head in his shoulder. Cas rubbed his back and Dean started to relax. "How long was I out?" He asked his voice sounded weak and he didn't recognize it.

"Barely ten minutes."

Dean let out a shuttered cry. He couldn't believe this was happening. "I've never had a dream so vivid." He buried his head in his shoulder further. He wanted to make sure the angel was fine. He knew in his heart he didn't go back to Purgatory and he knew that the angel wasn't killed there. He had Purgatory dreams before but not like that. They usually were him being chased by something he couldn't see and usually Cas saved him or he woke up one or the other. He felt tears fall from his face and onto his friend's cloths.

"It's okay Dean I'm here." He patted Dean on the back again

Dean let himself cry for what felt like a good ten minutes. He let himself cry it out. He thought about how he tried to send Cas away. What if the angel had left then what? He told him about his dream and how it was so real.

The angel shook his head and Dean pulled away from him. "I didn't die Dean. At least not there. I assure you I'm very much alive."

He nodded. "I know Cas." He wrapped his arms around himself. "I don't think I want to sleep again."

The blue eyed man nodded. He gestured to his couch. "Come on let's watch some TV then. It'll get your mind off of what happened."

Dean nodded and walked over to the couch. Cas turned the TV to Family Guy stating Dean needed something to cheer him up. Dean laughed and relaxed into the couch. He laid his head on the angel's shoulder and clung to his arm. If he let him go he might disappear he found himself thinking. He tried to relax his mind and focus on the comedy before him. "Don't leave me." He whispered to himself

Cas looked over at him. "I won't leave not as long as you need me."

Dean felt a pang of guilt. He would have to leave and find Kelly and he knew that. He clung tighter to the angel.

"You're okay Dean."

Dean looked up at him and smiled. He felt his soul lift up. Well Dean I'm pretty sure this isn't normal friend behavior. He almost laughed to himself. He wondered how the angel was feeling about this. Cas smiled at him however brief, Dean could practically see the love in his eyes. He buried his head in his arm and Cas patted him on the head. "Well at least while I'm cursed you have company."

"True. But Dean you really should try to get sleep when you can."

Dean nodded. "I know but I'll worry about it later." Personally he was enjoying this moment and didn't want it to end. He'd sleep tomorrow. Yeah tomorrow going 24 hours without sleep wouldn't kill him. He was confident that they would be able to find the witch, Sam had hacked all kinds of databases, Jodi had a be on the lookout issued on the witch, even the British men of letters and their mother was looking for her. Someone would be able to find her right? Right?