A Fresh Start
Chapter One Hundred Eleven
After several minutes, Jeffrey moves to step back but Sam clings to him. "No, don't go." She says, her hold on him tightening.
"I'm not, but can we sit down?" He says, reaching around to close the door.
She doesn't answer him, continuing to hold onto him. He finally picks her up and carries her over to the couch where he sits down. "It's okay." He says again. Coming back to her after closing the door.
"I'm sorry. I don't know why I reacted that way. I know it wasn't your fault."
"You have every reason to be upset, darling. I know it hurts you to know that I was involved with other women. And I'm sorry I was. But I love you and only you. I don't want anyone else. And I was only teasing you when I said you…."
"I know you were and I overreacted." She says, sitting back and looking up at him.
"I'll have to keep in mind that you're a little more sensitive right now."
"I'm not…."
"I meant because of the baby." He says, reaching up to caress her cheek.
She lies back against him "It hurts to know that I was involved with other women. I understand that." He says, running his fingers through her hair.
"Well, I don't. I wasn't upset about Cassie and I wasn't that upset about Olivia."
"Nothing happened with Olivia, and you know that. But let me remind you that you did slap the hell of her, As to Cassie, she's with Richard and she loves him. There will never be anything between us, but friendship. Shelly was someone that, if I didn't feel the way I feel for you, we could have been a couple, but that will never happen." He says, leaning back to look her in the eye.
"I know." She says, leaning into him.
He softly kisses the top of her head as he wraps his arms around her, holding her. After a few minutes, he looks down and realizes that she's fallen asleep. He holds her for about fifteen minutes before he picks her up. Walking over to the bed, he lays her down and then he picks up a throw and lays it over her.
Reva follows Dr. Shelly to Josh's room. When she opens the door, he's laying there with a bandage on his forehead over his left eye and stitches in his lips. His ribs are taped too but she can't see that under the covers and hospital gown. She walks over to the bed as Josh opens his eyes. "Reva." He says
"Yes, I'm here." She says, taking his hand.
He closes his eye as she pulls up a chair and sits down. A few minutes later, Richard and Cassie walk into the room. They walk over to the bed as Reva looks up. "He looks pretty good." Richard says.
"The bruises haven't come up yet." Reva says, looking over at him.
"Has he said anything?" Cassie asks.
"Only my name, he's been asleep and he'll probably sleep through the rest of the night."
"We're going to go then." Cassie says.
"We left the boys alone." Richard says.
"Of course, go." Reva says, nodding. "Before you go, is Billy still out there?"
"Yes." Richard says.
"Okay, you guys go on and go. I'll call you in the morning." Reva says, looking over at Josh
"Alright." Richard says, taking Cassie's hand
"Tell him we came by." Cassie says.
"I will, and tell Billy if he wants to go home he can. I'm pretty sure he's going to sleep the rest of the night."
"Alright." Cassie says.
They leave as Reva goes back to watching Josh breath. When they reach the waiting room, Billy is standing at one of the windows, "Billy." Cassie says.
"Yes, how is he?"
"He's sleeping right now. Reva's going to stay here the rest of the night and she said for us to go home, including you.".
"He's okay?"
"Yes, he's going to be bruised up but I think he'll be alright." Cassie says.
"Good."
"Are you okay?" Richard asks.
"Umm, I'm just wondering if tonight wasn't because Reva and I pushed him to tell us what he's hiding."
"He should tell you." Cassie says.
"Maybe, he has a legitimate reason for not telling Jeffrey the truth." Billy says
"Whatever his reasons, we're his family and he should tell us what he's feeling or thinking." Cassie says.
"We're not going to answer this now." Richard says. "And we need to get back to the boys."
"Of course." Billy says, following them as they walk towards the elevator to leave.
About an hour later, Sam rolls to her side as she wakes up. Jeffrey is sitting on the couch when she says. "J"
"I'm here." He says, getting up as she sits up.
"How long did I sleep?"
"About an hour." He says, walking over to the bed.
He sits down beside her as she reaches up to tuck her hair behind her ear before she looks up at him. "About before…."
"You don't have to explain anything…."
"I'm sorry…."
"Sam, you don't…."
