Chapter 11
The rain was pounding on my body as I ran, I had no clue where I was going much less where I wanted to go I just wanted to get away from the staring eyes of everyone seeing my melt down. I haven't lost it like that before. why is this happening to me why can't I control the dreams they seem to be getting worse every time I sleep I see them. So angry with me for not being there blaming me for their deaths. Maybe it was my fault maybe I should be the one dead. I am forever haunted by their faces, tormented by the guilt of just breathing.
The rain started to slack off the farther I ran. this feeling I was getting though was all too familiar and I didn't like it. The feeling of being watched or followed has always bothered me but after that day so many months ago it has gotten worse. The thought of someone following me or watching scared me I noticed that I had started running faster and it was getting harder for me to breathe.
' why... why is this happening to me? Does everyone think i'm some freak now? why do i care I wouldn't even have met them or anything had my family not been slaughtered. Maybe i'm not meant to be around anyone i don't want anyone to know that i'm the last one of my family i was lucky to get away should I have run? If I hadn't ran could my family still be alive? The number one question that has bothered me was why me why my family and what do they want.'
falling to the ground chest heaving with each breath that i took from the excessive running. my legs were burning how far did I run where was I? I realized for the most part that I had run with my eyes closed not truly knowing where I was running but just trying to get away I didn't want anyone to know this horrible dirty secret about me that I had tried to get away from for month that keeps haunting me even when i'm not sleeping. when I open my eyes I realized where I was and I froze. I started to get dizzy from the lack of oxygen that my body wasn't getting because I had started to hold my breath. when I finally took a breath everything started to get clear again. how could this be how long did I run and why did I run here. i was trying to get away from my past not run right to it. the grass was unusually high in the yard and weed were everywhere. The walk way up to the door was barely visible. What used to be my beautiful home is now one of a nightmare to me. It was still raining lightly now not as hard as it had been when i was running. with luck i fumbled around to an old flower pot that at one point was home to a few lovely lilies now withered from severe lack of care. under the pot was a house key. My mom hid the key under there for me and Sota that way we could always get in if we lost or forgotten our own key. my hands were shaking as i tried to put the key in the lock it took me at least three tries. when i opened the door the smell of stale dust and what seemed like cleaner smacked me in my face. it had been at least six months since i was last here. Being inside my house never scared me or made me uncomfortable but now i really wanted to leave i thought i would always want to come home but now that i'm here all i can do is see death. As i walked farther in the cleaner smell got stronger it was coming from the kitchen.
' I highly doubt the lights are on but i guess there is no harm in trying.' as i walked around the corner to what would be the living room i started feeling on the wall for the light switch. click nothing. walking into the hallway just on the other side of the living room was a small closet where we kept all of our supplies like extra toilet paper or paper towels sheets things like that. Last time i was in this closet mom had me put the flashlight back up it had just got new batteries days before all of the horrible things happened so with luck i can find it again and get some clean cloths out of my room.
After about a minute or two i retrieved the old mag light out of the closet and i started looking around my house with what light that i had. Dust had collected everywhere all over the tables and pictures even the sofa had dust on it. I started up the stairs to my room the stairs creaked and it made me jump i never noticed that the step made that noise maybe it was because no one had used them in so long. i made myself walk forward at the top of the stairs i headed down the short hallway to my left was Sotas room as i walked passed i felt the strange urge to open the door. just to see if all of this really was a dream maybe he would be there playing with some new toy or playing his video games. i made myself walk on the next door to the right was my mother's just ahead at the end of the hall was mine. As i opened my bedroom door i notice that my room was covered in dust also and that whatever i had left in my dresser and closet are going to smell dust but i would have to say that is better than being soaked to the bones and cold. I changed into an old pair of shorts that i had left and a tank top that i got when we went on vacation the logo for the resort that we stayed at was written in bright green letters. i sat on the corner of my bed and started thinking.
