Chapter 5

Paul and I sat in the kitchen, just the side lights on the room dim, we were either side of the Table just looking at each other. I didn't know what to say Paul seemed so nervous, I looked at the time it was getting late i tried not to yawn.

'I'm sorry for the other night' he said looking up at me he was playing with his hands running them over eachother, I could see his knee was going as well.

'That's okay I didn't really say thank you for helping me, it was horrible, I can't stop thinking about it' I said feeling embarrassed thinking back to that night, my chest beginning to hurt again, we fell silent again.

'How have you been?' he asked

'Okay thanks' I gave him a small smile it was all so awkward

'Good' he smiled back at me I took a deep breath.

'Look the other night' he said taking a breath

'Paul don't worry about it I have forgotten about it, sorry I over reacted, i think i was just so overwhelmed with what had happened, i just needed to go somewhere i could be safe and i needed Sue.' I told him just wanting all these feelings I was having would just leave me alone.

'No I want to talk about something else' He said looking back to his hands that were running over each other constantly now. I just looked at him, he almost baffled me, the way he acted was so explosive and unpredictable, I looked at him for a little longer, in this light his features were soft.

'The questions you asked me' he said lifting his head his eyes meeting mine, they were a deep brown. I just furrowed my brow slightly trying to think of what I had asked him, so many things had been going around in my head I didn't know which was true or what I had fantasised about.

'It is true that I have imprinted on you, I didn't mean to but obviously we are meant to be together in some sort of way, I did try to fight and deny it I won't lie to you. I didn't want to believe it, i saw how the others acted and how the people they imprinted on were everything, almost like they were dependant on them,' he paused for a second looking at the table still, his water untouched

'but you are all I can think about, it is all just so new and consuming me, I am just trying to get my head around it all still'. He said looking at me seeming to study my face to see my reaction. He run one of his hands through his hair again and again.

'Oh' i felt my lip quiver 'So you didn't want to imprint on anyone then?' I said no knowing how I felt his reply was so mixed

'I never thought that i would, but here we are' he said his hand resting on the back of his neck

'If I left, would it make your life easier to go back to how it used to be?' i asked him quietly

'Lil if you left me, I don't know what would happen but it wouldn't be good for either of us' he said seriously

'What are we?' i asked him biting my bottom li nervous at how open we were, i had forgotten that Seth was near us, he was so protective, Paul cleared his throat

'What ever you want us to be, what ever feels right' he said his voice seeming to be slightly strained

'What do you want?' i asked him, i could feel the heat in my cheeks He just looked away clenching his jaw. i felt my heart start to slow down and i looked down, my eyes feeling heavy. we both fell silent again, my mouth had gone dry.

'I better leave it is late' he said after a while it was late and I was almost stunned.

'Why?' I asked suddenly aware that he was going to just leave me.

'It is late Lily' he said softly I blinked feeling sleepy, i wished he wouldn't go

'Can we talk tomorrow?' I asked hoping he would say yes.

'Sure I'll let Seth know when I am on my way' he said standing up. I watched him walk around the table.

'see you tomorrow' he said when he got close to me

'Thanks for coming over' I smiled at him, I saw him nod to Seth, I lay my head on my arms and lt my mind wander as I drifted off to sleep.

I woke up still at the kitchen table I was sleeping on my arms that were folded up on the table, I shot up I had a bad ache in my neck I slowly twisted it and stretched, I looked at the time I had a shower and got ready for my shift at the diner.

I rode shotgun in the car with Sue, we chatted I told her about Paul coming over, I could always talk to Sue she knew what Paul was like she just listened to me nodding and chiming in now and again.

'That was a good thing to do, for you both to talk, keeping it to your selves is not a good thing as otherwise it all bubbles over and all come out, normally in anger or sadness.' she smiled she was so positive and soft

'Yeah, i am glad we can have a chat like that' I looked at the trees whizzing past, we pulled in tot he diner, we were on time, Sue shut the engine off and placed her hand on my arm giving it a soft squeeze before we got out of the car, we walked in to the back entrance of the Diner, Calling our hellos to Carl, we made our way through to the back, we hung our coat and bags up and greeted the chef, we tied our hair back and put our aprons on, I worked the tables as Sue made the drinks and made sure the food orders were put through, the locals were so kind, many of them remembered me and told me that they were sorry about my Mom and how she was such a lovely lady. We were quite busy the time went past quickly. I was talking and laughing with a family that were in, the door opened I looked at who it was I smiled and felt my hands become clammy, Paul walked in with Jake, Quill and Embry. Paul leading the pack they drew the eye of everyone in the room, the girls followed their every move.

