Emmett led me through the pitch darkness in his house. I had a deep pit of fear deep down inside me though. A fear that he was going to turn around and turn out to be my father....a nightmare.
A nightmare that I actually lived in and couldn't escape from,because I'm actually awake right now.
But I'm putting my trust in him that he's not going to take advantage of me. And it's taking all my courage to not pull away from him and run back outside to freeze to death. Because in my life death would be a blessing to me.
"You alright sweetie pie?"he asked in the darkness. In answer I tightened my hold on his big warm hand. "Take that as a yes then."he said.
He halted in front of me and opened a door,then flicked on a light. My eyes instinctively closed at the sudden bright light. I blinked rapidly,trying to rid my vision of small flashing lights in my eyes.
He pulled me with him and closed the door behind him and let go of my hand. When he pulled away,I suddenly felt so empty...and not wanted. I bit back tears,knowing that he'd think that my reason for crying would be ridiculous. But I stayed near the closed door as he went to his dresser and got some clothes.
The breaths that I took in came in quivery with fear. I backed against the wall until my back rested firmly against it. Then I fell to the floor onto my knees. Panic tightened in my throat. Cutting off my air.
I started to shake and took in gasping breaths. I'm having a panic attack...
Emmett was at my side within a second. His strong arms wrapped around me and he held me against him. "Shh,Rosalie. Calm down,no one is going to hurt you. I won't hurt you."he said in a soft soothing voice,but sealing his words with an invisible promise in those soothing words.
My throat un-constricted and my breaths came back to me normally,instead of the gasping panicky breaths that I had a moment before.
Emmett's hold on me loosened,he was going to pull away from me again. I grabbed his arms with my hands and tugged him closer to me. He tightened his hold on me and pulled me closer to him.
He was sitting on the floor next to me and he pulled me onto his lap,and held me.
"Why are you being so nice to me?"I asked.
"Why wouldn't I be?"he asked.
"You don't know me,yet you take me to your home..and don't take advantage of me in my vulnerable state."I mumbled.
He stiffened. "Rosalie...did someone take advantage of you when you were like this?"he asked,venom obvious in his voice.
"No."was all I said to him.
"Then who did this to you?"he spat. He took my hang gingerly and pulled it out for both of us to see. A day old bruise was on my hand,bright purple. "And who did all the rest of these to you?"he asked menacingly.
I pulled away to see his voice. "Why do you care?! You don't even know me!"I said,my voice rising.
The next thing I knew I was on my back on the floor,with him above me. His eyes were filled to the brim with anger,and his eyes looked right through me.
"Because I don't like to see innocent people getting hurt."he said.
Tears fell from my eyes. "I'm not just beaten by him. I'm raped,hit for no reason,and beaten severely for things I do that go against him."I said,my voice thick.
A sorrowful look over came him. "Rosalie...who did this to you. Please tell me."he pleaded.
I scoffed. "These tears just flow without reason. I don't need your pity Emmett Cullen. I've been getting treated like this ever since my mother was killed,he got rid of his first play thing,then took me as a replacement."I sobbed.
His eyes opened wide with shock. "Your father is doing this to you?"he asked.
Sobs broke loose from me. "Yes! Yes it's him! He's the one that gave me all these bruises,and cuts. Every. Single. One. Of. Them."I said,stressing out the last five words.
"Let me up so I can get dressed,then I'll answer any question you have for me. Okay?"I said.
He nodded silently and let me up,then handed me my underwear,bra,and some sweats and a shirt. They must be his.
"I'll leave you alone so you can dress."he said. He started for the door,when I pulled him to a stop. I didn't want to be left alone. I needed his company in order to feel safe.
"No! Please stay...please."I begged. He looked at me and nodded. "Just face away,when I'm done I'll tell you."I added.
He smiled and nodded. "Thank you."
"No problem."he said. Actually I was more grateful to him then he'll ever know.
I dressed quickly in the clothes he'd given to me. I turned to see him. He was turned around like promise. I walked over to him and tapped him on the shoulder.
"I'm done."I said. He turned to me and smiled.
"You wanna talk...or sleep?"he asked.
"I thought you wanted to talk."I said.
He shrugged. "We can talk right now if you want,or in the morning...so you can get some sleep. It's 10 pm right now."he said.
Really 10 already? How had time passed by so fast? "Um...I sorta want to talk,now that you brought it up."I said,looking away from him.
"Okay." was all he said. I sat down on the big bed,it surprised me at how squishy it was. He scooted back to one side of the bed and laid down on the pillows.
"You live alone?"I asked. The I felt sudden embarrassment from my question to him.
He merely smiled. "Yeah. I do. My family come over to visit often though. It's practically like they live here with me. But yeah I live alone." he said.
I nodded. He patted the spot next to him. "You can lay down if you want to. I won't touch you. I promise."he said.
I hesitated at first but then crawled up farther on the bed. But instead of laying next to him,I laid my head down on his chest. "You mind?"I asked.
"Not at all."he said,his voice suddenly hoarse.
I snuggled closer to him,trying to get warm and comfortable. I ended lying half on top of him before I actually settled. "I'm sorry..."I said. I blushed deeply,even though I couldn't see his face.
He laughed and wrapped his arms around me. "Don't worry about it. It feels nice to actually have a girl here once and a while."he said,with a smile in his voice.
I laughed and then fell silent.