"Let me finish, I'm sorry I overreacted but you are right it does hurt to know you were with other women after I left. But to expect you to live your life faithful to me is unfair too. I know you thought I was gone. And I let you continue to think that after I went back to the agency and the operation in Russia was over. I don't like that you were with other women, but I have to learn to accept that."
"Listen to me." He says, taking her hand. "I don't want you to hide anything you feel from me."
"Even the fact that I can't stand the Bears and I want the Falcons to go to the Super Bowl this year."
"I'll forgive the delusions of a pregnant…."
"It's not a delusion… It's going to be our year." She says, with a smile
"You keep dreaming." He says, leaning over to kiss her.
"I will everyday and night." She whispers, wrapping her arms around his neck.
"Somehow I don't think we're talking about football anymore." He says, leaning back to look down."
"Umm, maybe, maybe not." She says as she slowly runs her finger down his cheek.
He leans in. "I love you." He says, softly kissing her.
"I know." She replies, kissing him as he moves closer to her.
She lies back, wrapping her arms around his neck. Lying down beside her, he deepens the kiss. After a few moments, he pulls back and looks down. Slowly he looks her face over, memorizing it. "I love you, so much."
"I love you too."
"I can't express what you mean to me, both of you." He says, leaning in to kiss her.
"You love me even when I get jealous for no reason." She asks, looking up when he leans back.
"Yes, even when you get jealous. It's only means that you love me."
"This is new for me."
"I know."
"I don't like the way I behaved this afternoon."
"Beca, you're human. We all get jealous. I was… am jealous of Dr. Westbrook…."
"There is…."
"I know there's nothing going on between you two. But I don't like the way he looks at you. All I'm saying is that jealousy is a natural human emotion." He says, leaning in to kiss her.
"You know, you're a very wise man."
"Yes, I know." He says, with a smile."
"Don't get cocky, Mr. O'Neill. I can still bring you to your knees, just as the Falcons will be in the Super Bowl this year."
"We'll see who can bring whom to their knees. And it'll be the Bears in the Super Bowl." He says, leaning over to kiss her.
When he leans back, she says. "And you say I'm delusional."
"Yes, it must be the hormones."
"My hormones are just fine, Mr. O'Neill." She says pushing him over to his back and straddling him
"Umm, are they?" He asks, looking up at her.
"Yes, they are." She says softly as she leans down.
Kissing him, as he reaches for her and wraps his arms around her, they kiss for several minutes until he reaches for her shirt and begins to push it up her back. Sitting up, she breaks the kiss and looks down into his eyes. Crossing her arms, she pulls her shirt over her head and tosses it to the floor.
"Sam." He says, looking up.
Reaching behind her, she unfastens her bra and then shrugs out of it. Letting it fall between them. She moves back as he sits up. Reaching for his t-shirt, he pulls it off and then leans in. Kissing her again, he pulls her to him as he wraps one arm around her, laying his hand on her cheek. After several moments, he leans back and asks. "Do you have any idea how much I want you?"
"Yes, I do." She says, sitting down on his lap and wrapping her arms around his neck and her legs around his waist.
"Sam." He groans, sucking in a deep breath and holding it.
They stay that way for several minutes, placing nibbling kisses along each others neck, nibbling on each others ear as they move their hands up and down each other. They spend several minutes kissing each other until he slowly begins to move his hands up her back to her shoulders. He reaches for the clip holding her hair up and releasing it, he leans back as he says. "I want your hair loose. I love you're hair. It's so soft and I like the way it tickles my arms."
She leans in to kiss him. After a few seconds, she moves closer to him, tightening her embrace, silently asking him for more. Wrapping his arms back around her, he moves back as he lays her down. Kneeling over her, he breaks her kiss, leaning back to look down. Slowly he moves his eyes over her body, watching her breath, watching her breast rise and fall, hearing the roughness in her voice while she struggles to control her breathing. "I love to hear that." He says, watching her breath.
"Hear what?"
"To hear you breath when you want me." He says, leaning over to kiss her quickly before he moves down her body.
Reaching up, she pulls him down to her. Softly kiss him, she whispers. "I love you."
"I love you too." He replies, leaning back to look down at her.
Reaching for his waist, she pulls his t-shirt up as he sits back and she sits up. Reaching for her, he follows her, pulling his over his head. He tosses it to the floor as he leans towards her but she holds up her hand. "Lay down." She says, moving to kneel in front of him.
