Chapter Twelve

Jasper is still avoiding me and the children are always at my side, mostly Manny. I sit in on the couch with a blanket across my lap and covering my legs. I watch the children color in their coloring books on the coffee table in front of me, while Manny and Renesmee talk in the kitchen about Manny's homework. Esme brings me some tea and sits next to me to keep me company. I smile while taking the cup and continue to watch the children.

"Carlisle says you can go home tomorrow and he will stop by once a week to check on you. Is Jasper going to drive you all home?" Esme asks, knowing the answer to her question.

"No, Manny is going to drive us home. I am not sure if Jasper will be going home with us, he is still a little upset about everything," I say.

"He cannot be mad at you for this, it is not your fault that all this happened," Esme says. She places her hand on my shoulder and I look at her. "He is just scared, just like when the twins were born, and he will come to his senses in due time."

"It is okay, I am not too worried. Carlisle will find a way without having me be turned," I say. Manny walks over and he stands in front of me.

"Mama, are you ready for a small walk?" Manny asks. I am to walk an hour a day to keep my legs from becoming weak since I am unable to exert much energy as of late. I nod while Esme helps me up and Manny takes my hands in his. He smiles at me before helping me walk away from the couch, but we are stopped at the sight of Jasper and Matthew arguing on the patio. My heart begins to beat wildly as I watch, knowing that it will turn into a fight.

"Emanuel, take me outside right now," I sternly say. Manny does not argue with me and he walks me quickly outside. I am panting lightly when I get out the door.

"You cannot just avoid her! It is not her fault this happened!" Matthew shouts.

"Stay out of this! What I do is none of your business!" Jasper shouts back.

"Enough!" I scream, soon regretting it. "Stop fighting you two right now!"

"Marinna, you need to be inside," Matthew says. He walks over to take me back inside, but I growl.

"You two need to cut this out and stop arguing. This is getting ridiculous and I hate that everyone is either ignoring me or fighting because of me. Stop it!" I growl. Manny holds me up when I falter a bit and I see the sudden panic in Jasper and Matthew's eyes. "You two, stay there and away from me. Matthew, stop being an ass to Jasper and help Carlisle find something to help me. Jasper, do not come near me since you think I made myself sick and you decided to avoid me the moment I woke up."

"Come on, mama, you have used up all your energy," Manny whispers. He leads me inside, but takes me to my room. Renesmee and Esme walk with us to help me get situated in bed. I takes me the time to get up the stairs that I realise I am crying. Manny kisses my cheek when we reach the top and turn to go to my room. I wheeze a little and stagger a bit. "Easy, mama, we are almost there."

"Manny," I say. I fall to my knees and wheeze more. Manny kneels next to me, while rubbing my back in slow circles.

"It is going to be okay, mama," Manny whispers. I lean against him to rest a little and close my eyes for a moment. "Nessie, can you go get Uncle Emmett?"

"I will go get him to help you get your mother in her room," Esme says. I shake my head and try to get to my feet. Manny helps me and we make the rest of our way to the room. Esme puts the pillows up to allow me to recline back. Jasper is at the door when I look around the room and he is standing stiffly.

"Could we have a moment to ourselves?" Jasper asks quietly. Once I am situated, everyone leaves us quickly and Jasper closes the door. I look away from him trying not to let my tears fall from the pain and the hurt I am feeling. Jasper walks over and he sits on the edge of the bed. He takes my hand, but I take it away the second his skin touches mine. "Marinna."

"No, you avoided me after I woke up. I am not going to talk to you after I yelled at you for arguing with my brother. You had your chance to talk and you lost it," I say. Jasper sighs, moves up the bed and he turns my head to look at him. His gentle hazel eyes are filled with worry and sadness and I felt like I was going to drown in them with the want to hold him close and tell him everything will be okay.

"Marinna, I was scared and I still am. I cannot lose you after all that we have been through all these years. We vowed in being together forever and now that is possibly going to end if we do not figure out something. I do not blame you for this happening, I blame myself for not knowing this has been going on and that I am unable to do anything but do the one thing you wish to never happen," Jasper says. "You mean the world to me and I am not sure what I would do if I lost you. I am sorry for not being here when you need me and I promise to be at your side through everything from now on."

"Jasper," I say with a small smile. Jasper leans in to give me a sweet kiss with his hands cupping my face. We deepen the kiss a little and my heart begins to beat wildly. It begins to beat faster and it stops a few times. Jasper pulls away while I grasp my chest and gasp in pain.

"CARLISLE!" Jasper shouts. I grab his arm when my body begins to convulse and I close my eyes. When I open them back up, Carlisle is there looking me over.

"Her heart is failing, she is having a heart attack. The venom has spread," Carlisle says. I squeeze my eyes shut my body goes numb. "Damn it, she is shutting down. Jasper, keep her awake."

"Marinna, open your eyes and look at me, baby," Jasper tries to say soothingly. I open my eyes a little and look into his eyes. I am rasping while Jasper caresses my face with a sad smile on his face. "That is it, baby, keep looking at me and stay awake. Carlisle is going to make you better, I promise. We will live together forever and see our kids grow up and kids of their own. We can have more babies if that is what you want later on."

"Jasper, she is going to need to put under. It is the only way to help her right now," Carlisle says. I try to shake my head, but my body does not move. Jasper kisses my forehead and them my lips.

"I will be here when you wake up," Jasper whispers. I am pricked and something burns as it is pushed into my system. Everything goes black around and the it is silent once more. Once again, I am in a coma with no way of making my choice of treatment. Someone help me not kill someone when I wake up.