Tansy Nightshades (Four Parts)

Flower Language : Tansy - Neglected / Resistance | Nightshades - Dark Thoughts

Allen remembers how this all happened, and how much he misses what they thought were family, and Kanda tries to convince his partner to talk.

Part 1 : Hated Survival

It was busy around the safe haven, if you could call it that, everyone either getting a check up from Lenalee or having lunch, helping with the food, checking supplies or reporting back to Komui about what they are low on, or if just returned from a supply run, what they had found and what had happen during the run. For others it was different. Not many of the people in the safe haven knew about the origins of the apocalypse, Komui only knew because he was told, Kanda and Allen knew because they were unwillingly apart of the creation and Lavi knew because, well he rooms with Allen and the Brit tends to remember a bit too much.

The pigtailed nurse scurried through the halls apologising to people she has accidentally bumped into, saying hello back to ones rhat say hi to her, before finding the trio she was looking for in the mess hall, and having the three looked back at the her questionably, as she sighed.

"Has anyone seen Allen...?"

"Nope... He was gone before I woke up."

"I saw him earlier near the shower room when I was coming back from talking to your brother... that's about it."

They all looked at Kanda as the Asian looked up from his food, frowning at their expecting expressions. Why did everyone think he knew where the sprout was twenty-four seven? Honestly, just becasue they were partners, in most ways you could think off, didn't mean Kanda constantly knew where the teen was. They both needed their alone time from each other just as much as they needed it from everyone else, and their time spent together.

"What? I don't keep a leash or a tracker on him."

"Do you know? Komui needs him."

"I don't, but knowing the idiot he is, Allen is probably wherever his sniper would be."

"Thanks, Kanda."

"Wow. You called him by his actual name."

"Shut up Lavi. He does it more than you think."

"Really?!"

"Shut up Rabbit." Kanda turned back towards Lenalee a little confused. "Why are you thankful? I didn't say definitely. I only said probably... Also I could be lying completely."

The second eldest picked up his dish and headed to the area for the dirty dishes, setting it down before heading back to the table.

"Kanda?"

"I'll get him if it's important... Why do you need him anyway?"

"Oh... we got word back from Cross."

The hall fell silent as Kanda scowled at the name and everyone stared at Lenalee. It had been a couple of years since the duo had last heard from Cross before meeting Tyki and Lavi and being welcomed to this place.

"He won't go for that reason. He hates Cross."

"Plus... Didn't Cross die... like two years ago?"

"We didn't know for sure... He kinda just left us stranded in a building, with Maria and Mugen, and just ran..."

"Brother assumed him to be dead after Kanda and Allen told us that."

"I'll still get him anyway..." Kanda sighed, "Moyashi holds a grudge against Cross."

"Tell him to head to Komui... You as well Kanda!"

The three watched the elder walk out before Tyki yelled at the hall to go back to what they were doing and stop being nosey little bastards.

Komui had made sure that the sniper range wasn't so close to the safe haven, but wasn't too far either, just in case the snipers were needed, and thats where Allen was, because the colbalt eyes could see the figure from the barbed fence surrounding the area.

The shots rang through the air as a quiet bollocks was covered by the third shot, as the second one missed the target. A quiet sigh left the boy, as he rolled over and laid on his back, after shooting the last bullet in his ammo pack, his arms covering his eyes from the sun, before he raised himself a little with his elbows at the sound of dead grass and dirt being kicked away. Kanda stared at Allen, as the white haired teen, lifted himself into a seated position ruffling his hair to get the dirt dust out, before beginning to dust off the back of his shirt, and to turn towards his gaze towards his visitor, looking up at the blue haired man, whilst Kanda stared at the targets.

They would have to let Komui know the area would need cleaning and that the targets would definitely need replacing soon.

"Can I help you?"

"Not yet... Later."

"What do you need my help for later then?"

"Well. That comes later."

Kanda looked at his partner as Allen quietly hummed, just to stare at the Asian as he held out a hand to help him up. Sighing to himself as soon as he was pulled up with the help of his partner, Allen went to dusting the rest of his clothes off.

"Not me, Komui wants you."

"Oh? Pray tell to what I've done."

"This time... It's not because of you, Allen."

Allen paused his actions, and stared at Kanda, as the colbalt gaze turned towards the Brit, from the targets. A scowl laced cracked lips, when the sniper had refused instantly and picked up his gun. Kanda hadn't even said anything, and yet he just watched as the boy headed to the table where the ammo was, sighing to himself, before following the teen.

"Moyashi."

"No. Komui said himself, that bastard is dead. There is no way, he is alive."

"I'm not here just about that."