"Why?"
"Just lay down." She says as he lies down beside her. She moves over him. "Put your hands behind your head. You can't touch me." She orders
"Sam." He whispers as she leans over him.
"I'm going to make up for before." She says, kissing him.
"Baby, you don't have to…."
She lays a finger against his mouth. "Shhhsh, and do what I said, put your hands under head and you can't touch me." She says softly, nibbling on his ear.
She plays with his ear, kissing and nibbling on it. Listening to him as she moves over to the other side, feeling the deep waves of desire that are beginning to burn inside him. Sweet flames of desire burns through him, closing his eyes, he feels the heat build, slipping further and further into their desire.
After several moments, she can feel his desire for more grow. She moves down to his neck, softly kissing the pulse at the base of his throat before gently racking her teeth across it. He wants to reach for her but she looks up as he looks down and sees the silent command in her eyes as she moves down his chest. Kissing him, until she reaches his nipple, she hovers over him, letting him feel the warmth of her breath for a few seconds before she kisses him, playing with his nipple.
She lays down beside him, kissing him as she moves her hand down his chest. When she reaches his waist, she stops. Looking up, she watches him as she moves over to his other side, continuing to play with him while keeping her hand at his waist.
After a few seconds, he shifts his hips but she ignores him, continuing to play with him as she nibbles on his chest. He sucks in a deep breath, holding and then releasing it in a soft groan of fiery desire. She leans up and asks. "What's wrong?"
"I need to touch…." He says, moving his hands from behind his head.
"No." She says, leaning back over and moving down his chest to his abdomen and lower stomach.
"Sam! Please." He groans, as she dips her tongue into his navel
Staggering waves of desire courses through, filling him with sweet heat and torturing desire as she plays with him, slowly rolling her tongue over his belly button. Arching his back, he pulls his hands free as she looks up, pulling back she watches him until he puts them back under his head.
Sitting up, she reaches for him again, slowly moving her hands down his chest, scratching him as she goes. She stops for a moment to play with his nipples before she continues on, moving over his lower abdomen. When she reaches his waist she moves back, watching him struggling to control the need rushing through him and follow her directions not to touch her.
Reaching for his belt, she pulls it free and then unfastens the button. Reaching for the zipper, she pulls it down as he shifts his hips. Leaning forward, she softly kisses him as he arches his back, grabbing the pillow to keep from reaching for her. "Sam!" He groans, as she looks up.
Kneeling over him, she unbuttons her jeans. Pulling the zipper down, she lies down beside him, pushing them down and over her hips as she arches her back, bringing her panties with them as she sits up and then pushes them down her legs. He lifts his head, watching her. Slowly she moves her eyes down his body, watching his chest rise and fall.
After a few minutes, he says. "I know you want to tease me, but Beca I need you."
His voice brings her back. She moves to kneel over him, kissing him as she reaches for his jeans, pulling them down as he arches his back to help her. She pulls them past his knees. He kicks them off as she reaches for his boxers. Arching his back, she pulls them down and he kicks them off, sighing softly.
Kneeling over him, she kisses him. After a few moments, she pulls away. He tries to hold on, lifting his head as she pulls back. Slowly she moves down his neck, kissing his pulse as it pounds against her mouth. Moving down his chest, nibbling as she moves across it, reaching his nipples, she leans over him, licking them as she lies down again, softly kissing him, and playing with him.
Reaching for her, buries his fingers in her hair, holding her to him. "I have to touch you." He whispers, as she tries to pull away.
Laying her head on his chest, she listens to the pounding of his heart, as she moves her hand down his chest, scratching him. When she reaches his waist, she pulls back, watching as she reaches for him, wrapping her hand around him as he groans. "Sam!"
Slowly she begins to caress him as he reaches for her, moving his hands down her. He stops to caress her breasts, playing with her nipples as she moans softly. He reaches for her, pulling her up as she leans over him. She's still caressing him as he takes her breast into his mouth, caressing her. "J!" She moans, closing her eyes as she squeezes him.
"Beca!" He groans responding to her silent demand.