They went over to Sue and put their order in. They took a seat after saying hello to me, all i could focus on was Paul i saw the other girls looking at them all and people talking amongst themselves. I finished taking my order at a table with a young family on it, the kids were so sweet.

'What do you say?' The Mom said to her Sons

'Thank you' they said together i just smiled at them

'You are more than welcome' i smiled at them and walked over to Sue and gave her their order, she looked at Paul then me and gave me a small wink I just waved her off.

I picked up the food for a table for an older couple who were sitting in the corner watching the world go past them, I put their food down for them and got them some extra napkins and some steak knives so they could eat their food easier.

'Tank you, dear' the lady said

'You're welcome, would you like another drink?' I offered them they looked at each other and started asking each other if they were or not.

'No we are okay thank you' the man said I smiled at them both.

'That's for the boys' Sue smiled I got their plates and took them over, there was so much food piled up, so many extras, they all thanked me as i placed it down and they passed it all around, I had felt Paul watching me since he had arrived, I leaned over the table to give him his food, our hands brushed against each other as he took the plate from me, our eyes met I smiled and went back to get the rest of the food, feeling the heat creep once gain to my cheeks. I bit my lip as I picked up the rest of the food, the doors swung open again I didn't look this time as I was focused on Paul, I felt his gaze on me. I passed the rest of the food around.

'You got everything?' I asked after they all thanked me again and started eating

'Yes thank you' Jake said already tucking in this made me smile I shook my head.

'Paul?' I asked him

'Yeah I've got everything' he said taking a drink his eyes making me almost zone out.

'Burr!' I heard someone call out I turned my head frowning slightly, i raised them quickly when I saw who it was. I almost gasped it was my old friend, Michael,

'Michael?' I asked I used to hang around with Michael and Seth all the time, Michael and his friends got on with everyone, they were such a laugh and always getting in to trouble, we used to have a lot of classes together as well as usually all eating lunch together, we lost contact when i had to move away.

'You know it' he smirked I went over to him, he swept me up in his arms making a noise as though i weighed a tonne, I felt my feet leave the ground i wrapped my arms around his neck and laughed as he held me off the ground for a seccond

'I'm working' i laughed , he put me down, beaming smiles on both of our faces.

'I heard you were back in town, Seth told me i bumped in to him the other day' he said looking at me

'I thought you had moved' I said tapping his arm with my pencil

'I'm back for the year, doing a placement for my University degree' he said smiling again just focused on me

'Oh wow that sound fantastic, how is life treating you?' i asked him i could Feel Paul staring and almost silent so he could hear us it seemed the diner was listening to us

'Yeah really good thank you, are you in town for long or just visiting?' he asked

'Oh well it was a visit but i don't know i have missed it here so much' i said lifting my arms slightly and shrugging

'Well whenever you're not working we should get together and have a proper catch up' he said touching my arm, i heard a soft growl from behind me as he touched me

'It is so good to see you,!' I said scanning the tables, Pauls stern eyes locked on Michael, Jake was saying something to him, Michael would never do anything malicious .

'What's his problem?' Michael scoffed at Paul, I didn't say anything

'So I'll see you soon?' I asked him he nodded and gave me another hug, he ordered a take away coffee and a can of coke, before going back out to his car which had another guy in it. He gave me a wave and Kicked the dust up as he left. I smiled it had been so long since I had seen him, I cleaned the tables and checked the tables, Paul was fuming he never took his eyes off of me, it made me feel uncomfortable.

The guys finished so quick, I walked over to them scanning to make sue they had all finished almost nervous to meet Pauls eyes

'Was that all okay for you?' I asked them, it was met my nods and yesses from them all.

'Lovely' Embry smiled at me I got another drink round Paul was now looking out of the window muttering to himself, and clenching his jaw, looking in the direction the car had driving in, another soft growl leaving him, he was playing with the empty water glass in front of him.

