Chapter Fourteen

I feel something burning as I am lost in the darkness that cradles me softly. My body feels like a small flame is being dragged along my skin slowly. I listen to the silence that is filled every now and then with old lullabies from mama or the ones I used to sing to the children. The image of mama appears sometimes to give me someone to talk to, but I usually spend most my time replaying old memories of my past. I am watching a memory of when Annabelle was brought home for the first time and how all the children were so excited to see their baby sister. Jasper was such a proud father when we held a little party for Annabelle a few days later. The memory changes to Jasper's face from Renesmee's gift to tell me what is going on.

'Marinna, we have found something to help you. But, it requires surgery and I fear you will not like it. It will mean that Matthew will die to give his heart to you and be turned a little bit after. I am sorry that you do not have the ability to make this decision on your own, but it is for the best right now. Forgive me,' Jasper says in the memory. I begin to panic at the thought of Matthew giving me his heart and feel myself begin to panic. I cannot lose my brother just yet! My mind becomes fuzzy, as I try to scream to wake up and tell them my thoughts on it. But, I am trapped in the darkness while letting out a silent scream. This place is horrible, but everyone says you can hear people around you and you see your past or something like that. This sucks beyond the extreme!

I wake slowly, what feels like hours later, and there is pain in my chest. It is a horrible burning and throbbing pain. My eyes scan the ceiling slowly and methodically while my body assesses the parts that hurt the most. Once my body gives me the okay to turn my head, I begin to look around to see I am in a hospital room with many things to tell me to get better soon. The door opens accompanied with a small gasp a few seconds later. I turn to look at the door to see that it is Rachel at the door holding her daughter.

"Oh my god," Rachel says. She runs out of the room allowing me to roll my eyes and gives the chance to try to test the rest of my body on movements. I am close to get my toes to the ground, when the door is kicked open and the everyone in both packs runs in to see me.

"There is a door there for some form of privacy, you morons!" I growl while getting completely on my feet. Sam and Jake run to my side to help me stand, but I bat at their hands to make them not touch me. "Touch me and you will lose a hand or two."

"Marinna, you need to calm down," Sam says.

"I need to calm down?! I went to sleep knowing I had a heart problem and was put in a coma after having a heart attack! A heart attack! I wake up in a hospital with a horrible pain in my chest and you want me to remain calm?!" I growl. My heart monitor goes off and I yank the cords off of me. "Shut up machines! You are the reason I am in here!"

"Marinna," A soft voice says. I ignore it, trying to make my way to the bathroom to do a full body assessment. The door slams shut before I pull the flimsy gown around me. I close my eyes when they graze over my chest to a bandage running down the middle and where the pain was radiating from me.

"Where is she right now?" Jasper's voice asks. There are some whispers, that I tune out, and I continue to inspect myself. The door opens a little and I let out a roar.

"Stay out! I do not want to speak to anyone right now!" I kick the door a bit and cover my bandage a little when it begins to hurt again. It is quiet on the other side of the door, before a soft knocks echoes through the bathroom.

"Marinna," a voice says that I suddenly gasp at. My feet take me backwards to the wall and I grab a robe that was placed in here coincidentally. The door opens to let Matthew in and he has a small smile on his face. He is dressed in the hospital gown as well and he has a bandage on his chest just like me. Tears fall down my face as my eyes look him all over and into the face that I have been looking at since birth.

"You are alive," I say, my voice cracks a bit. Matthew walks over to me, but I panic a bit.

"Mari, relax," Matthew says. He walks over slower and he puts a towel down to sit on the floor with me. Our knees are inches apart and we look each other in the eye. His eyes seem to be changing colours to colour the Cullens have.

"Mattie, why?"

"It was to help you live longer, Mari. We both knew I would be turned eventually and this is a good time. You get to have a fresh beating heart and mine becomes frozen forever."

"But, what if this happens again? We don't have another you to do this again."

"You will be okay. Come on, you are needed in your room for your exam." Matthew stands with a hand to help me up, but I shake my head. "Marinna, get up please."

"No." Matthew raises a brow and keeps his hand held out. I push away, but he brings it right back. We continue this for a few minutes like small children, when the door is opened swiftly and loudly. Jasper stands at the door with Sam, Jake, Emily, and Carlisle behind him. I pull the robe around me when Jasper walks over.

"Baby, you need to come out," Jasper says.

"I did not want this. Kill me," I murmur and curl up into a ball.