He moves over to her other breast, caressing her as he moves his hand over her body. Reaching for her, he moves his fingers over her creamy desire, caressing her at the pace she set. After several minutes, when she feels her surrender, she pulls away from him.
Moving down, she softly kisses him before she takes him into her mouth, loving him as he reaches for her, burying his fingers in her hair, holding her to him as he arches his back. She takes him deeper, caressing the length of him before she returns to the tip of his erection, softly licking. Ecstasy courses through him, filling him with heat.
After a few more seconds, he releases his hold on her hair and then reaches to move her around so that she is kneeling over him, her back to him. When he can reach her, he opens her too him, inhaling the scent of her desire and feeling weak at the answering spike of desire that courses through him. Reaches for her first, gently caressing her as she moans softly. Leaning up, he kisses her before caressing her with his lips and tongue, while she takes him deep again, caressing him. Reaching up, he slips a couple of finger inside her, caressing her warm shaft while she continues to push him deeper into the desire that burns through both of them. "Jeffrey!" She cries, releasing him
He continues to caress her as she begins to roll her hips, waves of heat and desire rushes through her. She feels her heart rate increase as she sucks in a deep breath, releasing it in another loud moan. Reaching for him, she holds onto him tightly. Arching his back, she caresses him.
A few moments later, waves of release rolls over her, moaning she holds onto him tightly as the final wave of release crashes against her soul. She slowly pulls away, turning she leans over him, kissing him. She can taste her desire on his lips and sweet heat rolls through her because of it.
Wrapping his arms around her, he pulls her to him, deepening the kiss before he rolls her over onto her back. Leaning up, he looks down into her eyes. The love he sees shining there is more than he ever saw in any of the women he was with when she left, including Cassie. Reaching up, she lightly caresses his face as she asks. "What are you thinking?"
"I was thinking that with all the women I was with after you left none of them looked at me the way you look at me and none of them loved me the way you love me."
"I will always love you." She says, leaning up to kiss him.
Settling against her, she wraps her arms around him, holding her against him. Heat begins to build inside them again. She moves her hands up his back, scratching him as she reaches for his shoulders and pushes against them. He leans back and looks down. "I want to finish what I started, so lay down." She says.
He moves over to his back, as she straddles him, pressing her body against his desire. "Sam!" He groans when he feels her body pressing against his.
Leaning over him, she kisses him as she begins to roll her hips. "Beca!" He groans, reaching for her hips.
She continues to roll her hips as he hangs on to her desperately. Arching his back, he tries to move her back so they would finally be completely connected. She answers his silent plea as she sits up, reaching for him, guiding inside her as she sighs. "J!" Closing her eyes, savoring the feel of him slipping inside her.
"Beca!" He groans.
Sitting up, he wraps his arms around her as she wraps her legs around his waist. Slowly she rolls her hips, as he reaches for her hips, holding her tightly against him. He lets her control their climb to rapture for a few moments before he lays her back.
Entering her again, he swallows her cry of ecstasy as he thrusts. Arching her back, she reaches for him. Pulling him to her and holding onto him tightly as she moves with him. They move together for several minutes, building the desire inside each other as they try to hold on till the other one feels their release.
Looking up, he whispers "Go…on, Beca!"
He feels her begin to tremble deep inside, feeling her being swept away. "Jeffrey!" She cries clinging to him while staggering waves of desire and release courses through her. She moans softly.
He thrust for the last time while soft waves of releases rolls through her again as his release fills him and then courses through her until he collapses into her arms.
The next morning when Josh wakes up, he looks over and finds Reva asleep in the chair beside his bed. She's still holding his hand and when he sits up the movement wakes her up. "Josh." She says, looking over at him.
"Yes." He says, taking a deep breath. "What happened?" He asks, wincing.
"You were jumped outside Jon's Bar last night with Lizzie." She says, sitting up.
"Not so loud." He says. "Why was I with Lizzie at Jon's Bar?"
"I'm not sure, but it's probably because we had a fight and you left. Do you remember anything from last night?"
"Right now, my head hurts too much."
"I'll go see if I can get the nurse to bring you some Tylenol." Reva says, getting up slowly
"Did you sleep here all night?"