"Where is you family now?"I asked suddenly.
He stayed quiet for a moment. "Hmm...I think they went over to dinner at someone's house. I didn't want to go,I'm the oldest in the family so I didn't have to go."he said. "Why?"
I snuggled closer to him before I answered. "If you would have went...I would have been frozen to death right now."I said.
His hold on me tightened. "Rose....I'm so sorry."he said,holding me closer to him.
Even though I had gone so long with dealing with this alone,I now needed the comfort he offered. And I gladly took it. I needed someone to fall back on right now.
"Can....I ask how it started?"he asked,his voice guarded.
Pain stabbed at my heart,but I ignored it. "It started a long time before I was born. My mother told me the story. She met me father,he was kind and gentle. She fell in love with him,she fell for his rouse. After the honeymoon the beatings and the raping started. Soon she got pregnant with me. He beat her even when she was pregnant with me,when I was born he hit me too. When I was 5 or so my mom told me how it started,and that I shouldn't expect her to be alive for much longer. 8 years later..when I was 13...he murdered her. He...drowned her. And I watched him do it."I said.
My sobs broke throughout me and tears rolled down my face at the memory of her dead body lying there,lifeless in the water..her empty eyes gazing back at me.
Emmett was sitting up now,with me gathered into his arms. He let me cry on his shoulder. "Shh...sweetie pie. You should sleep right now,okay?"he said.
I gazed back up at him through my tears. The image of him swirled in the tears,I nodded mutely and then drifted off to sleep in his strong embrace within minutes.
My eyes fluttered open,it was dark out still and I couldn't see were I am. I heard calm east breaths behind me. Fear struck through me...was I dreaming about Emmett? Or was I actually with him?
I lifted my head slightly so I could get a better look. The darkness was inky and thick,making it difficult to see. But I was defiantly not at my father's home...I actually felt like I was home...home...that word had never had any significant meaning to me ever. Not until right now.
I looked over my shoulder. Emmett was sleeping,with his arm tightly around my waist,like he was afraid I'd run away.
I smiled. I would never run away from him. I don't know what it is,but I felt as though I could trust him with my life...even though I just met him.
I looked around for a clock,and got no luck. I didn't want this peaceful night. I wanted to stay here in his arms forever.
I turned around in the bed,so that I was facing Emmett. His grip tightened on me,and he pulled me closer to him. I face ended up being under his chin.
The covers over me,and his body pressed against me made me break out in a light sweat. I waited until his grip on me eased up a bit and then I crawled away from him and got out from under the covers. The air in the room was cold and I started to shiver immediately.
Emmett grumbled something in his sleep and sat up. I stayed on the edge of the bed were I was,but I watched him in the cover of the darkness. He looked around him and sighed.
"She must have left."he said to himself groggily.
I smiled,he was missing me. He sighed again and put his face in his hands. I pressed my lips in a hard line,trying to keep back my laughter. "She didn't even say good-bye before she left."he said sadly.
That did me in and I let out a giggle. He jumped as though ice had been pressed up against his hot skin. "Rosalie? You there?"he whispered to the darkness. I got up off the corner of the bed and tiptoed over to him as quietly as I could.
"Rosalie? I know you can hear me. Are you hiding from me?"he asked in a mock growling voice.
I held back my laughter with all my might then I wrapped my arms around him from behind him. He jumped,that made me broke out laughing.
He laughed with me and pulled me down onto his lap.
"I see that you're feeling well."he laughed,smiling in the darkness. Even though he couldn't see my face I blushed deeply.
"Maybe. I didn't think it would be right to leave without thanking you first."I said.
"Your leaving? Why? Where are you going to go?"he asked,sadness coming to his voice.
"I don't want to impose on you. And I was going to go back to his house...I can't stay away forever. All my belongings are there. Including the only pictures I have of my mom."I said,hugging him.
He hugged me too,but still held me.
"Rosalie,I don't want you to leave and go back there without me."he said sternly.
"Emmett...what do you mean?"I asked.
"I mean...that I'm not letting you walk right back to him,he might kill you."he said.
My heart swelled at his concern,my heart felt as if it were about to burst from his kindness. "Emmett...you've done so much for me already. You helped me when no one else was there too. But I can't ask you to keep being nice to me."I said,my voice became strained and pain started to knot in my stomach.
Because I knew that if I left...I may never see him ever again. And the thought of never being able to see him just killed me. I don't know what was causing me to feel this strongly about him. But....I don't know why. My feelings for him are so strong,and I didn't want to let them go. I never wanted to let them go.
The gave me meaning and purpose in my life for the first time ever.
His hold on me tightened with anger. "Rosalie,you might as well quit arguing with me. Your stuck with me now. Deal with it."he said sternly.
He released me for a moment and left me sitting on the bed. He flicked on the light a second later.
"Eh."I complained. I let my eyes adjust to the bright light before I looked at Emmett.
He was now sitting next to me,and he looked angry. His reaction to what I said puzzled me.
"What's wrong with you?"I asked "What do you mean that I'm stuck with you?"
His gaze bored into mine,making me shiver from the heat of his gaze. "What I mean is this."was all he said.
Then he pressed his lips to mine.
AN~
HI!!!! I finished chapter 4!!! yay!!! I'm going to get back to work now!! I hope you enjoyed this chapter!! I sure enjoyed writing it!! :D ~FH17