Chapter 18
After he kissed me, I pull away from him. "It's not that easy Hap. I can't do this. You're not losing me but I need to step back a minute. I need to distance myself from you and her. The stress isn't good for the baby so please just give me some space." I tell him. "Okay. Do you still want me at the appointment tomorrow?" he asks. "That's up to you. I won't keep you from the appointment but it's up to you if you want to be there or not." I tell him as I walk away and walk back into the guest room. I close the door and lay on the bed, sobbing.
A little later, I am laying there numb again when there's a knock on the door. It opens and Happy walks in with a plate of fresh fruit and a bottled water. "You need to eat." he tells me. "Thanks." I say as he turns to leave. He stops at the door and says "I love you." I just nod before he turns to leave, closing the door behind him. I spend the rest of the day in the guest room, part of it sobbing and the other part just not caring about anything but the baby before falling asleep.
I wake up the next morning and see it's 10am. I get up and shower. Eat some fruit and then get ready for my doctor's appointment. I head out to my car and see Happy pull up next to me. He gets off the bike and takes his helmet off and says "I'll drive." I shake my head and say "You can follow." He shakes his head and says "I'm driving my wife to the doctor. At least give me that." he tells me. I look at him and he says "Please." I hand him the keys and he leans down to kiss me and I turn my head. He gently grabs my chin and turns me to look at him. "I love you." he says before placing a soft kiss to my lips.
We get to St Thomas and head inside for the doctor's appointment and I haven't said anything. We get back into an exam room and the doctor asks the normal questions. "How's the morning sickness?" she asks. "Not too bad. I'm not sleeping though." I tell her softly. She looks at me and sees the bags under my eyes. "Well, I can give you something to help you sleep that won't hurt the baby." she says and looks at Happy and says "She needs plenty of rest." Happy nods and sees no judgement in the doctor's eyes. "Let's do an ultrasound. I want to check on the little one just to be sure." she says. She moves the wand around and we hear the little heartbeat. As soon as I hear it, I feel the tears start to fall and feel Happy take my hand and I don't push him away. Then she moves it a little more and we see our baby on the screen. "It's so little." I say softly. I feel Happy kiss my knuckles and the tears start to fall harder. The doctor looks at me and sees Happy holding me and says "I'll give you two a minute." before leaving the room. "I'm so sorry Happy. I'm so sorry." I tell him. "No baby. This is on me. All on me. I'm sorry. I'll fix this. I promise." he tells me. After I get myself together, we head out of the exam room and head home after scheduling my next appointment.
Pulling up at home, he says "I have to go back to work unless you want me to stay." I shake my head and say "I think I might follow you if that's okay. I need to talk to Gemma." I tell him. "That's fine babe." he says as he pulls me to him. "I don't want to lose you." he whispers in my ear. "I'm right here Happy but we have to figure this shit with Marley out. I can't handle much more of this." I tell him. "We will baby. We will." I pull away from him and say "I'll be right behind you." He nods before kissing me softly and saying "I love you little girl." I wipe the tears that have fallen and say "I love you too." before getting into my car and following him to the clubhouse.
We get to the clubhouse and I head into Gemma's office while Happy heads back to the garage. Jax walks over and asks "How's everything going?" Happy looks up at him and says "Baby's good. Her not so much." he says and Jax looks at him concerned. "What's going on?" Jax asks. "She's distancing herself from me. Telling me she loves me but that she wants to concentrate on nothing but the baby. She's not sleeping. Man, I gotta figure out some way to find out if that kid's mine before it gets here. I can't lose my Old Lady man and this stress ain't good for the kid." he tells Jax. "Let me call Tara." Jax says. He pulls out his prepay and calls Tara. "Hey babe...no, everything's okay. Just got a question...is there a way to find out paternity before the kid's born?" he asks and then listens for a minute. "Okay so how far along do they have to be to be able to do that?...Really?...That's great babe. I'll call you back." Jax says before ending the call. Looking at Happy he smirks and says "Tara says Marley is far enough along to do what she called an amniocentesis. She said they stick a needle in the mom's naval and pull out fluid and they can use that to tell paternity." Jax tells him. "Okay so how do we get Marley to do it?" Happy asks. "One more phone call." Jax says and pulls his phone back out. "Lowen...Jax Teller. Can you come by the clubhouse? We need your help." he says. "Great. See you in an hour." he tells her before hanging up the phone.
Jax and Happy walk into the office and see me laying on the couch. I sit up and they sit on each side of me. Gemma gets up to leave and Jax tells her to stay. "I called Tara. Apparently there's a procedure that they can do to determine paternity before the kid is born." Jax says and I look at him confused. "Tara said she can get her boss to do the procedure and that it's a common one that they do all the time. So it wouldn't put the baby in danger. But the only thing is getting Marley to agree to it and something tells me she won't." Jax tells me. "Then why tell me about it?" I ask. "Because Jax called Lowen. She's on her way over. He thinks she might be able to get a judge to sign off on a court order making her take it." Happy says. I look at him and ask "What if it's yours?" I ask. "Then we wait until the kid is born and if you're okay with it, we take custody." he tells me. "What if it isn't?" I ask. "Then when she has the kid and you have ours, you take that whore to the ring and beat her ass." he tells me. "Okay." I tell him and lean into him. I hear him sigh as his arms go around me. "Take Clara to your dorm and lay down with her. I'll come and get you guys when Lowen gets here." Jax tells us and we head inside. Once in the dorm, we take our shoes off and he takes his kutte off and we lay down together for the first time in almost a week. I snuggle into him and he just holds me as close as he can get me and I start to sob again.