"I've been here since Mallet called me." Reva says, stretching to work out the stiffness from sleeping in a chair. "I'll be right back. Let me get the nurse." She says, walking towards the door. She returns a few minutes later. "The nurse should be here in a few minutes." She says, walking over to the bed.
"Okay, tell me what happened last night."
"How much do you remember?" Reva asks, as the nurse walks in.
"Good morning, Mr. Lewis, Mrs. Lewis." She says, walking over to the bed.
"Hi." Josh says, as Reva moves out of the nurse's way.
"Mrs. Lewis says that you're in a little bit of pain."
"Yes." Josh says, as she takes the cap off a needle. "You're not going to give that directly to me, are you?"
"No, I'll put it in your IV." She says, taking the port and sticking the needle in.
"Good." Josh says, relaxing.
Giving him the medication, she checks his bandage as well as blood pressure, heart rate and temperature. "We'll have breakfast up within the hour."
"Okay." Josh says, as Reva nods. The nurse leaves as Reva sits down beside him. "So, what happened?"
"Do you remember what happened before you when to Jon's Bar?"
"We had and fight and I went for a drive. I drove around for about fifteen minutes before I ended up outside Jon's Bar. After that I don't remember that much."
"From what Mallet told me you and Lizzie were leaving the bar after she closed…."
"I stayed until she closed?"
"Yes, Lizzie was locking up when two men jumped you. They knocked her down and knocked her out…."
"Is she okay?"
"Yes, they kept her for observation. After that the two men went after you. Mallet pulled up and they ran. Did you see…?" Mallet walks in and Reva turns to see who came in. "Mallet." She says, watching him walk towards them.
"Good morning." Mallet says, walking over to them. "How are you feeling, Josh?" He asks, turning to him.
"I'm sore." Josh says, as Mallet nods.
"I'm sure you are. I came by to talk to Lizzie, but she's been released."
"So, she's okay?" Josh asks.
"I assume so. Do you remember anything from last night?"
"We were just discussing that and no, I don't remember, not really. I remember leave the house after we fought. And I remember driving around town for a while before I went to Jon's Bar."
"Did you have any problems with anyone while you were at the bar?"
"Not that I… wait there were a couple of young guys. They tried to take the whiskey from me, wanted me to share with them. I refused and took the bottle back from them."
"Did it end there?"
"Umm, I think so. I remember getting up and walking towards the door and Lizzie stopped me. So I sat down at the bar again, across from where I was sitting before."
"Do you remember what these guys looked like?"
"Umm." Josh says, trying to remember. "Not right now." He says, reaching up to rub his forehead and wincing when he rubs the cut above his eyebrow.
"It's okay. Did you see anything when you left the bar?"
"No, I was focused on Lizzie. She was talking about calling Reva and I didn't want her too."
"Okay." Mallet says, putting his note pad away.
"I'm sorry I wasn't more help."
"You've helped a lot. I'll got to the bar and see if I can find out anything else. Thank you for your help." Mallet says, as the door opens and Dr. Shelley walks in.
"Good morning." He says, walking in.
"Good morning, Dr. Shelley." Reva says.
"Good morning." Josh says, as Dr. Shelley looks at Mallet.
"Josh, I want you to call me if you remember anything else."
"I will and thank you Mallet." Josh says, holding out his hand.
"You're welcome, take care Reva." Mallet says, nodding to her.
"Thank you Mallet." Reva says
Mallet leaves as Dr. Shelley's asks. "How are you feeling Mr. Lewis?"
"I'm sore." Josh says, wincing as he shifts positions in the bed.
"I'm sure you are. Mrs. Lewis, do you mind stepping into the hall so that I can examine him?"
"Of course, I'll be outside." She says, getting up.
"Thank you."
Reva leaves as Dr. Shelley begins his examination. Examining, his ribs and the cut over Josh's eye, he also checks his blood pressure, heart rate and temperature. About ten minutes later, he opens the door. "Mrs. Lewis, you can come in again."
Reva walks in as Dr. Shelley walks back over to the bed. "So, how is he Doctor?" She asks, sitting down in the chair again.
"He's doing quite well for what happened. You're going to be sore for a few days with those ribs but I think you're going to be fine, Mr. Lewis. I'm going to go ahead and release you, but I want you at home in bed for at least a week so those ribs heal properly. I'm going to give you a prescription for a pain killer, but I want you to take them only as they are prescribed. They can be very addictive, if taken improperly. I want to see you back here in a week so that I can examine you to make sure those ribs are healing properly."
