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Nic had woken early in the morning, Conrad was still sleeping soundly she looked over at him and couldn't help but feel herself tear up up again. She couldn't bare the thought of what their future would hold. Things were just so unpredictable and she hated that, she just needed things to be okay, to have a clear answer on whether things would be better. She was lost in thought when he woke, so she didn't even notice at first until he sat up slowly. "Be careful" she said softly.

"What happened?" he asked as he realised where he was.

"You were in an accident" she had said this to him before, but usually he didn't have much clarity, today however she noticed that he seemed more alert and aware. "Nic are you okay?" he asked when he noticed her tearing up. "How bad is it?" now he was worried she would give him some devastating news but instead she just hugged him tightly and broke down into tears. She didn't want him to see her like that but she couldn't help it, the hormones were really messing with her head, not to mention this was the first time she saw him, her Conrad. The man she knew and loved, he didn't look lost. It was a bittersweet moment. She felt so happy but at the same time,the fear that it wouldn't last brought sadness to her.

"I've just missed you so much" she whispered, holding onto him tightly, afraid that if she let go she would lose him. He gently wiped her tears once she had finally let go of him.

"Its okay. I'm fine, everything's going to be fine" he didn't feel like anything was wrong with him, he felt fine he didn't really realise the gravity of the situation. He didn't realise that she had a reason to be so upset.

"You're right...I'm sorry I've just been emotionally lately" she didn't want to tell him anything, she just wanted to enjoy him in this moment. She didn't need to bother him by telling him about how serious his injuries really were or about what had happened in Bell's office. She wanted to tell him about the baby but she felt scared, she didn't know if it was the right time. So she didn't say anything about it at all, instead she talked to him about other things the topic didn't really matter to her, just talking to him about anything and being able to hold a conversation with him was enough.

When he fell asleep again she got up carefully, she still had to work, unfortunately life couldn't be put on hold while she waited for Conrad to get better. She went home to shower and to change before heading back to the hospital. This was the first time she genuinely didn't enjoy her work, of course there had been off days before like if she had lost s patient but this was different. All she could think about was when she could see Conrad again.

She kept replaying the events of what had happened over and over in her head. If only she hadn't fought with him. If she had told him about the baby sooner maybe things would . She felt sick at the thoughts of that and just to add to her guilt when she had found him she didn't do anything to try and safe him. Now or course none of this was in anyway her fault but her mind made it feel that way. She kept thinking of the "what ifs" instead of focusing on the present.

Her day seemed to only get worse when she was told she had to go to Bell's office, he and requested to speak to her. She walked in feeling on edge the moment she walked in the door. Bell was sat at his desk, his arms folded. "A patient made a complaint about you earlier" he said as he stood up which seemed to only intimidate her more. "Oh and before you ask, no I can't tell you which patient complained for anonymity purposes" he looked disapporvingly at her. "You can't let your personal issues distract you from your job, this isn't just some office job where screw ups can be fixed, this is patient care. You can't fix it if your carelessness gets someone killed. This hospital can't afford anymore lawsuits"

"Well I did ask you for time off so I could deal with things and your response was inappropriate. I didn't injure any patients, just because I'm not as talkative doesn't mean I'm careless. I won't pretend to be happy when I'm not. You act like I'm asking you for special treatment. All I except is a bit of common decency"

"Well you can have all the time off that you want because you're fired" he said as he sat back down at his desk.

"You can't do that!" she yelled, letting her emotions take over again. She couldn't help it she was really sick of him doing whatever he wanted.

"I just did. Now get out of my office" he said coldly. She was going to tell him she would appeal this but she didn't want to make things worse and she didn't want him to be one step ahead like she usually was. She packed away her belongings and headed to leave, she decided she wouldn't bother Conrad since he was probably sleeping. She would just go and see him tomorrow.

When Devon saw her leaving with a box of her things it was obvious what was going on, Nic had been fired for the second time in her relatively short career. She wasn't sure how she would ever get another job at another hospital with that track record. "Hey what happened?" Devon asked as he approached her.

"What do you think? I got on the wrong side of hodad and it seems that the only thing he's better at killing than patients is my career"

"He won't get away with that. You're one of the best nurses here"

"Not anymore" she said before walking out without giving him a chance to say anything else. She really just couldn't face people at the moment. She just needed to be alone. She still had so much to think of, how could she support a baby with both her and Conrad being out of work. They would have nothing, even if his father had money that he would gladly hand over Conrad wouldn't take it. Nic understood why, she didn't really want his money or anything to do with him either but the fear of not being able to raise their child was getting to her. Maybe Bell was right...maybe the best thing she could do to help the situation would be to get an abortion instead of just being a problem and besides, what Conrad didn't know wouldn't hurt him right? Only problem with this was it would hurt Nic. She had already lost one baby . Could she really take the life of another?