Chapter Eleven
I hear voices as I lay on something warm and very comfortable. I slowly peel my eyes open and I see I am surrounded by black eyes. My body jumps, soon regretting the sudden movement, and the eyes move away. The sound of a slow beep comes from my left and I notice that it is a heart monitor and there is an IV bag and a blood hanging next to it. I look at the faces staring at me and look for one in particular.
"He is not here, Marinna," Edward says.
"Where?" I manage to ask.
"Jasper has been missing since we brought you to the house. He is worried about you and could not take being here," Carlisle says. My eyes prick with tears and I blink to keep from crying. In seconds I am fighting to sit up and pushing everyone away from me to go and find Jasper. All I can think about is being in Jasper's arms and hearing his gentle voice. I manage to get to the back door before my legs give out and I fall down, hitting my head on the railing. Everyone scrambles to me, but Alice, Bella, and Emmett recoil backwards. Carlisle runs over and he looks at my head. Something slides down my head and I reach up to see that my head is bleeding. A roar echoes through the woods, a roar I know very well. I look around and see Jasper standing not to far from us. My hand reaches out to him, but he does not walk over to me.
"Jasper," I whimper. Jasper is standing still like a statue and he is not breathing.
"Marinna, we need to get you back inside," Esme says when I begin to get back up and try to walk to Jasper. He flinches back when I reach out to him and falter a bit. "Marinna, please, we need you to get back inside soon."
"No, let her go to him," Carlisle says. I reach Jasper, falling into his arms, and bury my face against his chest. He does not hold me close to him like he usually does and I look up at him to see his eyes are as black as coals and they are not the gentle eyes I love very much.
"Jasper," I say again.
"Go inside, Marinna," Jasper says. He pushes me back into someone's arms and I struggle to get to him.
"No, Jasper, stay!" I panic. My heart begins to beat quickly. "No, please stay with me! Stay with me!"
"She is having her panic attack, call Matthew out here," Bella says. I reach out again and my fingers graze Jasper's shirts.
"Stay! You... Jasper!" I scream and thrash around. Warm hands and arms hold me and one one of the hands cover my eyes. "Jasper, please."
"Hush, sweetie, it is okay," a soft voice says to me. I smell Jacob and Matthew and the tears begin to fall freely down my face. "You are okay, baby girl."
"Mama...Jasper..." I sob. Jacob picks me up, hiding my face from seeing anyone, and carries me into the house. Matthew takes my hand in his while the three of us go inside. My body begins to panic when I realise Jasper is not with us. "Jasper?!"
Jacob holds onto my tightly as best he can, but I fall out of his arms and I scramble to get back outside. Emmett stops me when I see Jasper and Edward standing outside. I scream once more for Jasper and fight against Emmett, knowing I am going to lose. Carlisle walks over and pricks me with something that begins to numb me. My eyes become heavy, my body becomes weak, my vision blurs with Jasper in it.
I awake again to the sound of the heart monitor and whispering outside the room. I look around to see if anyone is in the room, only to find that I am all alone. My IV is back in and I am no longer getting a blood transfusion. The door opens and Carlisle walks in with Jasper. I smile, but Jasper remains near the door. Carlisle sighs and then turns to me.
"Marinna, I want to talk to you about the attack that happened," Carlisle says. I blink in confusion and remain quiet. "Do you know how long ago the attack was?"
"A few days ago?" I say.
"No, actually it has been a few weeks now. You have been unconscious for almost a month now and I feared you would never regain consciousness again. You lose a lot of blood and the venom from the bite was fighting against your body. Your heart failed a few times and we fought to bring you back. While all this was going on, we noticed something that broke all of our hearts," Carlisle says.
"Stop beating around the bush and tell her already, Carlisle," Jasper growls.
"Yes, well, I am sorry to say that you have a small problem with your heart after the attack. Part of your heart is frozen and I believe it is from the venom from the vampire and your venom. It seems it has been going on for a few years now and was mostly affected during your pregnancies, which explained your heart problems," Carlisle says.
"So, I am dying?" I ask. Jasper closes his eyes and growls a little.
"Yes, you are dying and Carlisle is trying to come up with a way to keep that form happening," Jasper says angrily. I look at him and then look away when I see his hard eyes. "You and I are supposed to be together forever and this right here is making us not be together. Whatever Carlisle finds, then we will do it no matter the risks."
"Jasper, there are many risks and doing something to the heart could cause death," Carlisle says.
"I do not care, just find something that will let me have my wife at my side forever!" Jasper says. He storms out of the room and slams the door behind him. Carlisle looks at me with a sad smile and I smile weakly back at him.
"We were planning on having a big family and we were hoping to have another baby in a year or so. We promised to be together forever, he is just hurt from all of this," I say.
"Marinna, I will find a way to keep you like this and to live longer. I am not sure about a heart transplant, but I will look for other options. Heart transplants are complicated and do not always work," Carlisle says.
"I am sure you will find a good option. I have faith in you, Carlisle," I say. Carlisle leaves me and I burst into tears when the door closes. I am dying and it should be impossible for me to die like this. Mama, please help me through this.