"Okay." Josh nods.
"Good." Dr. Shelley says, walking towards the door. "I'll be back as soon as we have the paperwork in order."
"Thank you, Dr. Shelley." Josh says, holding out his hand.
"You are welcome, Mr. Lewis, Mrs. Lewis." He says nodding to her as he turns to leave the room.
About an hour later, he returns with the paper work. Explaining all of his instructions, Josh signs the release papers as the orderly appears with the wheelchair. Normally Josh would protest the wheelchair, since his accident and he was paralyzed he never wanted to be in one, but he didn't have the energy today. With the orderly's and Dr. Shelley's help, he sits down in the wheelchair and they leave.
When they reach the lobby, Reva goes to get her car. And when she pulls up to the door, the orderly pushes Josh out to the car and helps him inside. Once Josh is settled, they leave. "Do you mind if I stop at the market to pick up a few items and then we'll go home?" Reva asks.
"No." Josh says, settling back in his seat.
Reva's as careful as she can be, driving to the market and then to Cross Creek. She's surprised to see Billy's truck in front of the house when they pull up. She parks close to the door and then turns the car off as Billy gets out of his truck and walks over to them. "How did you know?" Reva asks, getting out and walking around the car to open Josh's door.
"I stopped by the hospital and they told me that he had been released. So I came over here. I was expecting you to already be here?"
"I had to stop at the market for some things." Reva says, opening Josh's door. She unfastens his seatbelt and helps him take it off.
As Josh slowly turns to get out, Billy says. "Here Reva, let me do that?"
Reaching for Josh's arm, he helps him out of the car as Reva steps back and then turns for the door and opens it. When they enter the house, Billy asks. "Do you want to go upstairs?"
"No, I can't make up the stairs right now." Josh says, leaning on Billy
"Alright, the study?" He asks, looking at Reva.
"That's good, let me go ahead and get the couch ready for him." She says, walking around him and into the study. By the time she has the study ready, Billy and Josh are walking into the room and she moves out of the way as Billy helps him down to the couch and then he settles back, closing his eyes. "Let me get you some pillows and a blanket." Reva says, walking into the hallway.
She returns shaking the blanket out, she lays it over his lap before Billy helps him to lean up and she puts the pillows behind him. Leaning back, he tries to relax but his ribs are hurting from all the movement. "I've got your prescription in my purse." Reva says, walking into the living room and returning a few moments later with a glass of water and the bottle.
"Thank you." Josh says, taking the glass and Reva opens the bottle and gives him the dosage prescribed on the bottle. He takes the pills and swallows them before he leans back.
"I don't want you to worry about Lewis. I'll take care of the sites and the meetings." Billy says.
"Thank you." Josh says, closing his eyes. The ride from the hospital had worn him out.
"We'll let you sleep." Reva says, drawing Billy from the room.
"Okay." Josh mumbles, already feeling himself falling asleep.
They leave the study. When they reach the living room, Billy asks. "Was this about Jeffrey?"
"I think some of it was. He doesn't remember too much right now. And we haven't sat down and discussed the fight we had before he left."
"And I assume that fight was about Jeffrey?"
"Yes, he came home to try and persuade me that we shouldn't tell Jeffrey the truth. He lost his temper and said…." Reva pauses. This was the first time she had thought about the comment Josh made as he was leaving the night before.
"What?"
"He said something really peculiar yesterday before he left. I tried to question him about it but he wouldn't answer me. He just left."
"What did he say?"
"Basically that we shouldn't tell Jeffrey the truth, given my history, what do you think he meant by that?"
"I don't know. But I think we need to drop this until he's able to talk to us about it."
"I agree." Reva says.
"Good, don't worry about the job sites, I'll handle Lewis." Billy says, walking towards the door.
"I'm not worried." Reva says, opening the door for him.
"I'll come by later to check on both of you." Billy says, walking out of the house.
"Thank you." Reva says, standing in the doorway.
"Take care, and don't kill him."
"We'll be fine." Reva says, with a smile. Nodding, Billy walks towards his truck. He waves as he starts it and then pulls away.