Gideon's POV

I stood under the shower with cold water streaming down my overheated skin. I could still feel the shadows of my nightmare which I had a few minutes ago. I can remember everything clearly, it felt like it just happened now instead of a year ago. A horrific sob left from my chest. I don't know how I can survive this pain, a pain more intense than what I went through since my childhood. After sometime, I came out of the bathroom with the towel wrapped around my waist. I went inside the closet to put a new pair of sweatpant and a t-shirt. I changed the sheets on my bed with a new one. Then I wondered outside the bedroom and went to my study to get some work done since I know I won't be having any sleep. When I switched on my computer, it made me take a sharp breath because of the picture on the desktop. I immediately opened the work file because it was too painful to stare at the picture. A picture of a person who was my life but was taken away from me because of a mistake I did. I shut off all the other thoughts and concentrated on my work even though it was really difficult. But after some time I give up. As the time was still 5 am, I decided to go for a run. I got ready in 5 mins and locked the door to my house. I texted Angus, my driver, bodyguard and a person who I care about more than anything

'I'm going for a run now. I will be ready to go to the office at 7.'

'Okay. Do you want me to come with you?'

'No. I want to go alone.'

'Okay'

Then I hit the button to the elevator. The door opened, I went in and put the code, then pressed the button to the lobby. The elevator began its descend and after like a millennium which was only 2 minutes, the elevator door opened to the lobby. I walked out and the night doorman opened the door and nodded at me. I nodded and went out. I put the hoodie over my head and with Eminem blasting in my ears, I ran in the direction of Central Park. My mind was completely blank without any painful thoughts. I kept on running even with my legs aching. After some time, all of a sudden I bumped into someone, a brunette woman. She loses her balance and was about to fall backward when I caught her by my hand around her waist and her shoulder. The contact of our bodies sent an electric shock throughout my body which made me freeze. A clear, embarrassed and fearful eyes met mine. They were the most extraordinary colour, powder blue and for an awful moment, I thought she saw right through me, leaving me... exposed. The look in her eyes changed from fear to anger in a second and she pushed me away. I took a step back.

'Hey, Can't you watch where you going. You just bumped into me from no where and almost made me fall on my ass'.

She snapped. I kept staring at her when my mind pictured her in my bed with my head in between her legs, pleasuring her with my mouth and her moaning my name and begging to come. I stopped my thoughts, alarmed at their direction. What the hell are you thinking, Cross?

She brought me out of my thinking by snapping her fingers in front of my face.

'Hello? What the hell are you staring at?' she snapped once again.

I opened my mouth to answer her and nothing came out. What the hell is happening?

She cursed something and before I could answer, she turned and ran away in the direction of the exit. I'm still standing there and staring in that direction even if she not visible anymore. I came back to my senses after sometime and I resumed my run. I was stil confused by my actions and thoughts when I reached my penthouse building. The doorman wished me and opened the door. I nodded towards him and went straight towards the private elevator. I pressed the button and the door opened. I went inside and put the code. It started its descend. I was staring at my reflection in the door and thinking about the brunette beauty. I never thought I would think about a woman like this once again. This kinda made me feel guilty like I was cheating on my angel even though she was not here with me anymore. I leaned my head back against the metal wall and closed my eyes. I don't know what really is happening to me right now. I felt the same way as I had felt when I first met Eva. And I wanted to do nothing with this feeling. Because the last time I acted upon my feelings, it left me heartbroken. What I felt for Eva was more than love. I couldn't live without her and even now too I can't live without her. But what hurts me is that she can live without me like as if I never entered her life. I stopped all this thoughts because I didn't want to cry and waste my tears on someone who doesn't care about me anymore. I want to forget her and move on like she has. Falling in love with someone is so damn easy but it's really hard to stop loving that someone. The elevator door opened and I went inside my apartment to get ready to go to my office. If I stay here any longer, I will be back to thinking about Eva and unnecessarily bring more pain onto myself. I need to concentrate on my work, it's my top priority right now. I have to get my head back into the game immediately from now on, otherwise all those assholes out there who hold grudges against me will try to pull me to the ground. I have not worked so hard to put up this empire and the name 'CROSS' to the top just to bring it to the ground like my father did. I'm going to put all this pain and sufferings somewhere behind my head like I have been doing all my life and be back to the way I was before Eva came into my life.

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I wore a black pinstriped suit with with shirt and pale blue tie. I went to the garage where Angus was waiting for me in the Bentley. He gave me that pitied look he has been giving me from past one year. I just ignored it and wished him. He wished me back and opened the door. I got inside and closed the door. He got behind the wheels and left for Crossfire. After 15 minutes, he pulled up infront of it. I got out before he opened the door and went to the entrance of my building. The security guard wished me, I just nodded and went inside towards the elevator. I got in and put the key so that it take me straight to the top and waited. After the door opened, i stepped out and went towards the glass entrance. The whole place was empty and dark as I was the first one to arrive. I took out the security card and scanned it to open the door. As soon as the door opened, the lights were on automatically and I went directly to my office. I put my briefcase on the table and took off my coat and hung it on the rack. I switched on my computer and it showed it was 7.30 am. I opened my emails and went through it. Scott came an hour after me.

'Good Morning, Mr. Cross. You are here early, Can I get a cup of coffee?'

'Good Morning, Scott. Yeah, get me the coffee and all the documents I need for the afternoon meeting.'

'Okay, sir.'

Then he turned and left. I got up and stood in front of the floor to ceiling window and stared at the view. My mind once again went to the girl I met this morning. I don't know why I keep thinking about her. Maybe I just want to fuck her and once i do that, it will stop. But how can I do that when I don't even know who she is and where she lives. I just have to wait until I meet her the next time. I put it all away once again and went back to work once Scott came with my coffee and the documents.

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So here is Gideon's POV

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