Pain throbbed all through my head,but I couldn't open my eyes.
Flashes of my dead mother went through my head,sending fear and sadness through me. But still I didn't wake up.
Am I dead?
Is this the after life?
Flashes of horrible memories in the eternal darkness? No wonder everybody fears death. It's scary as hell.
The flashes of my mother died away,but the memories of my father's angry face and pain from his blows came over me.
That's when I screamed and tried to wake up. But nothing but the waves of pain were with me. No other feeling.
Please! Please let me wake up!
I don't want to remember these memories!
But no matter how much I screamed,no light came from the depths of darkness.
I wanted to feel the warmth from Emmett. I wanted to see the smile he gave me that made my heard ache with some unknown feeling,and makes my heart skip beats. I...I want to see him again. That's all.
I wanted to cry,but I can't...I don't know why,but I miss him,so so much.
"Rose...Rose wake up. Come on sweetie pie."
His voice rang through my head,then I opened my eyes to a blinding light.
I blinked to clear my vision.
Snowflakes fell gently against my cold numbed skin,I felt nothing from their gently touch.
A blurry face hovered just inches from mine. My vision cleared.
Revealing a beautiful pixie face filled with concern.
"Are you alright honey? Can you talk?" she chided in a high perfect voice.
Unable to speak, I tried to nod.
She frowned. "I'll take that as a no then."she sighed.
"Let's get you up then,and warm you up."
She took my hands in hers and pulled me up.
My entire body was rigid stiff from the cold. "Oh gosh! You're cold! So cold!" she yelped.
I tried to answer her,but instead of speaking I coughed once and hard.
"Don't try to talk honey,you'll just cough up more blood." she warned. I nodded,then fell back into unconciousness.
I don't remember anything that happened after I blacked out. I just felt the damp bitter cold around me,but heard no sound,and felt nothing else.
I opened my eyes,just to find more darkness around me. Fear gripped and tightened around my throat. Air was cut off as my throat constricted.
Another panic attack.....
I tired to pull in air,but failed misrabley. I sat up and put my head between my knees,then took in deep panic filled breaths. Each breath I took in burned my dry throat. But soon after,I was calm again.
I withdrew my head from between my knees and looked around. The room I was in was pitch black with night and had a cold edge in the air.
Where am I ?
What I back at Emmett's?
Or back at my father's?
My blood ran cold at the thought of being back there. To be beaten unitl on the brink of death,again,and again.
Though to thought of seeing Emmett again sent a wave of happiness through me.
Why does me make me feel this way?
The better question is 'how' does he make me feel this way? Because he's the only one to ever make me feel these strange feelings.
I started to shiver from the small chill,I hate being sensitive to the cold. I moved on the bed I was lying on. It felt familiar.
My heart shuddered. I'm back at Emmett's house!! Happiness swelled up in me so much that tears came to my eyes.
But,I can just see his face drawn in anger,and him not being able to understand why I left in the first place.
I left because he was so kind to me, I didn't ask anything of him. He accepted me with open arms. I don't want to hurt him,so I just left.
I heard very soft mumbling voices. People out in the living room. I felt the sudden urge to walk out the door of his home,again. But I knew that I couldn't muster enough strength or courage to do it again. Emmett is right. I am stuck with him.
The door opened then,and the light turned on. I jumped with surprise and looked at who it was.
It was the pixie girl. Literally pixie. Short height,the pixie hair cut,and even the heart shape face to match.
She smiled at me.
"You're awake,finally."she laughed.
I nodded,but kept silent.
"Are you feeling better? Or are you...you know worse?" she asked me.
I shrugged. I didn't want to talk at all.
"You're not going to answer me are you?"she asked,with a sad smile on her face.
"I'm not meaning to be rude,I just....I don't know. I'm sorry."I sputtered.
"It's fine,it's okay..I'm Alice by the way."she smiled sweetly,
"I'm Rosalie. Nice to....nice to meet you Alice." I said,looking away from her happiness brightened face.
"So your the one that's staked a claim on my brother's heart."she said in a happy high pitched voice.
I looked at her. "What do you mean?"I asked,feeling heat gather in my face.
"I mean my bro is crazy about you."she laughed.
"How....what?"I asked in confusion.
She laughed and plopped on the bed next to me. I flinched in response,and then gave her and apologetic glance.
"It's fine. But Emmett saw you at the park,at the library. And it's like he fell in love with you instantly."she babbled.
I let her babble. 'like he fell in love with you instantly' What!!
I huffed instantly in shock then felt pain in my heart. I gripped at my shirt in a fist. My breathing became heavy and stressed.
"Are you okay?"Alice asked. I yelled in pain and then fainted.
I felt light headed,so bad that I felt like I was lying on a cloud.
Is that a good thing? I don't think so.
Did I die yet? I want to so much.
Emmett's face flashed in my mind. Making all thoughts of death and suicide fly staight out the window. I wanted to see him so much!