'I wonder if Rin's freaking out? I hope she isn't worried about me, what about Shippo and Ayame and Koga i wonder if they are looking for me. would they find me? If they do what would they say. would they stop being my friends because of my past. all these questions and no way to find out unless i tell them or they find out what if they blame me too, and the new guy he was trying to wake me up i wonder what he thinks about me now. ugh i don't know what to think anymore. im even more worried about starting actual school tomorrow cause the school that we are supposed to attend i've been going to since i was a freshman i'm in 11th grade now. i really don't want to go but i guess i have to if i want to keep the promise to my mom and graduate. good thing i still have a uniform looks like i'm staying here tonight .
I shook the covers on my old bed and dusted the uniform off. then i set my alarm clock like i did any other time and layed down the only difference is i was alone now. as i layed there i cried and cried till i fell asleep there is no telling what follows me in the morning.
RIN'S POV
I stood there shocked I couldn't believe what i was seeing i have never seen Kagome act like this. She was always quiet and seemed to be in control yea she spaced out and seemed to be focused on something else most of the time but i never thought it would lead to something like this. Kagome started screaming like something was attacking her which woke me up and half of the other kids down the hall. Shippo, Koga, and Ayame were among the first few to arrive the new kids were here too. I was trying to wake Kagome up but she was still dreaming and started swing her arms around and screaming that she was sorry. I don't know what she has been through but what ever it has happened to her it truly has scared her to no end. my attempt to wake her up fail on so many levels and as Shippo stepped forward to try to wake her up he was shoved aside and the new guy that Kagome ran in to started to shake her the more she struggled against him the tighter his grip became on her and he started shaking her and finally after several good shakes her eyes flew open. She seemed hopelessly scared and when she seen all of us she took of running. i never knew that she could run so fast i tried to follow her but she was running so fast and was already so far ahead of me. I had to stop my chest was burning and my legs were aching and it was then i seen Kaede the look of concern on her face was very noticeable and there was something else there it almost seemed like fear or something wasn't right it's almost like she knew something we didn't.
i stood there for a few more moments trying to gather my thoughts and think of what could we do. i mean it's hard to believe that we have known Kagome for a while but truly know nothing about her she doesn't talk about her past or talk about herself period. Shippo ran up to me and a look of concern was on his face as sure as the rain was falling he was worried,
" Did you find her which way did she go?" Shippo asked me
" no and i don't know where she went she was way ahead of me and i think Kaede is just as worried as we are look." i said nodding my head towards the older woman.
" It's something but i don't think that's worry alone i think the scent of fear mixed in with some other emotions almost like she knows what's going on." he said i felt the same way she knew something and i don't think it's anything good.
apparently Kaede called the police to help find Kagome this is the first time i believe that anyone has actually left from here without being adopted. Kaede was talking to the man in uniform and she suddenly took a step back her skin turning an ashy grey something the man said wasn't sitting well. what the hell is going on here? This doesn't seem like a normal search and rescue so to speak. there is something more going on and it's not good at all. all of us was told to go back inside so that the adults could figure out what they were to do next. All of us was a little more than curious to know what was going on Shippo who was standing next to me was able to hear part of the conversation till Koga and Ayame walked up and Kaede noticed that they were able to hear and shooed us inside. They are demon and she knew that they could hear every word that was being said. Sometimes it's hard to remember that they were demons and not human. they just seem so normal to me now.
"What the hell is going on what's with the suits it's not like Kagome got far or is in trouble she was just upset and wanted to get away i mean really the worst that could happen is that she get lost. but there acting as if someone is going to get hurt or something blown up. ugh this is pissing me off we could have found her by now." Koga said angrily he was right nothing was wrong kagome just ran to get away from whatever she was dreaming about it's not that bad.
we sat there for a while and thought about everything that was going on it was silent now. which was rather strange i must say cause our little group was always talking about something lately we was buzzing about going to a regular school. i stared out the window trying to get a hint of what was being said but all i seen was heads shaking and lips moving hands flapping as people talked. the thing that caught my eye was the look of pure fear on Kaede's face second before her hand clasped over her mouth, that's when i knew something was wrong terribly wrong.