August 8th, 1979

8

Papa keep making me do things. I get headaches. I tell him I hurt, but he tell me it is for the country. I don't know who that is, but apparently she be very important and we must help her. He gets angry when I fail at something.

He is angry now, and it makes me feel frozen. It is my fault. The science men say my hair too long. It mess up the metal net they put on my head. I thought my hair was getting pretty now it be to my shoulders. And it keeps my neck warm.

Papa has left, so I curl up on my chair, hugging my knees to my chest. Then he comes back. With a nurse. The nurse have a black block in his hand. It has poky bits on one side, and a cord on the other. He stick the cord into the wall and pushes something on the block. It starts to buzz and I tremble. I not like that sound.

"Stay still Eleven." Papa tells me. I do, until the man brings the block over to my head.

"Papa?" I whine, edging away from it.

"Don't worry Eleven. He won't hurt you. Don't be naughty." Papa holds my hand and I sit rigidly as the nurse brings the block to my head. I whimper as he runs it over my skull and the first lock of hair falls off of my head.