"Oh, so whatever else are you here for then, 'cause I am not really in a festive mood to be around people today, Yuu."

"Lavi said you were gone this morning." Kanda sighed as the younger froze, "Not that I didn't know already, since the only reason you were gone is because you were with me again."

"So?"

"You only do that when you remember Tim, Allen." Kanda looked at the targets, before turning towards the other again, the younger stood there messing with the cloth in his hand, nervously. "And you only come out here with Maria, if you've remembered something from before everything became the shitfest it now is."

"You... never showed it, but you really do... did... you really did pay attention to us."

"I always paid attention to everyone there Allen. Including Tim."

"I... I want it to stop." Allen turned to look at his partner over he shoulder then back to loading up the magazine for his sniper. "I don't know how much I want to stop, but... I at least want the flashbacks to stop."

"Then talk about them?"

Allen slammed the magazine on the table, the stray bullets knocking one another on the table, before he turned to Kanda and glared at his Japanese partner. Kanda stayed silent, letting the albino finished his rant, he knew that Allen had to let out the frustration the teen has caged up inside for years since their escape, and yes sometimes it meant arguing with him, but if that's what it took for the younger to release the building irritation and anger, Kanda was willingly to stand through the onslaught of insults it would bring.

In the previous years when they were younger, Kanda knew he wouldn't let this go, and more than likely kicked Allen's arse fifty times over for it, but now Kanda would, he would allow it now, because they only had each other now. They may have the people at the safe haven like; Lavi, Tyki, Lenalee And Komui, but they didn't know them like they knew each other. Lavi didn't know what to do when Allen had his relapsed memories, but Kanda did. Tyki didn't know how to handle Kanda if he didn't eat or if the elder wouldn't sleep, but Allen did. Lenalee didn't understand the scars or markings over the two, not like they did.

The group didn't know because the duo were afraid of being abandoned again.

"Oh and who to? Riley? Shantal? The guy that helps Jeryy?! Then what! Just expect them to not want to kill us? I mean after all this? Come on! You know as much as I do Kanda, we started this!"

"Moyashi!"

Allen felt his breath hitch, when the elder covered his mouth with his hand, grey eyes just glared and colbalt eyes glared back equally annoyed. Quietly the Brit sniper said something, though muffled, before the teen sighed and just removed Kanda's hand, stepping closer to the Asian, before dropping his head against the elder's chest gripping his hand tighter.

"Sorry. I didn't mean to shout."

"Just tell me."

"Kanda. You know I can't, last time I did, you left me alone for three days."

"I... Didn't mean to do it and you know that."

"I'm still not going to tell you."

"Allen."

"Yuu." The pale hand tugged at the buckle of the leather jacket that Kanda was wearing. "Just stop it, I'm not telling anyone. That's final, I can deal on my own."

"Alright." Honey skinned hands framed the younger's face. "Just don't run off."

"That's more you... Than me."

"Says the one who ran off this morning."

Kanda smirked a little and the small rosy flush that powdered itself against Allen's cheeks, before he leaned in and kissed the younger, the latter reciprocating the action, by pulling his partner closer by his jacket, and kissed back just as harder, as Kanda went to deepen the kiss. Though they were soon interrupted by their names being shouted from the gate.

"You took too long getting me."

"Seems so."

"Come on... Let's go see what the weirdo brother wants."

"I'll still need your help later though."

"Hmm?"

"What?"

Allen slotted the magazine into his sniper, before locking the trigger, as Kanda cleaned up the loose bullets.

"I'll see if i can make time for you."

"Come on. You always have time."

Slipping the strap over his shoulder he turned towards the Japanese man as their names were called again.

"Is this a whining Kanda, I hear?" Allen blinked, black faced before a small sly grin began to make it's way onto the Scouser's lips. "Bloody hell... Miracles do come true."

"Fucking fight me, Moyashi!"

"Nah. I'll pass." Allen waved his hand and chuckled at the elder. "Plus, what with all these supply runs and trips Komui's office lately to be shouted at... I don't think I have, babe."

Kanda scowled and glared at their red haired friend at the gate, before turning that scowl towards the albino as he looked back at his partner.

"You know you have time, and please stop with the pet names, also..." Kanda leaned towards the younger again, as Allen smiled. "You're just being such a tease now, baka Moyashi."

"Mm... That is a possibility... But," Giving the elder a small peck on the cheek, Allen stepped around the man, and continued walking to the gate. "We really should go now, BaKanda."

"I'll kill you one day!"

"I'm counting on it!" Allen stared at the sky, sighing a little, just to lower his head. 'I'll take you to hell with me...'