My eyes shot open. I sat up,drenched in sweat. I was still in Emmett's room. Everything was quiet,I could no longer hear murmuring voices from outside the room. Everything was eerie quiet.
I looked at the window,moonlight peeked out from behind the shades drawn over the window.
Did I faint again? But the thing I want to know is why I fainted.
Because all I remember is feeling my heart hurt,then...nothing. Nothing at all.
I don't even remember any dreams I had while I was unconcious. Only Emmett's face...that's all I remember.
I got out of the overheated bed,and welcomed the bitter cold air in the room. Sweat drenced my entire body,so bad that it felt like I just got out of a sauna,or even a oven.
"What happened to me?"I mumbled to myself. That's not the only thing I wanted to know right now,I want to see Emmett,that's all thats really on my mind at the moment.
I walked over to the bedroom door and opened it. I heard and saw light from the T.V in the living room. But the volume was so low I could barley hear it.
Is he out there? I wondered. I walked quietly down the hall,thankful that he had carpet. So it wouldn't squeak as I sneaked down the hall.
When I got to the doorway to the living room I hid behind the wall and peeked around the corner. Emmett was there,but he wasn't alone. Two other people were with him. I remembered them,they were his brothers.
"So....Emmett,what are you going to do about that girl?"asked the one with the bronze hair.
Emmett huffed. "I'm not going to do anything about her. Her name is Rosalie by the way. And I'm going to let her stay if she wants,not sure if I can let her leave though."he admitted sourly.
His brothers both laughed and patted him on the back. "Oh man bro,you're love struck harder than Cupid could ever have done."laughed his other brother.
"Shut up Jazz!"Emmett snarled.
Jasper laughed again. "Come on dude,you know it's true. It's finally happened to you. Face it."Jasper chuckled. "Don't you think so Ed??"Jasper asked.
Edward looked at Emmett and smiled devilishly. "Yep. Finally happened to the oldest one in the family."he agreed.
"Okay,drop it. It's none of you guy's business of what happens between me and Rosalie."Emmett said in a serious tone.
I smiled,but jumped in alarm when Emmett got off of the couch. "I'm going to go check on her."he said.
Shit!! I turned and walked quickly down the hallway,hoping that Emmett wouldn't catch up with me.
When I got back to his room I slid back into the room. I jumped under the covers just as the light turned on.
"Rose? You awake?"Emmett whispered in a small voice.
"Maybe."I said.
"You are awake."he breathed in relief.
I peeked out from under the covers.
"Yeah...Just woke up a few minutes ago."I said.
I looked at him and he smiled a small smile. "Can we talk?"he asked.
I bit my lip in hesitation. "About what?"I aske.d
He shrugged. "I don't know,about stuff. That's all."he said.
Good god almighty....he's going to start yelling. "Sure why not."I sighed.
"Getting right to the point,why did you leave like that?"he asked in a hard voice.
I flinched,unaware why I did. "Because I did. That's why."I said.
He huffed,he's getting angry. Great leave it to me to let my quick temper get the best of me at a time like this.
"That's a not a very good answer Rosalie."he spat.
Anger bubbled underneath my skin. No we're both angry.
"What do you want to know?!"I snapped.
"Why you up and fucking left! That's what I want to know! Why you left! I was worried sick about you because you just up and vanished on me like that."he snarled.
He walked over to the bed,putting him right besides me.
I threw back the covers and stood up. "What are you going to do? Hit me now?! Huh! Because I didn't tell you anything you wanted to hear?!"I growled.
Emmett's face turned red with anger. "Rosalie,I would never lay a hand on you. For you to say that to me is awful."he whispered.
Tears immediatley sprang into my eyes,then flowed down my cheeks.
He's right,it is horrible to say that. To anybody,but especially to him. To the kind of man that took me in to his home,without me asking...twice.
A sob broke out of my chest and shook me so profoundly that it rocked me at the very core of myself.
"I'm sorry Emmett."I sniffed.
His shoulders dropped and he wrapped his arms around me,then pulled me roughly to him. My face was buried in his chest,because he's like a head taller than me.
Tears flowed onto his shirt from my eyes,leaving wet spots on his shirt.
"Emmett..."I sobbed.
"I'm not letting go,I want to hold you."he said into my hair.
"I wasn't going to tell you to let go. I was going to tell you not to let go."I whispered into his chest.
"Oh....Rosalie,why did you leave like that?"he asked while running his hand through my tangled up hair.
Tears gushed from my eyes from his question. "Because I felt guilty for being here."I cried.
He pulled back and cupped my face. "Why baby? Why did you feel guilty? You did absolutly nothing wrong."eh whispered to me.
I sniffed.
Then he did exactly what I wanted him to do.
He kissed me.
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AN~
Finally!!Got it done!! I'm sorry that it took so long!! :( I hand wrote the chapter,got it done in like 2 days. But then I just kept putting off when to put it up....I sorry.
Well I hope you enjoy it. I'm going to work more now!!! Bye!!!!