'Dude you need to chill out' I heard Quill say

'Did you see how happy she was? Fuck sake' He said bluntly, his eyes almost wiled, i was going to the wash up at this point out of ear shot

shut the Fuck up' I heard Pauls booming voice I could tell he wanted to get angry but couldn't because of his surroundings. I just turned at looked at him as i came back out, there was no need for that sort of language here, I caught Embrys eye. I sighed and carried on working.

I finished my shift and the place was starting to empty out, I got changed and walked out Paul was standing near his truck he was so breath taking, I looked at him as I walked over to him, I got there his backwards to me, there was a small brown haired girl standing there, talking and laughing with him, twisting her hair between her fingers, flirting with him, the pain shot along my chest, Paul looked around and saw me, I felt so hurt, I just took a shallow breath.

'Anyway,' She said and passed him a piece of paper and walked off he watched her for a second, I turned around ready to get a lift with Sue once she has finished her shift, the others had paid and gone. so he could flirt and do everything he used to do.

'Lily!' Paul called me, I looked over my shoulder at him I didn't know what to say my chest was hurting so bad, it felt like heart burn, I clutched at it and tried to relax hoping the feeling would pass. I closed my eyes and tried to take some more deep breaths. Turning my head away from him.

'Lily?' I looked Paul was right in front of me I looked up, his face soft and his eyebrows scrunched together

'Sorry I'm okay' I told him taking my hand away from my chest,

'C'mon lets go have that talk' he said touching my arm sotly I followed him and got in his truck.

We drove with the music on, the piece of paper the girl had given him sitting on the seat in between us. i just looked at it, my lip curling slightly

'So how are you, did you have a good shift?' he asked me

'Fine' I said still looking at the paper in the seat, we fell silent again, I didn't know what to do or say to him. I pulled my knees up and looked out the window, I undone the window letting the wind rush over me I lay my head on the bottom of the window, Paul seemed to move uncomfortably, I took a long breath and let it out slowly and closed my eyes. I hummed along with the music.

I felt we had come to a stop, I opened my eyes and looked we were at what looked like a the Olympian park, it was amazing.

'Woah' I said looking around, I saw Paul he was looking at me, I just held his stare. He got out and opened the door for me.

'Thanks' I smiled and hopped out he shut it firmly behind me, his hand still on the door, almost across my body, out faces close to one another's, I looked at his lips his jaw, I didn't look any higher.

We were walking along close side by side I was just looking I had missed this so much, the air was filled with bird song, everywhere you looked there was life, something living, vivid colours and wonderful fresh smells, I bent down and picked a flower, I admired it, I subconsciously picked it apart as we carried on walking. There was a bench over looking a lake we sat there.

'Lily, I can't stay away from you, I can't stand seeing someone else make you happy' he came out with while looking over the water I was confused.

'It's the imprint, I just want to be with or near you all the time, I want to get to know you, protect you. I know it is strange and isn't normal but I honestly can't help it' h said looking down at his hands, I reached out and placed my hand on his, it was almost like a static shock between us.

'Then get to know me, unless there is someone else you want t get to know' I half smiled at him.

Hours slipped by as we chatted about our lives, I told him about my schooling, when I moved to the city, I skipped over a lot about my aunt and uncle, he had had quite an unsettled life s well, his parents had been killed, his Dad was a wolf like him, and his mother couldn't cope with out him causing her to sacrifice her own life. I felt tears roll down my cheeks when he was telling me, he didn't go into detail, he seemed to open up more and more, he was a different person the 3rd side of Paul I had seen. I couldn't take my eyes off of him, he was on high alert all the time, I never told him about the pain in my chest and he never said anything else about the way he felt, on the drive back I lay with my head out the window again I closed my eyes, my hair flew around, I could feel Paul shifting around again.

'Thanks for a lovely evening' I said to him as we pulled up at Sues.

'Welcome I'll see you soon' he said, the inside of the windows had steamed us as it must have been warm in the cab of the truck . I looked at him sitting in the corner of his cab, as I got out I closed the door just anger i gave him a small wave, Paul made sure I got in okay then drove off, I closed he door and stood smiling to myself.

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